I am not a good reasoner, but at this time I feel that if I don’t say something, I will regret it later, and so will Hank.
So, after a moment of silence, I spoke, “Six years ago, when I saw Shaw in the cabin, after so many years, the scene at that time, I still remember so well, when I accidentally bumped into her, I looked up to apologize when I saw her long blonde hair, then extraordinarily stunning. When I bumped into her, she was very angry, but after listening to my apology, she didn’t say much. I thought at that time, how could there be such a beautiful girl in this world? If you get into trouble, you can always find her!”
Hank looked at me with a questioning look in his eyes, as if he didn’t understand why I was suddenly talking about the past.
I continued to speak, “I was going to meet Dennis that day, meeting her was an accident, this girl stunned me, after years, my memory still remember how beautiful Shaw was that day.”
Looking at Hank, I sighed and said, “Do you know what kind of feeling I had when I saw Shaw today? I don’t know how her parents felt when they saw her, but I think they must have been heartbroken, that was the girl they held in their hearts, how did she become like this after only six years of being handed over to you?”
He frowned, his words were a little sharp, “I gave her what I should have given her, I can’t give the rest, and I won’t.”
I smiled lightly, “Do you mean the so-called money?”
I laughed out loud for a moment and looked at him and said, “Hank, do you see any difference between me and six years ago?”
His eyes fell on me and he spoke, “More composed!”
I nodded, “I left Dennis for five years, living in HL Area, those days were the most ordinary and beautiful days I had, I had Clariana, I had something to look forward to, although there was not much money, but I lived a very comfortable life, and then Dennis came, he took me back to City P, everything was fine, he is not the same as you, he can give what can not give I left City P, not because I didn’t love him, or he didn’t give enough, but simply because I couldn’t let go of what had happened, but that didn’t mean we didn’t have a future. I thought I had suffered the most in this half of my life, but when I saw Shaw, I realized that I was happy, everything between Dennis and I was an accident, but you and Shaw are different, every bitterness and pain she ate was given by you, being hurt by the person you love is more horrible than life and death, Hank, since you married her and let her give birth to a child, no matter how selfish you really are How selfish, you should at least put your heart and love on your own children and wife, you should know better than I do, we are just friends, now is and will be, but Shaw is your wife, is the mother of your children, this life, you love her more than one, you will be more than one happy, how much you hurt her now, later these injuries will echo ten times a hundred times in the rest of your life in your body. ”
He pursed his lips not to speak, but a pair of deep eyes are penetrating thoughts and I can not guess the emotions, what to say I have said, I turned around, directly downstairs.
There is a recreational area next to the outpatient building, I turned around before I found Shaw and Mary, Mary helped her with the baby, her hair was still a bit messy, her face was haggard, some wolf gobbled up the food I brought her, it seemed that the food was simply filling her stomach, there was no taste to speak of.
Probably noticed that someone was looking at her, she looked up somewhat bewildered, her eyes looked at me, froze, raised her hand with her sleeve and wiped the soup slurp at the corner of her mouth haphazardly, some embarrassment smiled.
I nodded my head and responded with a smile that I couldn’t say what it was like, but it wasn’t good all in all.
Walking up to her, I didn’t say anything and waited for her to finish all the boxed meals I had brought. I looked at the child in Mary’s arms, still looking dumb and cute at this point.
Mary is a chatterbox, see everyone is not open, but pulled up the words, “you are now too thin female dolls, not much milk, we will be, can be more than enough, the baby can not eat, wake up at night on the bed full of clothes, no way ah, I can only sleep at night to squeeze some put, but at that time there is no refrigerator, can not turn, a few days to eat. Now think, those are my blood ah, so all lost, a pity!
Shaw finished the last bite, smiled bitterly, his eyes fell on the child and spoke, “Yes, those are blood!”
After eating, she cleaned up, threw away the garbage, and then took the baby from Mary’s arms to feed him, the baby may be really hungry, this sticky to the food will not care to suck up.
She has just finished eating, where there is much milk, the child can not eat much, so the next mouth bite, she ate pain, the pain of the face are drawn into a distorted look, but still endured.
Mary was busy going up to see how Hank was doing. I sat across from Shaw, and she had something to say to me.
But no one had the intention of speaking up first.
For a moment, she smiled bitterly and opened her mouth uncertainly, “You should be surprised to see me like this now!”
I pursed my lips, not knowing what to say, and said in reply, “the Gibson family is not a bad family, you have no need to push yourself like this, you can hire a nanny to take care of the kids, and you can still live as yourself.”
Yes!
Hank’s money is not bad, raising a woman a child can be at least a hundred times more decent than ordinary people, the bottom of the wretched, mostly because just living they have been very difficult, not to mention decent, but Shaw is different, Hank’s assets allow her to live more decent than ordinary women and even shiny.
She looked up at me with a calm face, “I understand what you mean, but if that happens, he may not fall in love with me for the rest of his life and chase after you with peace of mind for the rest of his life.”
She smiled bitterly, “All these years he gave me money, I did not move a single penny, I did not even ask for money from my parents, I was like a woman in an ordinary family, running around for a living and children, the longer such days simmered, the longer the days he found out, the greater the possibility of my getting his love.”
I know what she means, a successful career, good-looking man, he is not lacking in women around, no matter what type of woman, whether it is his money, or his love, he is not lacking.