Asher
I went completely rigid as she said that. Of all the things, I would have expected her to say, this was the least.
Damn! Why was she so damn confusing, I tried to understand her but she was driving me insane.
She seemed upset about Elena. But why? Could it be what I am thinking? I couldn’t halt the bizarre thoughts that rose in my mind.
I scanned her face, searching for answers and our eyes locked. I felt the warmth of her gaze melt into my stare, dissolving into her oceanic blue eyes. My breath and my heartbeats sped up as I gulped hard, my gaze still locked with hers. I could look at her face all day, her long eyelashes that fluttered a bit when she moved, and I let myself feast on the sight of her pristine small frame caged in my arms. I didn’t pull away and neither did she make a move beneath me.
Sincerely, I didn’t want to pull away, not with that innocent gaze of hers sucking me in as if seducing me. She was a bloody seductress, and she barely realized it. I could feel her hot breath fanning my face while my gaze remained fixed on her. I was trying my best to mask my emotions, to pull up the cold mask that I often adopt when I’m around her, but I was failing. I had fallen deep into the blue waters of her gaze, and I didn’t care if I drowned. My life was hers to take if she wished.
Kayla, stirred a little beneath me, her body pulling into mine, but I still didn’t pull away from her. My gaze continued to focus on her and I reached for a stray lock tickling her face and tuck it behind her ear.
I wanted to tell her the truth. I wanted to tell her what really happened between me and Elena.
I pushed her arms back and pressed them against the bed with one hand. “Listen to me, Kayla.” I insisted with a penetrating gaze. “Aside from the kiss, nothing else happened between me and Elena.”
I wanted to let her know that my body wouldn’t respond to Elena ever since she came into my life. My life has been screwed from the first day I set my eyes on her and she had also awakened a part of me that was supposed to be dead. A part of me that I have worked so hard to get rid of. A part of me that I didn’t want to feel again. I couldn’t allow myself to succumb to the strange feelings that kept pulling me close to Kayla, and I wouldn’t let my emotions show to the world again.
I had vowed never to put myself through the misery and pain that comes with having emotions and a weakness.
And I have decided to keep the truth to myself, talking about it means being vulnerable and that would be the last thing I would do.
I gulped down the steam building in my body and took a long look at her beneath me. No matter how I tried to distance or distract myself from her, I knew that if anything ever happened to her, I would never be able to forgive myself. It would haunt me for the rest of my life.
She was beautiful, a fragile beauty that was prettier than roses. I am not sure if I knew the right words to describe her. She was like a veritable angel that the starry night would envy the mysterious darkness of her hair that slithers down her shoulder to her waist. Her naturally rosy lips force roses to turn into buds and reinvent their beauty. The etherealness she possesses needs words to descend from the heavens like hymns to do a little justice to her godly existence.
There were so many things about her that stood out to me, things that would forever leave a scar on my body. She was everything I wanted, but could not have.
Kayla was still quiet beneath me after trying a couple of times to break free from my hold. No matter how hard she tried, I couldn’t find it in myself to let her go. I wanted to hold on tight to her and never let go. But at the same time, another part of me screamed danger every time I came in contact with her.
Her long beautiful lashes framed her crystal blue eyes as she peered up at me with parted lips.
I could tell that she was finding it difficult to believe the words that I had said about Elena.
The fact that she saw us hugging and kissing wasn’t helping either.
“She’s still your mistress. Even if you turned her down last night, you have seen and graced her naked body intimately.
What makes you think that you won’t desire her again?”
I didn’t want to tell her the truth, that would only create an avenue for more discussions that I was not ready to have with her.
I searched her eyes, I noticed she was holding back a lot of things from me and I wanted to find out what they were. Something told me that I wouldn’t be prepared for it, so I decided to leave it alone for the moment.
Her frown deepened, and her cheeks were flushed, not with desire but with rage when I didn’t answer her. I wasn’t prepared either did I know where she got the strength from and pushed me out?
I fell on my back onto the bed and peered up at her with hooded eyes, her body was a perfection. I had to stifle a groan at the strong need to have her under my body again while I claimed every single part of her body.
Seeing her wearing that training gear that exposed her precious bare skin outside the castle and in the arms of my brother had taken a toll on me.
I might be keeping away from her, but that’s because I didn’t want to be the cause of her getting hurt.
But that didn’t mean I would let her go just so any other person could have her. I would never allow that.
Regardless of everything, she was mine and would forever remain mine.