“You are mine”
“You belong to me”
“You every beat of heart should take my name”
“I possess you”
“You are my treasure, Tereso ”
I woke up with these words echoing in my head because this is exactly what I have heard for hours and they have now imprinted in my head just the way he wanted.
My body was in excruciating pain, especially the area between my thighs, which was incredibly sore even without any movement.
Everything that happened last night was so vivid in my memories that I didn’t need to think about it again nor I did I want to.
The last night was like a nightmare to me where I didn’t want him yet my body ditched me. I have never felt so conflicted in my life ever before.
I am not sure if he stopped even after I lost my consciousness or not. However, I believed that he hadn’t because the intensity of the darkness I saw in his eyes last night was terrifying, the beast that I had never seen before. It seemed like he was determined to destroy me, and now, I can’t even move a muscle, just the way he desire.
My eyes slowly flicked open. I was expecting the sunlight to penetrate my gaze but it was blocked by something and who I moved my eyes up I got to see the nightmare of my life who was staring back at me with a small smile on his lips.
Sure, he must be happy ruining me!
I am not sure how long he was looking at me but the amount of light in the room was telling me that it was passed the time of his office.
I am surprised that’s he let me sleep so long and he also missed his office and work which he rarely does. Despite the hellish night I had endured, it didn’t matter to him, he would still have woken me Upin his cruel manner.
I didn’t fight him neither I wanted so I just closed my eyes slowly trying to escape the reality of my life because sleep is the only place where he is not present.
I have reached a point where I don’t care that he is staring at my sleeping form. He could do as he pleased, I had no energy left to resist. I don’t have to fight anyone.
After a few moments, I felt his fingertips slowly tracing my back, sending shivers and goosebumps whenever he touched me but I kept my eyes shut and my body unmoved. I didn’t even react when his hand moved down to my waist, leaving a trail of goosebumps at the back. He pulled my body closer to his as if trying to merge us into one.
His fingers gently caressed my back as if he was not the one who had gone so rough with me the previous night.
He placed his chin on my head while my face was nuzzled into his chest. He seems calm yet I couldn’t tell if he decided to repeat the night. The mere thought of it was enough to terrify, I knew I wouldn’t survive a repeat.
“I am sorry, Tereso” he murmured his words vibrating through his chest.
Sorry for what?
We apologize when we are really guilty of our actions and we decided not to repeat them. But I am sure that he will not hesitate in repeating it, and blaming it on me, stating it as one of my mistakes.
“I lost control in a fit of anger and was too rough on you” his voice was barely above a whisper, but it reached my ears crystal clear. “But it’s also your mistake. Why would you think about another man when you know you know belong to me?” His grip on my waist tightened.
I nodded accepting my mistake. I already knew that he was going to blame the last night on me. In fact, he will blame everything he is doing me.
“You know that I could be gentle as well. You saw that on our first night. I lose my control when you go against my will. I am not sure what would I do next time if you repeat the mistake ” he spoke.
“I will never repeat this mistake, Ansell ” the words tumbled out of my mouth on their own. “I have understood that I don’t have anywhere to go’
“My Tereso” he kissed my head, “neither of us would have to endure so much pain if you had understood this earlier”
I wanted to cry but tears didn’t come out my eyes. They have dried and I have already accepted my fate, resigned to the life I was now trapped in.
“You belong only here” he wrapped his other arm around me as well, “in my arms”
I let out a shuddered breath before closing my eyes. Ansell’s fingers continued their gentle, soothing caress along my back, sending shivers down my spine.
“It doesn’t have to be like last night every time. I just want you to surrender to me completely and I will bring the world to your feet” he murmured.
“I don’t want anything, Ansell. I know I am yours, and I won’t make the same mistake again” I spoke with my eyes closed.
Though I have accepted the submission but in the depths of my heart, I knew that our twisted bond was far from straightforward, and the scars of the past night would never truly fade.
“Still, I want to gift something” Ansell insisted, pulling back slightly, his gaze searching my face, attempting to meet my eyes.
“You already know what I want, Ansell” I told him.
My eyes are void of any tears or emotions, my throat dry and my lips chapped. I am sure I am looking like a mess at the moment but he care less. He was looking at me with equal adoration as he used to in our past days.
“But for that, you have to fulfill the condition of.. ”
“I will marry you, Ansell”
I closed my eyes cutting him off.
