Asher
I sat in my study with my head thrown back on the chair as I slouched on it. My fingers tapped against the mahogany table as I tried to process what had happened recently.
Several thoughts raced through my mind as I tried to come up with a reason why all these were happening now but I couldn’t.
I felt a chilling sadness inside. I couldn’t help but wonder what Kayla was doing at this second and how she could be feeling with Emily in the castle.
I took a deep breath when I heard footsteps moving toward the door.
I had instructed the guards not to disturb me and I was surprised when there was a knock on the door.
I did not immediately answer, thinking that it must be one of the omegas coming to ask what I would have for lunch for the second time in two hours. I waited for someone to open their mouth and say, “Alpha, it is well past lunch hour” or something but no voice came.
So, I pinched the bridge of my nose, clasped my fingers together, and prepared myself to whisk whoever it was that had come forward. “Just leave me alone, you-”
I had just started but fell short of words when I saw none other than my brother Robin standing in front of me. His emerald green eyes fell on me, before scanning meticulously.
“What do you want?” I asked quite bluntly. I looked away from him and pretended to be reading through the file in front of me.
“You are a wreck brother,” he commented on my present state and appearance, but I couldn’t even take offense to his words.
“This is the least of my problems right now,” I said in a low tone, as pain tore through my body.
Robin’s eyes narrowed on me and we dwelt in an incredibly long seconds of silence, staring intently at each other. His deep emerald crystals reflected an emotion I had never seen before. It made my heart bang against my chest.
“Tell me, brother, what are your plans now that Emily is back? You know with Emily back here it only means that your marriage with Kayla is now nullified.” He sounded, his voice holding no emotion but his eyes couldn’t mask the fear that pushed forward.
His last words made me freeze and a furious growl left my lips at his words. I was far in control of anything, especially my emotions. I felt a grueling gruesome sensation steer in my bones and I could feel my heart drum loudly in my ears.
His words were something I didn’t want to believe even though the harsh truth was staring right at me. I felt my wolf howl in my head, also feeling my fear, frustration, and sadness. He has been quiet since the return of Emily. I sighed and desperately wished that I could talk to my wolf, he was more capable of having a better idea.
I raked my hair with my fingers, clutching a handful as Robin’s words sank deeper into my mind. There was a deep turmoil in my broken soul. I didn’t like the idea of no longer being married to Kayla.
I could see that Emily’s appearance was hurting her. Pain and sadness were imprinted on her round shocked gaze and I wanted to take all the hurt away from her but I didn’t know how. I had not been able to think clearly about anything since Emily showed up out of nowhere.
Oh, Goddess. I didn’t know when my feelings for Kayla grew this intense. I needed her more than anything. I wanted to own and possess every part of her but the thought of our marriage being void hurts like hell. Kayla was the ray of light that broke through the walls of agony, misery, and sorrow that had enclosed my heart.
Fuck. I hated this. I hated it badly. Why did it have to happen now at a time, I was beginning to have a chance with Kayla?
I shut my eyes, feeling the pain, and sadness from inside my bones. I fought the stinging that began to erupt around the corners of my eyes. I hated this. Oh Goddess, please help me.
I buried my face in my palm and tried not to show how vulnerable I was in this situation. I didn’t like to show weakness in front of anyone. Kayla was the only one I had shown my weak side to after the death of Emily, I meant fake death. I didn’t know that I had zoned out on Robin and was fighting against the bitter reality of my life.
“Asher, what are your plans? How do you intend to navigate your way through this messy situation?” His curious eyes pried into the depths of my eyes as he crossed his broad arms against his chest.
“I am confused and don’t know what to do brother,” I admitted with a broken voice. “I have destroyed my life and become a ruthless beast all these years thinking I had killed Emily. Thinking I had failed her as a mate. So for every new dawn these past years, I had only wished for one thing: a chance to reverse my actions, a chance for her to be alive and back in my life. Now, my wishes had been granted and I was given the opportunity I had desperately craved for but-”
“But Kayla is also in the picture.” He answered for me when I couldn’t bring myself to say it.
I nodded. “There’s no way in hell I would let her go. I would rather die than for her to leave. She is the soothing balm to my broken heart. Nothing mattered in my life if she wasn’t next to me. I needed her more than the very air I breathe.”
Robin’s brows crippled on me, and his eyes bored at me like he was seeing through my soul. “Who are you talking about exactly? Kayla or Emily?”