His question, echoes in my head, was it just sex I wanted from him?
The man in particular was the most sought after bachelor in the entire country and he is standing with me in the hallway of a random hotel. He is eager to know what I want from him. His money… His cock… His connections…
“No, it’s not just sex I want from you” I admired, I could feel embarrassment eating my toes.
“Then why do you always make out time together about sex?” He asked me, still angry but more softer, in a more curious manner.
I shrugged.
“Talk to me, tell me the truth, I want to know why” he said.
“I make it about sex because.. I turn it sexual because that’s what I would allow myself to feel, I use the lust to block but the. to block out…” I said trying to finish my statement but I just couldn’t do it. I was stuttering all over the place.
I wanted to tell him that I used the lust to cover up the love, I had feelings for him, it made me feel doomed because our relationship was clearly never going to be accepted, it would never work because of what people would have to say, he was my step uncle.
I was lost in thoughts and I did not even know that Christian was talking until he paused and called my attention.
“Jenna..” the deepness of his voice shook me from my thoughts and I blinked frantically.
I was shocked that his eyes had turned extremely soft.
“Why did you think I asked you to my girlfriend?” He asked me. It was a good question, millions of girls would kill to be in my shoes then and what did I do, I ruined it.
I gulped, I didn’t even have any time to think about it. I did not have an answer and I wondered if I was even meant to give him an answer.
He stepp the forward and cupped my face. I love it when we were this close, when I could smell his cologne and feel the heat if his body in me, when he looked at me with nothing but adoration and love.
“I’m in love with you Jenna, I have been in love with you for the longest time and I have been dying to spill it out” he said.
His hands dropped from my face and he turned away to pace for some few seconds but he turned back to me quickly.
“Di you know how hard it is to wait, do you know what it feels like to love someone and not be able to tell them, not be any to have them. Sometimes during my short visits to the house, when I’m around you, I feel my act breaking, I catch myself staring at you too long, reaching for your hands, calling your name when I didn’t need anything, I just just wanted you and I’ve been waiting for you to develop feelings for me, even if it was just a little bit and I’ll take it from there, a little bit is enough for me.. as long as it’s you Jenna ”
My mouth fell ooey, I wanted to shout ‘I knew it’ at the top of my voice but instead I found myself breaking down in tears.
“Did I say something wrong?” He asked me leaning forward to clean the tears from my cheeks.
I shook my head, I needed to bury my face in a piklowy somewhere and scream in joy.
“Baby, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to make you cry” he said pulling me into his chest for a hug.
He wrapped his strong arms around me and I stayed there, buried, with a wide grin on my face.
“It worked” I said pulling out of the hug.
“What worked?” He asked in confusion.
I laughed shortly but he looked too anxious to catch the joke so I just stopped laughing.
“I fell in love with you, I don’t know when but it happened and I thought I was stupid ” I said cleaning my eyy so that my vision would be clearer, so that I could read his expression. “I thought it was only sex you wanted and you’re reject me anything and I was too embarrassed to even talk about it”
The hallway was quiet, as if he wasn’t standing there at all and I was only hallucinating him, his face was without any emotions, just blank.
“Please, repeat what you just siady” he said stuttering, it was a shock to me because the Christian I knew was ever fluent in speech no matter th emotions involved in the discussion.
“What part please, I said a lot of things” I told him, he walked towards me and pressed me against the wall, he placed both of his hands flat on the wall beside me, literally trapping me.
“Tell me you love me” he whispered in a voice I had never heard before, a shiver ran down my spine, my lips parted but no words were coming out.
“Jenna.. you’re making aan go crazy over here” he said yet again in the voice, I felt my legs sway. In his eyes were raw hunger, he wanted to hear those words desperately.
“I love you” I said but my words came only barely above a whisper.
“My god..” he cursed and his lips came crashing towards mine.
The desires in his kiss… It was nothing I had ever felt before. I felt his tongue pushing into my mouth, asking for an invitation, I gave it to him and he took it quickly.
He moaned in my mouth and felt my hands come to live at my side, I dug my fingers into his hair and pushed him into me.
The kiss turned heated and deeper every passing second, I feared that we would end up in the hallways, buck naked, with his cock finally inside me, taking my virginity.
He broke out of he kiss shortly, his green eyes seemed as if they had been polished.
“I have waited for what seemed like an eternity to hear those words from you” he said pressing our foreheads together.
“I love you” he said before taking my lips roughly. I moaned and he smiled against my lips, I felt his hands at the back of knees and immediately o felt myself being lifted off the floor, he wrapped both my legs on his waist and held me there.
We were so indulged in the kiss we didn’t hear the door opening.
“What the fuck?!” A familiar voice yelled.