This lasted for a few days. She felt like she couldn’t stand to be in Richie’s presence. Whenever he was around she felt sick and wanted to run away. It felt so much worse because she loved him so much. She knew that she was hurting him but didn’t know how to stop. However, a few nights later, her son decided to bring it up as they ate.
“Mom, I love you,” he said that night after a largely silent dinner.
“I love you too dear,” Kitty said, blushing.
“I know you are nervous about what happened,” he said. She looked at him, trying not to look too anxious. They both knew what he was talking about.
“Yes,” she said, taking a sip of her wine.
“If you don’t want to talk about it for awhile, I understand,” he said casually, “I know what we did is kind of wrong…”
“No it isn’t honey and if anyone was wrong, it was me,” she tried to explain.
“It didn’t mean it like that,” he said, still eating casually.
“I don’t think you did anything. I am sorry,” she said and started to tear up.
“Don’t cry mom,” he said and came over and gave her a very son-like hug, “I am sorry I made you feel bad.”
“You didn’t. I did,” she said, she kept picturing his penis blasting into her asshole and she felt terrible because it made her horny all over again.
“Mom, I am just trying to say that you are still my mom. I think that night was really fun and I will always remember it. But I don’t want you to be afraid of me or anything. You didn’t hurt me. And I won’t say anything to anyone. And if we don’t do it again, I won’t love you any less. So don’t be afraid around me.” She held him in her hug even closer. She had raised such a wonderful son. It was like he knew everything she needed to hear.
“I am not going to be distant forever,” she tried to explain.
“You just need some time,” he finished. He seemed so much more mature now. Suddenly, he understood women, “I understand. I just wanted you to know that I love you.”
“I love you too,” she said and gently kissed him on the forehead. After that she felt a little bit better. Things settled into a more normal routine in her life. She felt more normal at school and her sexual thoughts returned to Rachael. She managed to say hello to Rachael at school. Her son was just as loving and normal as ever and her husband was just as cold and unnecessary.
However, just a few days after her dinner-time conversation with her son, something else happened to shock her back into Ariel’s nasty little world and reminded her of everything that was at stake. She got a call from her brother Ian while she was on her way home from work.
“Hey Ian, how are you?” she asked. He never called unless he needed something and tonight was no exception.
“Hey Kit,” he said, calling her that childhood nickname that meant he was desperately in need of something.
“What do you need?” she asked with a heavy sigh.
“Listen, I know that you say I only ask when I need something but this time it easy me,” he said in his whiny voice, “It’s Michelle. She needs you to pick her up from school this week and bring her home,” he explained. Kitty’s niece, Ian’s daughter, Michelle Anderson was a beautiful young girl who went to college for performing arts around three hours from home. Kitty’s heart sank when she thought of her. Michelle was 5’4 — 100 lbs at 20 years old. She was built every bit the dancer that she was with her long, lithe legs, thin flat stomach and tiny breasts. Her face was gorgeous and she had the world’s brightest smile. She always had her hair cut very short, like a pixie cut and her hair was naturally bleach blond. Kitty suddenly remembered that she was supposed to be seducing this girl.
“Why can’t you get her,” she said robotically, feeling like everything was about to start all over again. She was just starting to get over her guilt and now she had to jump back into it.
“You are going to be so happy!” he said and she had the feeling that she wouldn’t be. “I have a job interview. Like, with a real job!” he explained. He had been out of work for months now and she had been pestering him to do something about it. She should’ve been happy.
“That is really good news. What is it?’ she asked. She knew that she sounded disinterested, but it was all she could do to keep from screaming.
“Jeez, you could pretend to be happy for me,” he said.
“I am, I am sorry. Tough day at work. What is it?” she replied and that seemed to mollify him now. He went on to describe some kind of boring sounding accounting job, but he had worked himself into such a hype about it that she almost got excited for him.
“So can you do it?” he asked, “It’d be on Friday. You could leave after work.”
“Well…” Kitty said, trying to think of a good way to get out this.
“Fine. I won’t go to the interview, but you cannot ever get on me about this stuff again. Seriously, you are such a hypocrite,” he said and that struck a nerve. That was exactly how she felt right now. In every aspect of her life, she felt like she was saying one thing and doing another. She felt so ashamed.
“No, you are right,” she said, “I was just thinking about a meeting I thought I had on Friday afternoon. But it isn’t it is Thursday. I can go pick up Michelle after school on Friday.” She lied about the meeting, but he seemed to buy it. She felt silly, as though he was somehow thinking she was trying to seduce his daughter. Oh god, she was going to try that.
“Hey thanks sis. I know you are busy, I didn’t mean to call you a hypocrite. I am just excited about a job. You know, I feel like I have turned a corner with my drinking…” Her brother said and she spent the next ten minutes listening to the same litany she had heard a thousand times, but she felt good. Maybe he was going to turn his life around and maybe she would be able to get out of her tailspin too.
The next few days past slowly. She felt tense again and her son seemed to sense it, but he continued to give her distance. She truly appreciated it. At the same time, she was trying to come up with a plan to finish this thing, so that she could be done with all of Ariel’s awful tasks and she could get back to what was once a normal life. She didn’t like to think about ways to make her niece a whore, but she really wanted Rachael back. Besides, in unguarded moments she admitted to herself that Michelle was a very attractive girl.