“Who the fuck is knocking so early in the morning?”
Someone that knows about the cabin. Probably Sia’s neighbours, if he has any. Why do we always get interrupted when we’re intimate? Sia puts me down, running a hand through his wet locks, upset and annoyed.
“Can’t you sniff out their scent?”
“Whoever it is, masked their scent.”
Could it be an enemy? Or intruder?
“Well, aren’t you going to answer it?”
“I don’t want to. I just want to spend my time with you.”
“As sappy as that sounds, we need to know who is at the door.”
“I’m only doing this because you asked me to. Not because I’m curious or anything.”
“Whatever. Just go and find out who’s disturbing our peace and quiet this early morning.”
He goes, after packing my lips. What was taking Sia so long to open the door?
“Sia, I missed you.”
I froze. I know that voice all too well. Why is she here and could she possibly want? Had Sia called her here? Was this some kind of set up? Did he pretend he didn’t know who was at the door, because he knew she was there? My mind spun with questions I have no answer to. I would never know those answers, if I stay here, questioning myself. I move slowly towards the living room, each step taken with pain.
Anita is hugging Sia like we had done earlier. She is kissing him, hands toying with his hair. Sia doesn’t refuse her, just frozen. The sight of them together like that kills me. Why was she here? Why wasn’t he pushing her away? Why is she kissing what is mine? My eyes brimmed with tears. Sia recovers from the shock, and instead of pushing her away, like expected, he kisses her with so much passion. Those lips, had just been on mine earlier. He doesn’t believe she is real, holding her to him, promising to never let go.
“I won’t interfere in their lives, but I would never refuse my love, if she comes to me.”
I remember Sia’s words that he spoke earlier. I wipe away a stray tear, sinking to the ground, hugging my knees to my chest. Why is this happening to me? Why can’t I never be happy? Sia might have given me my freedom but I will never truly be free now that Anita has come into my life. She came to him and he hadn’t refused, sticking to his promise to her, but breaking the promise he made to me. What happened to, I won’t hurt you? What the hell happened to I just want to spend my time with you? Was it all a farce then? Was he only saying that, so I could let him in my pants? Is that all this is about? I shake my head to get rid of the thought. They haven’t stopped kissing, melting in each other’s arms. I didn’t believe they were in love, but now seeing the way they were holding onto each other, irrespective of my presence, I now believe without any doubt that they once loved, and they still love themselves. Their love was true to the core, and I wished for what they had. I am truly envious of Anita. She has both men at her disposal, doing away with them whenever she pleased. I don’t have something like that, only a degrading title like that of an omega. It’s not wickedness, but I have made up my mind to tell Lyles everything if I go back home. But would that stop them from being together? I seriously doubt it. At this point, I don’t care about what it will cost me, but I will do everything in my power to keep them apart, even if Sia might get hurt in the process.
“Sia, why did you stop? We were just getting to the best part,” she whined like the needy bitch she is. The best part just happens to be sex by the doorway. Anita is topless, her hello kitty bra cupping her breasts. I look at Sia’s lower body, and I’m wondering how hello kitty underwear turned him on. His belt is unbuckled and I’m sure they would have progressed, if he hadn’t remembered I was there.
“Anita,” he said briefly, locking eyes with my teary ones. “Why are you here?”
“Are you seriously asking me that? Honey, I came here to see you.”
Her screeching voice made my ears bleed. Isn’t it too early for her to be raising her voice? Sia feels the need to console me, comfort me, but he can’t do that with Anita bombarding him with questions.
“You should have informed me before coming, so I would have prepared the bed.”
Prepared the bed? I don’t think I want to eavesdrop anymore.
“Baby, look at me. We don’t need the bed. We can use the floor or we can just go to the sweetheart garden.”
Is Anita just with Sia for sex? Why can’t she control her hormones?
“No,” he says, disentangling himself from her clingy arms. “You can’t be here. You should be with Lyles.”
He spoke the truth. I’m not even sure Anita has shared a passionate kiss with Lyles for one day, yet she is ever ready to jump Sia’s bones. It wasn’t fair. Teary eyed, I wipe away my nose, I don’t like crying but Sia has turned me into a crying mess ever since I met him.
“But I don’t want to be with Lyles,” she says, trying to reach him. He moves away. “I want to be with you Sia, why can’t you understand that? Lyles is a bore without any bit of fun. He can’t make me happy.”
“You don’t know that. Just give him a chance.”
“But I don’t want to! He tried to kiss me today and out of anger, I slapped him. We haven’t spoken since then.”
She did what? Slap Lyles? Why did he let her get away with it? Love has blinded my cousin in such a way that he no longer sees reason. Had it been any other woman, Lyles would have dealt with her. Anita is bad for him, and the sooner he realizes it, the better.
“Have you been taking your meds? Why would you slap your mate?”
Meds? Is Anita sick? This conversation is making me sick, and I think I might throw up.
“I’m not crazy Sia and I don’t need meds. You have no idea what it feels like being with a man you have no atom of feelings for.”
“Trust me I do.”
What did he mean by that? Is he by any chance talking about me?
“No, you don’t. You haven’t met your mate and you’re making tall claims.”
Sia winced. I guess that hurt. “You promised me that you would never bring that up.”
Sia doesn’t discuss her with Anita. Shocker.
“I didn’t, circumstances did. We both left our mates to be with each other. Now you don’t even want to look at me. Is there another woman? Is that it? Are you cheating on me?”