“I will marry you” I repeated with a small nod of my head to assure him.
My life has already been shattered by him and I have accepted my fate . I have understood that I cannot run away from him, marrying him or not. But not accepting his condition is putting my brother in more trouble. At least the pain of one of us would end and my brother would be able to live the Life he always wanted.
The thing he has been doing with me for the last month since I have discovered William’s existence it is no longer related to his sister. He is not Punishing me for the deeds of my brother instead he is claiming his right over me fulfilling his sadistic obsession and now I am sure that he will never let me go. Then why to put my brother through torture when my suffering could free him?
Either way, I am going to suffer so it is better if one of us lives their life.
I also wanted to be with Ansell now it is my fate that he turned out to be a devil. I would have to endure the pain of loving in the past.
“Tell me, Nara, that you are not kidding, ” Ansell’s excitement seeped into his voice.
“No, I am not” I replied, opening my eyes to meet his gaze. “I want my brother to be free, not only from your capacity but also from the false rape allegations. I am willing to do anything for it”
“I can’t withdraw the rape charges ” Ansell’s tone turned serious.
“Please, Ansell ” I pleaded desperately, ” he has suffered enough. Your sister is safe now. She has moved on in her life and you are already punishing me for my brother’s actions. You will have me for the rest of your life. I promise you the submission you desire. Just release him, clear his name of all charges, and let him go. I beg you, please”
“We will see about that” Ansell blinked and kissed my forehead.
A glimmer of hope starred within me as I saw a chance that he might accept my plea.
“We will have a grand wedding and..”
“Grand wedding?” I cut him off before he could say anything else.
“What happened? Don’t you want it?” He asked me, “As far as I know you had dreams about your wedding”
Not anymore!
Because this is not a normal wedding, the way I always manifested. It is going to be a death of mine. I don’t want anyone to witness my pain.
“No, I don’t” I told him clearly.
“Why?” He asked.
I stayed silent and averted my gaze away from him.
“You know” he continued, his voice softening, “Whenever I attended a wedding, I always imagined you as the bride. I longed to see you in a beautiful white wedding gown, walking towards me looking the most radiant, all for me”
His words carried a mixture of desire and possession, making it clear that he saw this wedding as a way to solidify his control over me. His eyes held small tears as the told me his desire.
Tears of what? Happiness?
Why is he so blinded with with an obsession that he can’t see my pain.
“I didn’t want anyone else to attend our wedding except our close ones like court marriage” I told him clearly.
” We may not have a bigg wedding but I want to see you in a wedding gown”
I blinked.
“My Nara ” he again kissed my forehead. “I can’t wait for the day we will become one forever and till eternity ”
The thought sent shivers down my spine and dreaded me to the core. What if every night turned into a repetition of the horrors I had endured the previous night?
. I am sure if my future nights turned out to be like that then I won’t survive.
“I need to do a lot, and he the first thing I am doing is asking the lawyer to prepare the wedding papers”
Suddenly he left the bed and stood up. His moved jerked my body badly and a loud wince left my lips on its own as I felt a jolt of pain going straight to my groin.
“I am so sorry” he apologized once more, but his words couldn’t mend the agony he had inflicted.
I don’t want his apologies. I can never forgive him.
Slowly he removed the duvet from my body, making me bare for his eyes in the broad daylight.
His eyes flicked down my body and my eyes followed his. This time I didn’t make any attempt to hide myself because it was of no use nor did I have energy.
My body bore numerous deep red marks, Imprints of his fingers etched into my bosom, waist, thighs, and bite marks scattered across my skin. These were painful reminds of the night’s brutality and his cruelty.
When my eyes returned to Ansell, I noticed a flick of remorse and pain in his eyes.
But they were of no use now, the harm has already been done.
His eyes moved to my face when he felt me staring at him. He then bent down and picked me up in his arms in bridal style before walking towards the bathroom. I placed my head on his chest, surrendering to him, to let him do what he wanted rather than to fight which I knew was of no use now.
Every step he took shot pain in between my thighs but I tried my best to keep my painful groans in control.
“Let’s clean you”
He made me sit in the bathub before joining me. I placed my head on his shoulder and let him do whatever he wants as he cleaned me as gently as he could.
I was a disturbing act of acre from him amid the torment I had endured because of him.