She went out and finished breakfast, speaking softly with her children and trying to act normally. It was a hectic morning and none of the girls, save Roseanna, seemed to sense that anything was amiss. After the girls had left in Jackie’s car, Janine went to work. She felt a bit relieved at work. She was able to focus on her tasks and the gnawing guilt that had developed in her stomach. By the end of the day she was almost feeling normal. However, occasionally a sudden image of the previous night would ignite a near hallucination. The sights, sounds, smells, and tastes of the night were very real and they caused her to feel amazing and awful at the same time.
She drove home slowly after work, picked up Tera and went home. She wasn’t in the mood to cook so she ordered a pizza. She noticed that Roseanna didn’t appear to be affected at all. She talked to her sisters like she always did. She ate pizza with gusto and generally acted like the same girl as always. In reality, she too was feeling very confused, but she was felt there was no moral fault in what she had done. She didn’t want to act strange, because she wanted her mother to do it again. She had spent the whole day resisting the urge to beg her mother to fuck her again. She knew that she was going to have to be patient. She was willing to wait.
To that end, that night, after dinner and as the family went to sleep, Roseanna went to her mother’s room. She knocked softly on the door and at first there was no reply. She knocked louder and she heard her mother tell her to come in. She looked at Janine on the bed and noticed the almost pained look in her mother’s eyes. Roseanna winced, she knew she needed to be delicate.
“Hey mom,” she said cheerily.
“Hello,” Janine said, fearing her daughter wanted something that, tonight, she could definitely not give.
“Hey, I just sort of noticed you acting a little weird today.”
“How so?” Janine asked, feeling silly even as she said it. She was really just too confused to admit that she was in a bizarre mood that day.
“Come on mom!” Roseanna said, laughing and sitting down on her mother’s bed.
“Okay,” Janine said, sighing and grasping her daughter’s hand, “I have been feeling a little off today.”
“Well don’t,” Roseanna said and she could tell she had her mother’s full attention, “Whatever happens between us, you are my mom. I love you.” Janine felt hot tears forming in her eyes, she wiped them away quickly. She felt a small sense of relief.
“I love you too. You know how much that means to me,” Janine said.
“I know,” she said and they leaned together, hugging each other tightly. Janine now felt safe. She didn’t know why, but she needed her daughter then and Roseanna had been there for her. To reassure her. It was truly a blessing that she had this daughter. As she was thinking this, Roseanna turned to face her mother and gave her a quick, but romantic kiss on the lips. Janine was a bit stunned.
“Goodnight mother. Just know I will always keep your secret until you don’t need it anymore,” Roseanna said in a sexy, sultry voice. She stood up from the bed and walked out of the room.
“Thanks,” Janine said, putting her hand to her mouth.
An Accidental Show
On Thursday and Friday everything was back to normal. The girls did their various activities, Janine went to work and felt comfortable in her skin again. On Friday afternoon, when Janine arrived home from work she prepared to take the twins to their “father” in the city. She helped Roseanna and Rachel to pack their things into the car and the two were excited. They really enjoyed their father’s home and it was always a treat to drive them there as they chattered and giggled like they were little girls again. She knew they could drive themselves, but she wanted to be there with them, capture them for a few hours of time.
Before Janine left she gave Jackie money so that she could buy herself and Tera something to eat for dinner and generally did all of the fussy mom things that sort of annoyed Jackie now that she was a college aged girl. Hell, Tera was 18, she could rent an apartment by herself if she watned, let alone Jackie. But Tera and Jackie sat out on the front porch and waved goodbye to their family and then rushed back into the house, smiling at their evening of pure freedom.
“So what do you want for dinner?” Jackie asked as they plopped down next to one another on the couch.
“I am not picky, you are,” Tera explained and she picked up the remote and turned on some reality TV. Jackie rolled her eyes. Making food decisions was not really something that she relished.
“Fine, Chinese,” she said and Tera smiled. Her favorite.
The girls ordered food. The rest of the early evening was pretty normal for the two in their alone time. They got along surprisingly well and, despite the fact that Jackie was older, when it was just the two of them they interacted more as close friends rather than bitchy older sister and annoying little sister. They made popcorn, watched bad movies, and generally just had a good time.
They played horseshoes in the backyard and chess at the kitchen table. They were both in a fantastic mood as the sun went down and the weather began to get a little stormy. They turned on the TV again, this time only to find static. Their cable was horrible and tended to go out whenever there was the slightest bad weather. They sighed and considered DVDs but decided they were really in the mood. They also realized that they had played far too many games of chess to even consider another board game. So they sat on the couches and began to get quite bored. Finally, Jackie could take it no longer and decided to start a conversation. Any conversation.
“So, you have a boyfriend?” Jackie asked her younger sister, stretching out on the couch and looking at her sister intently. Jackie was always more and more surprised by what she saw. Tera was a beautiful woman now and she her older sister was starting to see her as an equal, rather than a silly little girl.
“No,” the girl said matter-of-factly. Jackie noticed that Tera blushed as she said this. Tera was very quiet on matters like boys and relationships. Jackie thought it was quite cute.
“Nobody?” Jackie probed, getting off of the loveseat and sitting next to her sister on the couch, she leaned her shoulder into her sister and laughed.
“I don’t really like any guys,” Tera finally said without much emotion. Jackie sensed something strange in the way her sister had responded to that question. She decided to dig a little deeper.
“Not even any cute boys you don’t want to date?” she asked.
“Nope,” Tera said, now turning to her sister with a look of slight annoyance on her face. Jackie decided to back off a minute. Tera was a strange nut. She rarely spoke about what she was feeling and you generally had to glean it from her attitude. Also, she rarely got upset but when she did it would last for days at a time. Jackie knew she was playing with fire any time she teased her sister and she had become cautious over the years.
“Want to hear about my most recent boyfriend?” Jackie asked, standing up from the couch and heading over towards the kitchen to grab a drink.
“Okay” Tera said, perking up a bit. Any shadow of an attitude slipped away. She was intensely interested in all parts of Jackie’s personal life, which was both flattering and annoying to her older sister.
“It was a girl,” Jackie said matter-of-factly, as she unscrewed the cap of her coke and sat down on the couch again. Tera’s eyes bugged open and she stared at her sister. Jackie took a big, casual sip of her drink and then reclined back in the couch, avoiding any eye contact with her sister. Finally it was too much for Tera to manage.