The drive to Christians house was long, we and gone too far without even knowing it.
“Are you okay, you should eat something, let’s stop at a fast food restaurant”
“I’m not hungry”
“It’s not just you know, you know that”
“I might not be pregnant” I said and she raised a brow.
“I know the both of you have wild and erotic sex, I see the love bites he never fails to register on your skin and I can always hear you two from miles away” the last part was just hyperbole, I prayed. “He fucked with the pill before you come on the cruise”
We have been having sex since then, he’s been pouring his semen in me, time after time, he released inside me. I winced mad rubbed my eyes with my fingers, not fully able to shake that sleepiness off.
We reached the house, the gate opened.
“I don’t know what to tell you, but it’s not as bad as I made it seem. It’s your life though and we can always go for the procedure if you don’t want to keep it”
My mind flew to the possibility of carrying life inside me, of ripping that life into shreds, I put a protective hand over my belly, unconsciously.
“I see” Kylee said, her voice was soft and gentle, so were her eyes whw i turned to look at her.
I gave her a nod and climbed down from the car and walked inside the house. Kylee drove away. I sucked in breath as I saw the shattered place that was once a living room.
Nothing was in the right place, everything was broken and torn into pieces. The only and expensive dining table, broken, the chandeliers too were dragged from where they hung in the ceiling and they now laid on the ground, in pieces.
I picked up a piece of paper, laying unharmed in the midst of all the destruction. It was a receipt, for the house.
He had bought it to destroy it.
“Jesus” I gasped. The amount didn’t even unravel me, I was slowly getting used to his wealth.
If the house was a mess, how was he?
I walked further, that beautiful vase I had once knocked over when I was eavesdropping on him and Adeline was now laying in pieces, I picked up a single piece.
“You came” the deep voice startled me. I shook and gripped the piece too hard, the sharp edges cut into my skin.
With a small cry, I threw the piece down, blood snaked out of the cut in my palm.. Christian rushed to me and took my hand.
“I’m sorry” he pleaded.
“It’s not your fault”
“It is, I broke the vase”
I tried to pull my hand away from him and he pulled me closer, until we were hugging and he cried, harder than I’ve ever seen him.
“I thought you would leave me” he held me until I struggled to breathe, I fought for air. “I’m sorry, I swear, I shouldn’t have done it. I was scared, I was scared that you liked Jay and you’d run off with him, I was scared of a lot of things of loosing you. I just, I thought it’d be the only thing that with keep you…”
“That will keep me tied with you”
He pulled out of the hug and slipped to his knees.
“Please, forgive me”
I gritted my teeth in my mouth.
“Why do you think I’d run off with Jay” I asked.
“You did it” he said, I frowned down at him. “It’s the truth, my fears came to life. You ran off with him to get away from me”
“It was because of Talia”
“You broke your promise to never run from me. Talia or no Talia”
Christian and his promises.
His promises were like vows, blood oaths, covenants that were supposed to bound you to him.
“You want so much control” I whispered.
“I barely want control over anything except you. I crave to control nothing but you”
He was telling the truth with tears in his eyes. Who had control over who?
At that moment, Kylee’s words came back to me. Have I really made him desperate and made over me? Do I know what I’ve done?
I went down to the ground and sat down. The wound had clothed.
“You’re supposed to be having an event tonight”
“Fuck them” he said very frostily. “Jenna, tell me you’ve forgiven me. Tell me you understand, tell me you love me”
“You’re a pervert” I said as if I was just realising and he frowned.
I laughed.
“My pervert ” I whispered and he shuddered, as if he was naked in middle of a snow storm and cold wind blew on him.
“Thank you” he said and cried again and he came and eased me on the ground and made love to me, slowly and deeply. I could hear the apology in every moan, every kiss, every sigh.
After I had found my release , I laid there naked and looked around.
“The house is a mess” I said looking at the living room.
“When I came back from the hotel, I panicked. I thought you’d never come back. Thank you for coming back”
I shook my head, telling him he didn’t need to apologize. There were too many promises he asked me to keep that I know I had broken.
My mind lingered on my belly, but I didn’t speak about it to him. Even though I had forgiven him, he was still rigid and insecure and suspecting.
I stood up and he stood with me, I bent to gather our clothes and he shook his head.
“I’ll do it”
He picked them from where they were scattered on the floor.
I went to the bedroom, thankfully, it was still intact. I went to the bathroom and took my bath, he joined me. I wondered if he would be extremely clingy after what had happened. I rolled my eyes at the thought and mentally slapped myself for liking the thought.
“We’re going to your event tonight” I told him.
“I went to stay here, with you. I don’t want to go anywhere”
I scoffed.
“You know it’s important, during my spare time yesterday morning I reached it and you guys are helping a ton of people”
“They can go on without me, I want to be here with you, I need to be here with you”