“She was a beautiful girl, a girl I met at college. We were sorority sisters together and she found out about my secret and loved me anyway. We wanted to live together and have children and so we started down that road. Then she died. I knew that with her I had the strength to raise you as I was, but without her I was alone. Her brother, your ‘dad’ and I decided that I would raise you as a single mother and we would pretend that we had been married and divorced. He was the only person who still supported Ella when she chose to be with me. He is an incredible and decent man and you will continue to call him your father if you have any love for either of us.” Janine felt strange now, unburdening herself. She couldn’t even meet her daughter’s eyes.
“You are such a beautiful woman though,” Roseanna said, “all the boys I know always say how hot my mom is. It’s just strange. You are like my model of what it means to be feminine. You are just such a perfect woman I can’t imagine that you were born differently”
“I am still your mother,” Janine explained and then smiled, “And I am still hot.” Roseanna laughed and smiled too. The room felt considerably lighter now that the secret was out in the open. She felt touched by her daughter’s words and felt that maybe they were even closer than before.
“I don’t care about anything else mom. I know you are a woman and I know you are my mom. I know why you lied to me. I am not angry or anything. I was just confused. Now I know so I am not upset anymore,” Roseanna said, almost to herself rather than to Janine. She was proud of her daughter, it felt good to see her grappling with issues and coming to her own conclusions. She was becoming quite a woman.
“So you like women?” Roseanna said and Janine almost laughed, it was such a strange question. She had never even considered romance since the death of Ella. She didn’t know if she liked anyone.
“I have been with both men and women. I only ever loved Ella, but I have been with anyone since she died. I don’t think I could ever be with a man again,” she explained, feeling strange with her frankness.
“I don’t know what I like. Sometimes I think I only like girls. Honestly. Sometimes I think I like both. I don’t know,” Roseanna said matter-of-factly. Janine was surprised by the girl’s frankness.
“Are you…” She said, suddenly realizing that she might have a small problem on her hands.
“Sexually Active? No,” Roseanna explained, “I have never seen anyone naked in real life in a sexual way. I am just talking about what I feel. Like that guy Dennis or Dale or whatever that Rachel wants to date. He does nothing for me. But the lady at the 7-11, she makes me excited. I can’t explain it.” It was like a wall had broken down between them and this gave them the ability to talk to one another.
“I don’t know dear,” Janine said, “I can’t make this any easier for you. All I can say is that anything you do is fine by me. I love you and always will.” The girls sat quietly for awhile and smiled at one another. They giggled uneasily and they knew that they were going to be alright, but didn’t know where to go from there.
“Well, I guess I am going to go to bed,” Janine said, “but I want you to do me a favor and not tell your sisters or anyone else about this. I know it isn’t really fair, but I want to keep my secret to as few people as possible.”
“Well I won’t tell anyone Mom,” Roseanna said, “But don’t go yet.” Roseanna was shifting uncomfortably in her bed and Janine was concerned. She sat back down in her chair and crossed her legs. She looked at her daughter with concern.
“What is it honey?” she asked.
“Can I see it,” she says abruptly. Roseanna is blushing even as she asks it, but she is intensely curious. So curious that she can’t bear not to ask, even if it means intense embarrassment and rejection. Janine was shocked and a bit confused. However, she was surprised to find herself a bit excited. She looked at her daughter and was ashamed to say that she felt a bit of desire in her body for Roseanna. She was a gorgeous girl and she was obviously interested. It was a horrible and shameful feeling for a mother to feel for her daughter, but Janine couldn’t deny it. Nor could she ignore the obvious sexually curiosity in her daughter’s eyes.
“I don’t think that is a good idea,” Janine said in a quiet, choked voice. She was staring into her daughter’s eyes and they both felt something changing. And both of them liked it.
“I look at transsexual porn on the internet,” Roseanna said abruptly, looking at her mother without moving. Janine was shocked, “I am not lying. It is everything that I want. It has the softness and the beauty of a woman. The breasts and the lips, but it has the cock that I think I want too.” the open way she was talking excited Janine more. She wanted her daughter now. Wanted her badly.
“Are you serious?” was all she could manage to say. She stood up from the seat and felt like she was floating above her body. She was looking at her daughter’s hair and her breasts as they heaved against the tank top she was wearing.
“Yeah,” Roseanna breathed.
“Okay,” Janine said, almost panting now. She quickly threw off her tank top although she could not explain why. The air was cold on her nipples and she felt them harden. Her daughter’s eyes were on them. She carefully pulled down her pajama pants. Her cock was still soft and it flopped easily out of her pants and bounced against her legs. Roseanna looked at her mother’s cock and smiled. She leaned in so that her face was only a few inches from it.
“It’s very pretty,” she said, lifting her eyes to see her mother.
“Thanks,” Janine said. She could smell her daughter’s perfume now. She found it quite sexy and she felt a bit of a rush in her head. She could see her daughter’s cleavage now and it aroused her. She knew that before long she was going to have an erection. When her daughter breathed out and she felt the warm air of Roseanna’s exhalation on her cock, it started to harden. Slowly, but surely, it filled and became quite erect. In a few moments, Janine was rock hard.
“Oh my God,” Roseanna said, peering closer, “It is so hot,” she said and Janine felt her knees get weak. Roseanna knew she was in charge now. She knew the effect she was having on her mother. She also knew she had her greatest fantasy turning into butter in front of her. She had always been attracted to her mother, she had known it was wrong but she thought Janine was gorgeous and feminine. She was also highly attracted to transsexual women. She hadn’t been lying to her mother, she spent hours on the internet, combing through erotic pictures of gorgeous women with big dicks. She couldn’t believe that her two taboo fantasies had so perfectly dovetailed together.