Aprils pov
We were near a town, and we shifted back to human form.
Dylan, Goddess bless his soul, had packed our clothes and some money as well. He had packed all that in his backpack and carried it with his teeth while in wolf form.
We changed and started walking into town.
It wasn’t very busy, and we made our way to a motel.
“We should share a room so that it would be cheaper. ” Dylan says out of nowhere.
“Yeah,” I agree.
We get a room, and damn, it feels good to see an actual bed!
The bed is well-spread, and the room, to say the least, is just plain dull and gloomy.
It has grey walls, curtains, black tiles, and a grey duvet. The bed is in the middle of the room, which is an okay size.
I mean, what the hell is it with the depressing colors?
Maybe it is to depict how the walls are as dull as my soul.
“Damn! This place looks so depressing,” Dylan says as he walks in behind me.
” I know, right. ” I fake a smile.
” Then we would just have to brighten it up with our colorful personalities,” he jokes.
I actually genuinely smile at that one.
” I need to shower and get all this blood off me,” I say out of nowhere.
” Sure.” He replies.
The bathroom isn’t hard to find, considering how small the room is.
I open the door and enter. At least the bathroom looks 1000x better than the actual room.
It has brighter colors, and the bathtub looks really big and classy. Above it was a shower. I like the fact that you have a choice between the shower and the bathtub.
I spy a container on the wall cabinet with rose petals in it and I instantly make up my mind to go for the bathtub.
I open the tap and put the rose petals in the rising water.
Right before the water is about to overflow, I close the tap.
I take off my clothes one by one and wince slightly as it makes contact with a slight bruise. After I’m done, I put one leg into the water. Then another.
Slowly, I fit my whole body into the bathtub. I moan loudly at how good it feels.
I stay that way for a long time, and then I start scrubbing off the blood. I scrub myself till my skin feels raw.
Suddenly, the memories come flooding back. Oh, my Goddess, I killed the alpha, and I…. I…. hurt Jake. I’m the reason why so many people died.
The guilt has already taken root, and the tears start flowing of their own accord.
I cry for what seems like hours.
Finally, I decided that it was too much. I got out of the bathtub and dried myself. I then changed into other clothes and left the bathroom.
I enter the room to find Dylan setting up breakfast. Damn? When did the sun rise? How long have I been in the bathroom?
“Oh, you are finally done, I thought I was going to-” he stops as soon as he turns around and sees me.
” Butterfly? What’s wrong? ” He asks while walking to me with his arms wide open.
I step into his embrace, and I can’t stop the sobs that escape me.
He walks me to the bed, the food long forgotten. He lets me go, but I still hold on to him.
” I’m not going anywhere, April. I just want to get in bed, ” he says, and I let him go.
That’s when it hits me. We are actually going to share a bed together, and if it wasn’t for my sad mood, I would’ve probably freaked out.
Once he is inside the duvet, he pats the empty side of the bed. I go instantly, lying on one of his arms while the other hand grabs my waist. He pulls me to him.
He then removes the hand I’ve been using as a pillow and puts my head on his chest. His hand goes to my waist, and then he whispers, ” Cry, April, let it all out,”
“I can’t. It’s a sign of weakness.”I say in between hiccups.
” April, I’d be more worried if you didn’t cry. I mean, you have been through so much in such a short time, and yet you have survived. How is that weakness? You are one of the strongest people I know, and I won’t judge you if you cry. So, let it all out,” he says, and his words evoke something in me because before I know it, I’m drowning in tears.
The pain of everything comes tumbling down on me, and it crushes me into an abyss that I will never escape from…..
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