I left the party when I received a call and it wasn’t from Ella, it was from Ava. The bad news is that I could barely hear her speak.
I hear her crying on the phone, I don’t understand what is going on and why she hung up when I kept screaming her name.
When she called, the first few seconds were silent until I had to scream ‘ Hello Hello’ a couple of times and what broke the silence was her loud cry.
I have to find her wherever she is, she has to explain what is going on in her life. Lately, she hasn’t been so active with her chat with me or calls. And I feel like this is part of my fault, I had been too occupied with my mates and didn’t have enough time to check on my best friend.
But she shouldn’t have told! She should have ringed me and poured out to me and I will listen. I didn’t choose to be all that busy, I have to be everywhere! Everyone needs me, my mom needs me, my mates need me, my baby brother needs me, Jezz my fucking academics needs me too!
I know it hasn’t been okay for her either, not having your mom around for quite a while because she feels guilty and couldn’t withstand your sight, you know? it sucks!
She feels lonely. I know it hurts and it drives you crazy, I feel helpless because I don’t know how to bring her mom back and her so-called dad has never been available for her and her only brother is damn out of the country, schooling!
” Please follow the map!” I yell to the driver irritably, sighing out my frustration. I tracked her location immediately after she went off the call. I have no idea where that place is, but from the call, I could hear music playing in the background.
She has no relative to be with and to spend time with but she has mine, she has me. I’m her family, and my family is her family but she chose to go back home after Ella arrived.
The reason I still feel guilty, I don’t believe I forgot about her boyfriend she once told me about. He’s Roman. The guy that helped us to deal with Riley some time ago in a hotel.
I shouldn’t have let that skip my mind, maybe she was right about ‘ Everything is always all about you, Elen.’ Those words hurts a lot and made me think of my life for the next two hours after the call.
Maybe it has always been about me because I never ask her about her love life with her boyfriend.
No, I never seek for her to give me the gist about him or maybe I never tried to be overwhelmed that she finally has a man.
But she has been there for me, she does everything to make me fine. Now that I think of it, I want to cry..
I’m sitting in the back seat and crying out my eyes because I didn’t notice this little thing will hurt her.
…
The Uber stop and I didn’t realise when because I’d been so emotional with my whole thoughts.
” The location points to this place, ma’am.” the driver says and I look out through the window. It’s a club.
I see a banner of some ladies completely naked and whatever shit.
” Hey, ma’am.” I shake out of the blue from my silence. I was lost in my thoughts, not paying him off yet.
” I’m sorry, here is your money.” I drag some cash out of my bag and give it to him before I come out of the car.
He drives off while I’m still in complete doubt. Is he sure this is the place? Hell no, Ava would never come here. I mean.. Alone. Even when with me, we fucking don’t do this, we don’t come to play like this.
I sigh. I don’t believe so I need to go in and see if the driver is either going insane or not, for taking me to this damn place.
I go into the entrance then I am suddenly consumed by the loud music. It is as though my ears are unexpectedly blocked out. And the light is too dim and the variable colours are enough to make you dizzy.
I continue to walk inside when I hear yelling, laughing, and chanting but I can’t make out of it what they are saying over there, or what is going on. And there’s this HOT LOVE song, that’s being played, sounding more like a trap song.
“What’s going on over there?” I ask a lady who I consider completely naked because she only has red pants on and it shrank into the middle line in her ass. I’m not judgemental, so I just stare and take my eyes off when she ignored me.
I move further and I see nine guys surrounding a counter.. holding bottles of alcohol, and an unidentified lady lies flat on the counter and the gown she’s wearing stops below her ribs.
Four shots are scattered all over her naked stomach and some in between her breast. The crowd erupted in cheers as a familiar guy licks the sugar off of her skin and eats the piece of cake right out from her mouth. Then comes the second and the third and then the fourth guy…
She let out low sounds, and I can tell it was a moan. Then she laughs and she rises to turn sideways on the counter.
I couldn’t see the party girl before but now I can.
” Ava?” I shriek with such volume that the guys stop to cheer and stare at me. My best friend’s head turns in my direction and I blink at her like I’m waiting_ praying, to wake up from this bad dream.
She’s here. The scene I’m witnessing is real.
” What are you doing here?” she asks and walks away from me, grabbing her bag from whoever was holding it for her. Maybe it was the familiar guy.. and I suspect it’s the Roman guy.
But, She. Just. Walks. Away.
” What the hell, Ava?” I chase after her, my elbows ramming into people’s sides as I try to get a hold of the stranger wearing my best friend’s face.
” How the fuck did you find me here, Elen?” At last, she stops and spins around to yell at me, her stares are like bullets penetrating my skull.
” Of course to find you.” My voice cracks.
” Like you care about me?” Her eyes roll.
” What are you saying, of course, I care about you, Ava.” My mouth falls open, but she hisses and then she starts to cry.
” Ava, what are you doing to yourself? You don’t need this, you don’t need to be in this kind of place..” My eyes are tearing.
“Here is where I need to be because nobody wants me! Nobody cares about me!” she is crying, and I feel sick of myself for not noticing all this while.
” Ava, you have me..” I say softly, trying to come closer to her but she steps away and raises her middle finger at me.
” Don’t you dare tell me I have you? I mean everything has always been about you, your mates your mom! And everyone, but me no fucking one!” She says irritably, running to her car.
” Ava, I’m sorry I didn’t notice you were hurting.” I run after her, but the groan becomes louder.
” Go away!” She spits.
“I’m sorry, please hear me out, we need to talk..” I cry along, my heart shattering to million pieces.
” I don’t want to speak to you, nor see your face!” she shouts at the top of her voice, tears of rage in her amber eyes and she suddenly slams the door of her car and drives away, with that guy.
” Ava don’t do this..” I plop my hand across my lips to stifle the cry I want to let out. What’s gotten into her? she left me.
My face is reddish and my eyes are wet and swollen as I crash on a chair outside the place. I tried to calm me down but wouldn’t stop crying. .. When I feel this is part of my fault too. Thinking that I’m part of those that also hurt her.. I feel terrible.
My phone begins to vibrate in my bag, my eyes are swollen I can’t see the screen properly. I wipe my eyes, sniffing my nose as I tap on the call to answer.
I don’t know who it is until I hear the voice. ” Elen, why did you fucking do that?!” he yells, causing goosebumps to crawl onto my skin.
” Do what? Oh sorry I left, I’m so sorry. I couldn’t have..”
” Not why you fucking left!” he shouts as he interrupts me. I wipe my eyes completely as I straighten my body on the chair.
” Then what?” I frown.
” Why the heck you left me and go fuck with Daniel, when I wasn’t done with you?” his tone is stern. I try to make sense of what he is saying but I don’t get it yet. I only left the party when I received Ava’s call, I didn’t go to meet anyone.
” No, I didn’t. I didn’t see Daniel. He didn’t fuck me, I left. I left to meet my best friend.” I explain.
” No Elen, I saw you..” he argues.
” It’s not me, can you forget it? I have a lot to deal with right now!” I shout and shut my eyes, hanging up the call.
Jesus, what the heck is going on? I have Ava to deal with, not this now please, there must be a misunderstanding.
There certainly is.