When she saw us, Jannings said, “She seems to have fallen on a bone, she may need to go to the hospital.”
Seeing that Sheila’s eyes were red and she seemed to be holding back tears, I froze and spoke, “Take her to the hospital first, we have things to do later, we can’t take her there.”
This, I said to Dennis.
Jannings looked at me, a little cranky, frowned and said, “I have nothing to do later, I’ll take her there!”
“No, it’s not that serious, I can go by myself.” Sheila opened her mouth, a little choked up in her voice, her grievances written on her face.
Dennis looked at me and his gaze fell on me. I reached out and pulled Jannings’ sleeve and said, “You can accompany me to the office later and let Dennis take her.”
Jannings frowned, “Dennis?” and then looked at Dennis.
For a moment, Dennis pulled his gaze back from me, then picked Sheila up horizontally and walked away without saying a word.
“Fuck!” Jannings opened his mouth and looked at me on the verge of going to tears, “Clara are you sick? That is your man ah, you just push him out, you crazy?”
I was a little blocked and said lightly, “I have no relationship with him anymore, let’s go, go to the White Family.”
“What do you mean there is no relationship, you are blind, did not see the way Dennis looked at you ah, why do you have to push him away? Why did you have to push him away? If he did something wrong, just say it clearly, you have to use this kind of cold violence to hurt each other, Clara you are terrible.”
She finished in a rage, and did not wait for me, and went straight up and away.
I was a bit stunned, and with the benefit of hindsight, I realized that she seemed very angry. Catching up with her, I pulled her back, “Jannings, this is my business, you don’t have to be so upset and angry!”
She suddenly stopped and looked back at me, her watery eyes were full of disappointment, “Yes, these are your business, I’m an outsider who doesn’t need to be so angry, but Clara, hearts are made of flesh, do you know why I’m angry?”
“When I met you in Zuy, from the first time we did not say a word so tacit understanding to escape, I knew that you are a very smart girl, and then we lived together in the forest until you found a way to save us from Bob, I feel that you are a special sense of justice and special brave people, I think we are three views similar. After returning home I decided that I must become good friends with you everywhere.”
“I’m angry now because I suddenly feel that you are not the same as I thought, I’m not angry with you, I’m angry with myself, for so long, you did not treat me as a friend at all, right?”
I shook my head, “No!”
Clara, you’ve never been serious about making friends with anyone, you haven’t loved Dennis, you haven’t treated us as friends, and to put it bluntly, you’ve treated all of us as mere visitors in your life from beginning to end.”
Seeing me dazed, she said, “You don’t know what a friend is, in your opinion, two people are friends as long as they can talk to each other, including Cherry, even if she is annoying, but you put me and her in the same position, and Dennis, if you love him, it is impossible not to see his eyes on you at any time and anywhere, including the state of annotating you. annotated your state at all times, including just now, he has been silently resisting you pushing Sheila to him, but you did it anyway, he bottomlessly lowered his bottom line, and you, taking it all for granted, even felt that you were doing the right thing?”
“Clara, isn’t it true that in your opinion, others just don’t get hurt at all, don’t get hard, and the only one who will hurt and suffer is yourself?”
I froze in place and stared at her blankly, this was the first time, someone had said something like that to me.
“I …” I tried to open my mouth to defend myself, and couldn’t help but laugh, nodding somewhat to myself and speaking, “Well, you’re right about everything, and I’m sorry that a lot of my actions seem to really hurt you or others. ”
The explanation doesn’t make sense, I stood on the curb, took a taxi, and went straight to the White Family.
Some irritation in my heart was so bad that people who are cold by nature, seem to be like this, pressed to know what to do!
When I got back to the office, I was irritated and simply read some documents that Edward had to sign, so I got a little cranky.
When I got off work, Linda saw that I hadn’t left, knocked on the door and frowned, “What’s wrong?”
I saw that everyone in the office had left and said lightly, “No, maybe my aunt is coming and I’m a little cranky.”
She said with some regret, “These two days to come to the aunt, but unfortunately, in two days on the eve, this time to good things, a bit spoiled oh!”
Tanabata?
This time passed I almost forgot, a slight sigh said, “are a handful of years, what to do over the eve, there is no meaning.”
She gave me a white glance, “What do you mean a handful of years, according to you, when people reach a certain age, they have to live boringly? How uninteresting is that?”
I laughed and suddenly remembered that at noon Jannings had asked Linda to go to dinner with him tonight.
The words came to my lips, and then slightly retracted, today’s events, I wonder if Jannings mood is better.
“Linda, do you have a close friend? Or someone you love very much?”
She nodded, her heels were too high, she found a chair to sit beside me and said, “There must be ah, I have a best friend, known for almost fifteen years, as for the very loved ones, my children, my parents are my favorite people.”
I hesitated for a moment and asked, “What about your husband?”
She froze slightly, and after a moment said, “Divorced.”
I paused for a moment and said somewhat apologetically, “I’m sorry, I …”
“This is normal, people will encounter some twists and turns in their middle age, Clara, life does not have to be what it is, choose the life you want to live on the line.” She looked light, everything was said lightly, I nodded my head and smiled lightly.
She smiled, “What’s wrong? You suddenly ask this question, is there something wrong?”
I nodded and said, “I don’t seem to know how to treat the people around me who care about me, it’s like I’m always pushing them away by mistake.”
She looked at me with her chin in the air and said, “Friends and lovers?”
I nodded, “Well, it seems like growing up, we didn’t learn the lesson of love, how to love others, I don’t seem to have learned it until now.”
She faintly stared and said, “Don’t you have a child? How did you love her? I don’t know how others understand it, but my understanding is that love is a state of being from the heart and wanting the best for the other person, just like you do for your child, you know how to be good to her, so you will do everything you can to give her the best.”