After the intense orgasm I had, I shaved my pussy until it was smooth as an eggshell before I left the bathroom. I walked back naked after drying my body. The bag was still on the bed, staring at me like it was waiting to see what I would do with it. I wanted to pick the toys on the bed and insert them into holes since I was still feeling the bliss from the orgasm I just had, but the doubt lingered. I didn’t want to make myself look like a fool by doing something like this.
What if they asked me to get dressed, that I wasn’t ready for this? It would be damned embarrassing if they say something like that. I imagined how I would climb down from the bed with my head lowered in shame. The image was vivid enough.
Letting out a sigh, I plopped down on the bed. I didn’t bother to get dressed because I knew I would have enough time to put the bathrobe on. Just as the thought left my mind, I heard a knock on the door.
I hastily put on my bathrobe before sitting back on the bed. However, when the person knocking at the other end didn’t open the door, I narrowed my eyes.
“Who’s there?”
“Me,” Chris’ voice came from the other side. “Can I come in?”
“Yeah.” I plopped back down on the bed, looking up at the chandelier as she opened the door and stepped in.
“What are you doing with your bathrobe? Did you just have a bath?” She walked around and sat on my dressing chair. Chris hardly sat on my bed now because of my mates. It wasn’t like this when I was in the human world. Back then, she treated my bed and desk in the office like a second home.
“I’m still contemplating.” Letting out a sigh, I got up from the bed and focused on her. “I don’t know if I should go on with this.”
“Proceed with what? Using the toys I painstakingly went back to Earth to bring? Are you kidding me?” She gave me an incredulous look. “I don’t care what’s going on with you, but you have to use them. It’s a must. You have got to use them. I don’t care how you do that. You must.” She narrowed her eyes at me, looking like a mother admonishing a child.
“What if that don’t like it?” I aired my fears. It wasn’t as if I didn’t want to use those toys. I was just scared of what they would do. The last thing I wanted was to be rejected by my mates.
“My kings?” She let out a small laugh. “Why won’t they like it? Having their mate on the bed, naked, ready and waiting for them? Tell me, which man wouldn’t like that? Certainly not my alphas.”
“You don’t get it.” Letting out a sigh, I got up from the bed. “They haven’t tried to be intimate with me ever since I gave birth. The only thing they ever do is place kisses on my forehead, and that’s all. They haven’t even shown signs of wanting to be intimate with me!” I pointed out. I wanted her to understand, to know why I felt frustrated.
“I know.” She smiled at me as she got to her feet and walked over to me. Placing a hand on my right shoulder, she squeezed it gently. “They might have kept their distance from you because they wanted to make certain you are okay.”
“What if that’s not the case? What if they haven’t been intimate with me because they didn’t want to? Don’t get me wrong, they always told me how much they loved me; however, they haven’t even shown any signs of arousal each time they bathed me.”
It was frustrating. If I looked as good as they always said I did, they wouldn’t have resisted touching me, right?
Their words didn’t match at all with their actions. While they always spoke of how much they couldn’t keep their hands off me, they have done nothing since I healed from childbirth.
“Do you think they don’t want you now that you have given birth? That they don’t think you are as sexy as you once were when you got together with them?”
I nodded, peering up at her with a helpless expression on my face. “Don’t you think so? I doubt they want me. Perhaps they only left me because -” I hissed when she smacked me on the head. “What the hell did you do that for?!!” Rubbing my hands on my head, I glared daggers at all. “Why did you hit me?!”
“Because you deserve more than that! Are you that desperate to rub it in my face that you have mates who worship the very ground you trample on? Is that what this is all about?” She narrowed her eyes at me, with her lips lifted in disapproval.
“What do you mean?”
“You certainly know what I mean. Look in the fucking mirror, Bella! Devon did all he could to get you back to your shape, yet here you are, making his hard work seem like nothing.”
“But -”
“We all know your mates love you. They probably didn’t touch you because they still believed you were yet to heal. They didn’t want to hurt you!”
I looked at Chris, my eyes wide with surprise. I hadn’t thought of that. I had been so caught up in my doubts and fears that I hadn’t considered the possibility that my mates were just being cautious.
I believed they only kept their distance because they didn’t want me, not because they were protecting me.
“Are you certain about that?”
Chris nodded, her expression softening. She let out a sigh as she drew a step back from me. “I know they love you, Bella. And I know they want you. They’re just being careful, that’s all. Have you seen how those men look at you? Like you are the only woman in the entire world. They love you. Never doubt that.”
I drew a deep breath, feeling a weight lift off my shoulders. Maybe Chris was right. Maybe my mates were just being cautious. If that was the case, I would have to show them I had healed, and that they didn’t need to worry about me.
I looked at the toys on the bed, and a spark of determination ignited within me. I was going to use them, and I was going to make my mates see me in a new light.
“Thanks, Chris,” I said, smiling at my friend. “You’re right. I need to stop doubting myself and just go for it.”
“That’s the spirit, Bella!” Chris grinned, her eyes sparkling with excitement. You would have thought she was the one doing the seduction, and not me.
I laughed, feeling a surge of confidence. I was ready to take on my mates and show them I was still the same woman they fell in love with.
“Now shoo. I need to get to work.” I playfully nudged her towards the door. “Keep an eye out for me. Don’t let them come in until I’m ready, okay?”
“Roger that!” Winking, she turned and headed out, closing the door gently behind her.