JADE
I laid with eyes wide open on the bed, unable to let my eyes close even for a second. It had been hours since I arrived from the Valetino mansion but Luciano was not yet back. He did not come back home with me. Apparently, he enjoys Damien’s company more than he enjoys mine.
I had no clue what they were both discussing but I could not stay in that mansion any longer and exchange glares and unspoken threats with Valerie. I just had to leave.
It is so hard trying to be fine when you know your entire life is falling apart and there is nothing you can do about it. I never wanted to get married into the mafia but fate has a way of working out your life for you. And now that I am married to a mafia Don, I have faced murderous brothers inlaw’s, jealous sister inlaw’s, near rape incidents, threats to my life…
As I recounted each frightful experience, tears brewed up in my eyes.
Lord what is…
A heavy knock on the door reverberated through the walls of the room, causing me to jerk. “Who is there? Luciano?” I asked but got no response. My eyes drifted to the digital clock on the wall. This was almost midnight.
“Luciano is that you?”I inquired but got no response. Suddenly, the door was forcefully pushed open, making me almost jump out of my skin. Luciano tottered inside with uncordinated steps.
I stared at him with bated breaths as he walked in unsteadily. The strong scent of wine circulated the air causing me to wiggle my nose. Geez he was damn drunk!
What have those people done to my husband this time?
“Where have you been Luciano? This is almost midnight. You just disappeared throughout the day” I stood up to my feet.
“I was at a party…. with Valerie. We danced and took few shots of alcohol incase you want details”he replied non-challantly.
“Are you trying to piss me off?” I closed the distance between us.
“Maybe. I mean this is what you have always wanted right? To get me with Valerie?” he was trying to get on my nerves.
But strangely I was not angered by his druken utterances. Luciano was hurt. I could see beyond his druken exterior. I just felt like helping him right now.
“Come let me help you ok?” I softly said to him, placing his arm over my shoulder and taking one of his arm to encircle around my waist, leading him to the bed.
“Fuck, you are so soft” Luciano moaned out as he collapsed on the bed.
I rolled my eyes and hovered over him on the bed, “Should I get you food?” I asked.
I admit he has been such a dickhead but he is still my husband.
“No help me take these off” he pointed at his clothes.
I sighed, “Sure”
Slowly, I helped him take off his shirt and singlet.
“And my pants too” Luciano added the moment I wanted to get off him.
“But..” his request was confusing.
“Now Jade” Luciano ordered. Damn. Even when drunk he still spoke with so much authority.
Yielding into his orders, I took off his pants.
“Now take off yours” Luciano rapidly said.
What? My brows furrowed together and a frown morphed on my face.
“What? Luciano I should take off my clothes?” I asked, confusion rocking my features.
“Y-yes” he groaned.
“I am not doing that” I refused to submit to his request. Luciano is drunk right now and I doubt he is in his right senses.
“Fine. I will help you take it off since you don’t want to do it willingly” he spoke to my greatest shock and surprise.
“Luciano are you insane?” I gave an outburst, wanting to get off him when he dragged me back with a strong grip.
“Luciano!” I yelled out.
“What?! Aren’t you my wife? What is wrong in pulling off my wife’s clothes?” He dared to ask.
What is wrong with this man tonight?
In the blink of an eye, Luciano had overturned me and now I was lying underneath his strong frame that now hovered above me.
His hands firmly gripped onto mine, pinning me onto the bed. “Stop resisting Jade. You can’t run away from me forever”
“Luciano are you mad? You will regret doing this so stop please. You are drunk. You need to rest” I tried to push him off me but he maintained his balance and grip on me.
Oh my God. Will he really force himself on me? I never imagined the first time we would actually have sex would be like this.
“Jade I am mad for you. You are making me go insane with lust. You won’t let me touch you yet you won’t let me touch another woman either. Is that fair now wife?” Luciano flashed me a sensual smile whilst still pinning my hands above my head.
His drunken gaze drank my writhing profile as I laid underneath him, hungry eyes scanning me like a starved predator.
Hell I can’t lie that I am not scared right now.
“Luciano…” I groaned out, “please just let me go” I was practically pleading with him this time around.
“Not today wife. I am afraid..” Luciano dropped his head low, lips reaching for my earlobe.
His breath sent a tingle down my spine, almost making me shiver at the touch of his lips on my ear. “I am afraid I won’t take no for an answer today”
My eyes widened at once and realisation dawned on me that he might actually end up forcing himself on me tonight.
Hell no. God please No.
“Luciano don’t do this. What has come over you? Are you mad? I swear you will regret this if you should try it!” I protested with heavy breathing, anger and fear permeating across my face.
“I have made so many mistakes and I have been regretting them. This won’t be the first” Luciano uttered without a single care in the world.
Man he is so insane right now.
“Do you regret this marriage then? Do you regret being with me? Do you regret accepting to be with Valerie?” I threw the questions at him and in that fleeting moment, the untamed desire in his eyes had been overshadowed and suppressed by a look of guilt and sadness.
Luciano buried his head in the crook of my neck, “Wife, I-I can n-never re-gret bein-gg with you or th-this ma-marriage ok?” He was stuttering in his speech and his words were slurring once again.
I gasped out, the sensation of his lips on my skin were electrifying, burning one might say, spreading through my body and giving me unholy thoughts.
“Oh sweet Jade… You are changing me. I am a mad man for you” his husky voice groaned endearingly.
“I want you Jade and as for any other woman, I do not have eyes for any other woman apart from you. You own my heart, my soul and my body. I am addicted and you are my drug. I am-am a sinner and you are my greatest sin sweet Jade” he sounded so intoxicated but it was the type where he could still control his words and actions.
I was beyond breathless and speechless at his soothing but reassuring statements.
“Luciano…” I finally found my voice. “I am sorry I could not be the ideal wife your family wanted. I wish so much that I can take away your pain Luciano. I am sorry…” tears streamed down my cheeks as I spoke.
I began sobbing quietly, lost in my own thoughts.
“Luciano?” I whispered after noticing that he was not saying any thing.
It was at that moment it dawned on me that his grip on my arms had worn off.
Slowly, I withdrew my arms from his and realised he had fallen asleep already.
With a deep sigh, I managed to softly pull myself from underneath his weight.
His inaudible snores felt so calming and peaceful, like he did not have any worry in the world.
Using the duvet, I covered us both and snuggled close to him.
I do not know what the future holds for us, but I do know that we will get through this storm together.