Adea
The link ended and I tightened my grip on the wheel. My words echoed in my mind and made my stomach churn. Lies. Everything I said had been a lie. I wanted to yell it, scream it at the top of my lungs. I didn’t mean any of it.
I wanted to take it all back and tell him what happened. I wanted to tell him why I said the things that I said. I wanted to make him understand and beg for his forgiveness. I wanted to figure out if there was a way we could beat Shane together. Maybe he would agree with my plan and let me go.
I laughed. Yeah, now I was being crazy. Downright crazy and probably stupid. I knew he never would have agreed. That’s why I went with it. That’s why I didn’t tell Gabe. That’s why I left in the middle of the night while he was sleeping.
I knew I couldn’t be selfish and hoped that he would agree with me. Had he known, I wouldn’t put it past him to have kept both Gabe and Leo on me 24/7. I couldn’t allow my dream to unfold.
It took everything in me to stop myself from turning the Jeep around and running back into his arms. I wanted nothing more than to throw the plan out the window and live in ignorant bliss.
There was a deeper force that drove my actions. I wasn’t doing this because I wanted to. No, I was doing this because this was the only thing that made sense. If I stayed, I would be doing what the Goddess wanted. What she had set into motion.
I needed to push myself out of my comfort zone. Yes, I had to hurt my mate, my partner, my King. The hurt expression on his face would forever be etched in my mind and the way he sounded when my tongue lashed out and hurt him echoed in my ears.
He was the reason I was doing this. The longer I stayed by his side, the higher the chances of the dream repeating. As long as I could keep my distance from him and somehow prove to Shane that I was loyal to him.
The sooner I would be able to get rid of him. I was doing this for my mate. I’m sure Gabe would tell me I was stupid and I’m sure he’s going to hate me when he finds out what I’m doing.
I just couldn’t risk it. I couldn’t risk Shane coming here and – No. I wouldn’t let him get that close to Ethan or Gabe again. I’d rather they hate me than lose them. I don’t care what anyone thinks. I’ll do anything, everything that I can to keep them safe.
All I could hope for is his forgiveness. I can only hope he will still be waiting for me when this is all said and done. No, what I need to hope for is that I succeed in killing Shane and that he doesn’t kill me in the process.
I wasn’t even sure what I was going to do when I reached Half Moon. I would find Shane or someone would take me to him. I should start thinking about that now. As soon as I’m presented to him, what will I do?
I need to make him trust me. I need him to believe I’m there for him. The words that had flown from my lips flashed through my mind again and I huffed out a breath. How would I convince him?
Well, the way he responded told me he ignored my words or didn’t believe them. I was counting on his insanity to have hopefully led him to believe the latter. I needed him to not only believe me but to think that I wanted him.
My goal was to get my hands on Alpha Joshua’s sword, or Shane’s sword now. If he was staying in the Alpha’s room it would be close by or in the meeting room. As long as I could get Shane to drop his guard around me, I could hurt him.
I wasn’t the weak girl he once knew. I may not be the best warrior but I had defeated one. I believed that I would be able to swing the sword and hurt him. I’d seen it. I knew, I just knew I could do it again.
If I could get him alone, with his guard down. I could take him out and keep my family safe. I could prevent him from attacking the pack and I could stop him from going near them. I could get the justice that exiling him never gave but most of all, I could get revenge for Olivia and Gabe. My best friend could rest easy knowing Shane no longer lived under the same sky.
Ady.
Gabe’s nickname rang in my head. My breath caught and I tried not and failed to hold the tears back. They filled my eyes and I had to blink them away. I tried to compose myself enough so that I could respond to him.
Gabe.
Where are you going?
I’m doing what I need to.
Which is?
I have some loose ends to tie up.
What the hell does that mean? I need you to talk to me.
I can’t, Gabe. I… I don’t plan on being long.
Let me come with you. You don’t have to go alone.
I couldn’t take him. Shane wouldn’t trust me if Gabe went. Ignoring his words, I slammed on the gas and the Jeep shot forward faster than it already had been. All too soon, I made it to the edge of the territory and hurled past the line. Thankfully, there wasn’t a single rogue in sight. Now that Shane had gathered a large amount of them up, they weren’t creeping around the territory.
I kept my eyes peeled on the road in front of me. I needed to drive for another hour before I was out of reach. No one would be able to get a hold of me but hopefully, I could pass it as ignoring them.