I am the other woman but Anita doesn’t know it. She hasn’t noticed me because she’s too busy arguing with Sia.
“So, it has come to this? You now suspect me? I can’t believe this,” he says, shaking his head, clearly upset.
If I wanted Sia for myself, I would have to create a rift between the two lovers. After all, I am the other woman.
“Baby, don’t say that. It’s just, you don’t understand how I feel.”
“Then make me understand.”
“Winter is coming,” she says, changing the subject. “And I’m feeling really cold.”
“Then wear your shirt. I’m not stopping you.”
Go figure!
“How can you leave me like this? Stop treating me like I’m garbage.”
But you are, I wanted to say, but stopped myself. I don’t want her to know that I’m here, yet.
“Just leave Anita. You being here is risky.”
“Because she’s here? Tell me, why do you have Crinka in our cabin?”
Shit! Shit! Shit! How the fuck did she see me? I stand up shakily, wrapping my arms around myself, as if that would protect me from Anita’s impending wrath. Now it’s just Crinka. No alpha, no respect.
Sia averted his eyes, thinking of what to say. Anita beats him to it.
“And why isn’t she wearing a collar?”
I want to rip her into shreds. I might be an omega, but she’s still a human, Sia’s lover nonetheless. But I hold myself back, because of Sia’s words some days ago.
If she’s hurt, I’ll be seriously affected.
I initially wondered what kind of bond he formed with her. I lifted my eyes to meet his. Tell her Sia. Tell her why I’m not wearing a collar.
“Because she doesn’t need it. Actually, I think you need it more than her.”
I don’t hide my smile.
Anita gasps. “How dare you? How long has she been here huh? Why didn’t you kick her out? I don’t know if you know but she’s invading your privacy. Our privacy.”
Anita speaks as though I had never been her alpha. I only have Sleepy Joe to blame.
“Is all you do ask questions? Leave the poor girl alone, she’s scared.”
Far from it. I’m breaking. I can feel it within me, every time Sia hurts me. My self-dignity slowly chipping away.
“You’re being distant with me Sia and I don’t like it. Is it because of her?”
“You just have to suspect everyone don’t you? Fine go ahead, but count me out,” he says pushing her aside and leaving the cabin, slamming the door shut.
“Sia! Sia! Come back here! I’m not done with you,” she yells, going after him.
How can Sia love someone like that? She’s too prissy, I can’t wait to burst her bubble of happiness. I sigh, my stomach grumbling. I’d shower later, but right now, I need to feed the animal within me.
?
Anita’s presence was a nuisance to both me and Sia. Gone was our peace, quiet and solitude. Her voice was snarky and she found fault in everything Sia did. I’m really starting to question his love for her. How can he be in love with that thing? She hates me, apparently because I’m invading her so called privacy. If she wanted privacy, she could have it all with Lyles. Stupid bitch. For someone who had ear surgery, she’s sure making a hell lot of noise.
“I can’t stand her,” I say to myself, plucking the pumpkin leaves angrily. “She’s so annoying and so stuck up!”
I am the only one around. Sia had taken her to see Massa. He didn’t tell her why, and she followed him like a lost puppy, happy to be away from my presence. Well, she’s not the only one. It’s a good thing my presence is toxic to her, just as hers to me. I wanted to come, but I didn’t want to put Sia in an awkward situation. Moreover, it’s not like he wanted me to come with him in the first place. I hope he doesn’t tell her anything. I want her to be kept in the dark. I’m pouring out my heart, hoping the vegetables would at least understand me. I’m trying my hand at cooking, without any supervision. I hope I don’t start a fire.
“It’s not fair that he loves her. Why is love so difficult?”
I don’t blame the veggies for not answering. I don’t know what love is or even know why it is so difficult. The opening of doors brings me out of my reverie. Sia is standing there dripping wet with sleeping Anita in his arms, I roll my eyes. He has finally put mouthy beauty to sleep. Confuckingratulations. He closes the door with his foot. Rainfall was the reason I didn’t go hunting for food, I want to ask Sia questions, but I can’t with Anita in the way. She might be sleeping, but one can never be too sure. I ignore him. continuing with my leafy vegetables.
“You can’t ignore me forever you know.”
I can, and I will as long as the queen bee is still here, He sighs, heading to the bedroom to change out of his wet clothes. He comes back later, without Anita in dry clothes.
“How did it go?”, I ask him once I’m sure Anita is not creeping on us.
He takes a seat beside me, his legs brushing mine. I shiver at the contact. Control yourself woman! Anita is just a few feet away.
“Terrible. Massa refused to tell me anything with Anita in the room so I just got drenched for nothing.”
I’m happy with the report.
“Next time, go alone.”
“Hey, have you eaten?”
“Why do you care? Anita is your main priority. I’m not your responsibility.”
“You’re getting skinnier, I don’t like it,” he says pinching my sides, scooting closer, too close for comfort. Sia is right. I have lost weight, and I want to keep it that way.
“Just go away. Your presence is disturbing.”
“Mine or hers? I know you’re upset Crinka, but I didn’t know she was coming.”
Is that the reason I am upset? Absolutely not. I am upset because I know I would never have a place in Sia’s heart.
“Sia, I don’t like being a third wheel, so I have decided that I would leave you guys be.”
He tensed. “What do you mean?”
“I’m going to see Ruarc.”