Chapter 76
Casper
“Name it, I will tell you what you need to know about me. Is it about Marina?” I asked.
I had never been so desperate.
Girls loved me, and they were always attracted to me without making an effort.
I never paid attention to them. Not one bit. But when it came to Lilith, I was a desperate bastard.
Maybe it was because I felt she was my mate, but we hadn’t recognized each other yet.
Once her wolf appears, it would seal the confirmation.
“Marina was the only woman I loved, but she passed away because…” I stopped, looking away from her as my gaze rested outside the window.
My heart crushed, and guilt tore through it at the gory sight I witnessed that fateful night.
Despite it being 10 years ago, the incident was fresh in my memory.
No matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t erase it. It haunted me. It has become part of me.
My breath seized as I started to get trapped in my memory, and I clasped my hand on my chest, choking.
Lilith noticed quickly, helping me to get stable before it got worse.
“Seems you are not ready to talk about it. I will wait until you’ve healed,” she whispered against my ear, kissing me tenderly before rubbing my chest repeatedly until my shoulders relaxed.
“What if you are my mate, Lilith?” I blurted all of a sudden, making her choke on the spot.
“It can’t be possible. I don’t even know if I’m a human or a wolf. We are not sure yet.”
She leaned closer till we shared the same breath.
“I love you, Casper, but I’m afraid to be with you.”
Hiding the jab of pain that shot through me, I blinked hard, taking a soothing breath.
“Don’t get me wrong. You are a nice guy, but you are way out of my league. How would your pack feel when they see us together? Please, let’s take things slow.”
Unspoken words were buried back within me.
Silence settled between us as the tension grew.
I felt a plethora of thoughts running wildly through her head.
It crushed me, seeing how she seemed withdrawn from me over the days.
I understood her point of view but I don’t give a fuck about what anyone thinks of the relationship between us.
Not even Raphael.
The unending buzzing of her phone even spiked my anger so much that I almost smashed it.
What if there was a guy texting her and convincing her to stay away from me?
The thought of her seeing another man was making me go crazy.
I would fucking kill any guy I see close to her.
It took me a huge self control to stop me from hacking into her phone to read the messages and respond to them.
Whosoever it was needed to stop.
Above all, I was glad she still loved me.
She would never cheat on me, right?
She would never do anything to hurt me.
How could I even doubt her loyalty to me.
Lilith was a good girl. I was going to make it up to her.
“I’m sorry for raising the tension. I know what can erase this mood.” I let my fingertips dance around her lips down to her chin. “Let’s go shopping,”
Marina always loved shopping.
“Really? Like right now?”
“Yes. Meet me at the garage.” I winked, blowing her a kiss before leaving the room.
*****
Lilith
Stepping out on the street, I was hit by a wave of hot air, making me miss the air conditioned car.
I turned to look at Alpha Casper one last time before waving at him and watching his zoom off.
My fingers glided down his black card nervously and my heart thumped.
It was the first time I held an unlimited card with the instruction of getting anything I wanted.
I wished he was beside me, walking with me into the store, but the son of a bitch Raphael decided to call and inform him about his pack affairs.
Swallowing nervously, I titled my head, observing the sight of the big fashion store where only the rich shops.
A part of me felt bad for the words I told Alpha Casper, especially with the way he showered me with affection and gifts.
He was rushing things and it filled me with fear.
Whenever good things are rushed, something bad ruins it.
I just wanted us to take it slow.
If Raphael frowned about our relationship, I couldn’t imagine how the elders of his pack and the rest of them would react to it.
I loved him deeply but our relationship was forbidden.
An Alpha should never be caught with a low rank omega who hasn’t even had her shift.
In the heat of my thought, an idea struck me.
I had a day and some hours left to pay Ricky’s debt, what if I paid him using Alpha Casper’s card?
There should be an Atm that I could withdraw from.
But then, he would find out and the last thing I wanted him to do was to get mad at me.
I would get the dress and also get the costumes Daphne told me about so that I could attract more fans.
I had already gotten $800 from the app. I needed $4, 700 to be off Ricky’s hook.
I dipped the card into my pocket, gulping hard before taking a deep breath and walking into the store.
My heart pounded like crazy and I suddenly got conscious of the cloth I wore.
Compared to how the customers and the workers were dressed, mine was below.
I forced a smile, mouthing a greeting as the security opened the door for me.
The freezing Air conditioner blasted me, making me wish I had worn a jacket over the red spaghetti strap tank top.
I rubbed my palms nervously, following the directions of the receptionist who greeted me with a frown while focusing on the computer.
After walking a short distance, I found myself in a room surrounded by lovely dresses.
There were several sections for varieties of things like designer clothes, designer bags, designer shoes and expensive jewellery.
My mouth watered at the sight of the luxurious items and I longed to own an item in the store.
Wealthy customers trooped in and out, buying a bunch of expensive items without considering the huge price.
How rich were these people?!
If not for Alpha Casper, I would never step my feet into a luxurious store like this.
Cloaked with nervousness, I eyed the items, dragging my feet as my eyes swept over them.
This was the first time I shopped in many years.
The store was so big, I didn’t know where to start.
Finally, I settled for the clothes before other items.
I strode, marveling at the sight of the lovely dresses that were hung on display.
Fear didn’t let me touch them as I was afraid that I might stain them.
Drowning in confusion, I halted, waiting patiently to be attended by one of the sales assistants, just like the other customers.
But none of them spared a second glance at me despite trying to initiate a nice conversation with them.
They all seemed glued to the other women shopping that bled of power and wealth.
“Move it, girl!” A voice behind me jolted me and a pair of hands pushed my back, making my heart freeze for a second.
Turning abruptly, I was met with one of the assistants who had a displeased look on her face.
“Don’t just stand there, there are a lot of customers that we need to attend to!” She scolded, eyeing me before hissing.
“Wait, you look new.”
A painful smile masked my face as her words sank into my head. “That is because I don’t work here. I came to shop,” I replied nicely, hiding the hurt that lingered in my voice.
Her face contorted in a disbelief expression before she burst into a pearl of laughter. “You came to shop?” She asked, scoffing before walking away from me.
Her laughter still pierced my ears despite the distance.
They wouldn’t be like this if Alpha Casper had accompanied me here.
Tired by the attitude they slapped with as if I was invisible, I moved towards the clothing aisle, checking out a few before a pair of rough hands grabbed me from behind, yanking my shoulders so hard until I lost balance and fell on the floor.
The cloth I held was forcefully taken away from me and I was greeted with an enraged look from an assistant.
Confusion hit me like a ton of bricks and my back ached from the fall.
“Why did you do that? Give it back. I am purchasing them,” I tried to explain, wincing as pain enveloped me.
Instead, she launched at me, pinning me to the floor with an angry look scribbled on her face.
“Don’t give me that look. I know your type.”
“You thief!”