I regretted those words that left my mouth the next second, but the harm had already been done and I cannot do anything now.
All I could do was pray for the safety of my dignity. Because he turned me around and pushed me down on the bed, it seemed like things would end the way I did not like.
My hands rose and rested on his chest to push him away so that I could create some distance between us but my attempts were futile as he slammed his palm on both sides of my skull and hovered above me leaving very little distance between us.
I was aware of how little control I had over what would come next so for now I decided to Keep my lips sealed but I was also aware that I could not my keep my mouth shut for long, even when I knew that it would do nothing more than put me in more trouble.
“What I am doing to you is not even one percent of what your brother has done to my sister” he said, finally breaking the silence, which felt more dreadful than this words.
One of his hands lifted up and for a second thought that he was going to hit me. I braced myself for the pain but instead, he tucked back the strand from my face, one of the many things he is fond of. He doesn’t like any kind of barrier on my face when he is staring at me.
His fingers traced down from my temple, across the side of my neck, and along the curve of my neck, finally resting on my collarbone. His gaze followed his finger’s path, and the intensity of his stare felt like a searing heat. His finger was caressing my skin softly but his eyes were burning holes in me. My skin prickled where his fingers had grazed and goosebumps rose at the place where he touched me.
I could clearly read his intentions through his eyes. His thumb drew a letter on my breastbone, which was ‘A’ . I wouldn’t be surprised to know, just in case he is planning to tattoo his name there to tell the world that I belong to him and also to remind me every time I look at myself in the mirror.
I tried my best to keep my tongue under control but I couldn’t. The con of being a lawyer, at least for me.
“How could you be so sure that he is the one who is behind all this?” I asked.
His thumb stopped moving on my skin. His gaze flicked back at me. The intensity of his stare made my breath cath in my throat.
I won’t deny that the crazy way he was reacting at the moment made me scared of him but I cannot let this be the reason not to share my thoughts. After the dungeon incident, I am sure about one thing; he will not take my life.
His jaw twitched as he drew in a deep breath, his eyes flashing danger.
“So you mean to say that Desy… My sister is lying?” He raged, his voice seething with anger. “Haven’t you seen the wounds on her body? Those deep cuts caused by the knife?”
I can’t forget them because I was deeply affected when I saw those deep cuts on her skin. I couldn’t even digest the fact that a human could do something so painful to another.
“I am not saying that Desy is lying. I am feeling as sympathetic for her as you must be feeling. I pray that no girl should go through what she has gone through. It is outrageous and barbaric ”
He stayed silent as I spoke which I took as a cue to talk to him sensibly.
“But sometimes we fail to see the truth even when it is right in front of our eyes”
I brought up the point based on my experience as lawyer, knowing well that not all cases are as clear-cut as they may seem. There have been instances in my shut case turned out to be something entirely different.
I just hoped, deep down, that perhaps my brother’s case was of those instances. Even if he is dead, just in case he is innocent, the last I could do for him is to remove the title of rapist from his name. I just want to dig deeper into this case. Something in me is just not ready to accept whatever has been told me till now.
This world seems more complicated than ours and they could use anyone to be successful in their sinister games.
“My sister is not blind. You are not in a position to say anything like that when she has gone through everything. And why would she lie? What would she get out of it?” He asked but I stayed silent. “In fact, there was no need for me to listen to the story from her mouth; I myself saw him; he was… He was…”
His voice trailed off as he turned his head away , squeezing his eyes tightly shut as if the memory was too agonizing to bear. I watched as he closed his eyes, taking deep breaths, seemingly attempting to rein in his rage. The sheets beneath his grip bore the brunt of his frustration, his fingers clutching them fiercely.
Now it was his limit and I better know to keep my mouth shut than to arouse the beast in him, which would not satiate untill it had consumed me whole.
“Do not try to play with my mind” his head turned to me sharply. “You are a lawyer in your court but here you are my possession, my treasure; I have every right to do as I please with you”
His hand once again came to cup my cheek. I didn’t protest this time nor did I lean into his touch. I just stayed at my place, staring at him with the same eyes I used to stare at when I used to like him.
I know really well that I cannot defeat him in physical strength; I would have to think with my brain if I wanted to get out of this situation.
He got drawn into my eyes, as expected. He kept on looking, which felt like an eternity; the world around us faded and a heavy silence settled in the air.
“You know what?’ he whispered, his breath grazing my lips. “You know really well how to spoil my mood”
Suddenly, he sat back, letting me release the breath I had been holding for so long. My heart was still thumping in my chest but I was relieved to know that at least he was not over me and he was not going to do anything now.
The conversation turned out to be fruitful and also learned a way with which I could trick him.
He crossed his legs as he sat there, still staring at me. Taking this as an opportunity, I gradually shifted to sit against the headboard. I let my hair cascade over my shoulders, to cover them.
I wasn’t sure what I was expected to do next but I was ready to spend the entire night sitting just like that in case he was going to keep this distance from me.
To distract my mind from him, I turned my head and stared at the front wall, thinking about the way I could get more information about the case. But my thoughts were cut short with his next words.
“But I am not letting you go so easily” my head turned to him and I found that he had now shifted closer to me. “I want something in return for granting you the privilege to stay with your parents. It’s my right, and I won’t relinquish it”
My forehead furrowed as I swallowed hard, bracing myself for whatever he was about to say next.
“As I have promised you that I will take you the day I will break this little spirit of yours and you will beg on my feet to claim you” he smiled but it was nothing more than a sinister one. The confidence in his voice was so high that I shuddered. “So I will not break my promise because I see mean that I can’t do other things with you”
His words felt calculated as if he had a clear plan in mind for how he intended to break me.
“But until then, we can practice” his smile turned mischievous. “You know, to perfect your skills. After all, I know you haven’t kissed anyone before, let alone anything else” his words sent a shock through me. “Let’s take it step by step, and we’ll start with a kiss”
“Come kiss me” he instructed, his words a soft command that seemed to echo in my ear.
My heart skipped a beat as I heard him. He had always taken what he wanted from me, but the idea of willingly kissing repelled me. I will not give anything to him willingly.
“It’s now your responsibility to please me,” he continued, his tone darkening. “And you know the consequences really well if you fail”