Monica’s POV
AT NIGHT
IN ETHAN’S HOUSE
Nicholas groaned as he closed his eyes, moans escaping from his lips. I liked the fact that he liked the way I was riding him and he was moaning.
I glanced at Nicholas who was staring at me with a mix of emotions passing through his eyes. One of passion and the other of love.
My moans began to fill the living room as I joined my forehead with that of Nicholas, riding him hard with sweat adorning our bodies in the dim light living room.
“Nich_olas” I whispered, his tongue tantalizing my neck as pleasure consumed me more and more “Yes yes more baby”
My eyes snapped open as I looked around to realize that I was on the bed “shit” I said, realizing that it was all a dream.
How can I be thinking about Nicholas? Why was I dreaming about him? I haven’t been myself ever since we kissed earlier today in his house.
I keep thinking about his gentle touch, his lips, what his tongue would do to me if I had given him the chance yesterday.
This wasn’t right. I was with one man and imagining another man. “Hey, are you all right?” Ethan asked, placing a kiss on my bare shoulders and I shuddered under his touch.
“I’m fine,” I said, forcing a smile as I lay back down on the bed. I just needed to stay away from Nicholas and try to know Ethan better.
Ethan was my husband and not Nicholas. Whatever might have happened between me and Nicholas was in the past and I didn’t want to know what might have happened.
“You look so beautiful tonight,” Ethan said, staring at me with longing in his eyes. He began leaning closer to my face on the bed and I just lay still on the bed.
Ethan was my husband and if we have been together then I ought to feel even the slightest attachment to him.
I felt an attachment to Nicholas when he kissed me and maybe that will be the case for Ethan. Maybe if Ethan kisses me, then I might awaken my feelings for him.
Ethan captured my lips with his and I frowned when a feeling of disgust washed over me. I just felt irked by his lips and I instantly broke the kiss
“What is it? You don’t like it?” He asked worriedly
I faked a smile “It’s not that I don’t like it. I’m just new to this and I think we should take this slow. It feels weird kissing you and I’m not yet used to it” I said politely.
“Okay, and I’m sorry for initiating things this way. You’re right. We should take things slow” Ethan said, agreeing to what I said.
Ethan’s understanding response was a relief, but it only deepened my internal conflict. With a fake smile on my lips, I nodded and turned away hoping he wouldn’t notice anything or sense my behavior.
As I lay back down on the bed, my mind wandered back to the dream and the emotions I felt in the dream. Holding tightly onto the duvet, I felt my emotions stirring inside me and felt chills down my spine.
Why was I so drawn to this man? What was it about him that made me feel alive connected and safe while Ethan’s touch left me empty and disgusted?
This wasn’t right. I wasn’t supposed to feel attracted to another man this way. I needed to sort my feelings and figure out what was going on with me because this certainly wasn’t normal.
I made a decision right there to stay far away from Nicholas. My closeness with him could destroy my marriage and I don’t want that.
THE NEXT MORNING
I watched Ethan as he got ready for the day. “Should I bring you lunch? I could cook for you and come over to your office” I suggested, realization dawning on me that I was going to be left alone in this big house.
“No darling. That won’t be necessary. I just want you to relax and sleep as much as possible. Remember the doctor advised that you don’t stress yourself during the next four weeks so please just relax as much as you can” Ethan said, staring at me through the mirror as he struggled to arrange his tie on his neck.
I stood to my feet as I walked to where he stood and helped him knot the tie.
“I’m ready” I shifted my gaze to Mia who stood by the door and knocked slightly.
“Ready? You’re going out too?” I asked, surprise evident on my face
“Yes, she is. We are going out together. I’m dropping her off at her friends place while I go to work” Ethan said and I frowned at his words. I didn’t like the fact that I was going to be at home alone “Don’t worry, I’ll come back home as soon as I’m done at work”
“Promise” I pouted my lips as I placed my hands on his shoulder.
“I promise,” he said then he leaned forward and placed a kiss on my lips. “I’ll see you later in the evening,” he said then walked away with Mia who glared at me for some minutes before waking behind Ethan.
Mia was very cold towards me and I didn’t know why. I didn’t like her though but I still wanted to get along with her because she was sister-in-law.
I decided to plan a special lunch for Ethan since I had nothing to do hoping it would help bridge the gap I felt between us.
I spent the day preparing his favorite dishes and setting a cozy atmosphere at home. The maids weren’t in the house because it was their day off today so I had to do everything myself.
I still couldn’t shake off the image of Nicholas from my mind. I found myself glancing at my phone, tempted to see Nicholas but then I remembered that I didn’t have his phone number.
The thought of lying that I wanted to see my kids came across my mind but I just brushed the thought off my mind. I had to give Ethan a fair chance. Our love and connection had to grow.
The doorbell rang and I remembered that no one was at home to get the door so I took off the apron and put off the gas cooker.
“Who is it?” I said, turning the doorknob and pushing the door towards me so it could open.
“Hi,” my body instantly went stiff as I saw Mason and Macy in Nicholas’s arms. The devil I was trying to escape came right to my door.