Neo’s p. o. v
I stood staring at my mate again in silence. I didn’t know what to say or how to act around her. She wasn’t the first mate I had ever been blessed with by the moon goddess yet it all felt new.
I was upset with Ian a few minutes ago because of how he wanted to make her uncomfortable. If I was to stay and entertain his crap he would have targeted her even more. But then he was who I ought to thank, because of him I couldn’t just let my mate see me as some guy who couldn’t defend or try to comfort her.
“I’m so sorry,” I said softly then cleared my throat and sat down on the table grabbing my fork.
“Ian may be cold at times and very rude, but that doesn’t mean he is a bad person.” I said without looking at her.
I was about to eat when I heard her sniff.
She was in tears even before I had walked back into the room, I could smell it yet I had to pretend that I knew nothing.
I was happy to have a second chance mate, to be honest. But as joyous as I was, I was very afraid of giving us a shot. Sherry was an angel way back before everything. She was innocent and very respectful until power got to her head. Not to forget how I was still hurt with the rejection I was going through. My heart was heavy and I didn’t want to give Toni false hope over us being happy together.
“Why can’t you look at me?” She asked in a low cracked voice.
“Because looking at your face would invoke these emotions I don’t want to feel! It will make me reverse my own words and make me just roll with the pull and instincts within me despite the fear I have.” I answered silently then looked up and met her eyes.
“Is this enough?” I asked coldly as she tensed.
Fuck. I was turning into Ian already!
“Anyway, I came here to apologize for my brother’s actions. He was disrespectful towards you and didn’t treat you well.” I continued then stood up.
“Now if you may excuse me, I have a few things to handle.” I said then turned to walk away.
“You don’t want me, do you?” She asked loudly.
“We do need her.” Vision said softly.
His voice held doubt and his emotions were unclear.
I turned reluctantly and faced her seriously.
“I don’t know.” I answered honestly.
She moved her hand to her mouth and sobbed as her shoulders shook.
I wanted to walk to her and embrace her tightly, I also wanted to tell her how everything was a joke but I couldn’t.
“You must have heard about me and Sherry from the pack members. At first, I thought she was just a she-wolf I was attracted to, never in years did it ever cross my mind that she was my mate. You see, my pack is under a curse that makes it hard for us to know who our mates are, the only ones that can tell are our wolves, but if they decide to keep silent then we are done for. That woman was the only woman I was willing to die for. I actually loved her hard and fell deep, deep enough to want my own alpha dead. The day we were captured and brought back here, she chose my brother and pinned her crazy plan on me to murder him. I could see how she was willing to have me die for our love while she chose to live, that’s why I had to reject her. As if hell was my fate, I discovered that Ian was my blood brother and my mother was still alive. The bullshit was too much to handle and I wanted to end my own life.” I said angrily then sighed softly.
“Toni, I don’t know if the goddess felt pity for me and decided to give me to you or not. All I know is that you came at the wrong time and moment. As it is right now, I don’t want to commit or fall as I did back then. I don’t want to love or treasure any she-wolf that comes my way, be it my mate or not. I’m telling you all this because I don’t want you blaming yourself for my actions okay? It’s not that you are ugly or because you are an omega serving our pack that I don’t want to be with you no, it’s because everything that has happened in my past has made me bitter. You are more beautiful and damn attractive than Sherry herself, yet I just can’t be with you.” I said calmly.
She dropped her hand and looked at me with wet cheeks.
“So, do you want to reject me?” She asked in a low voice as my heart ached.
I didn’t want to reject her, but I also didn’t want to fully accept her.
“Waiting for me to come around will take a long time. You might miss a lot of chances of happiness that you might acquire with any man of your choice.” I forced myself to say the words.
“So, you mean it’s okay to wait for you even if it takes years to have you accept us?” She asked, making me frown deeply.
What was wrong with her? How could she be willing to wait for me for years?
“You don’t have to sacrifice yourself for me.” I answered sadly.
“It’s not that I’m sacrificing myself for you Beta. It’s because you are my mate and the only male gifted to live with us by the moon goddess. Even if we were to walk away from you, there is no way we could ever be happy. You don’t want to clearly reject us , my wolf and I can’t do that either. That’s why we are willing to wait for you. Even if it takes years or hurts us.” She cried.
I clenched my hands in fists and kept quiet.
“Neo, we need to make our decision now.” Vision said silently.
“Fine, if you will stay untouched by any male and keep on waiting and loving us for years, we will fully commit to you in the future. Vision and I give you our word.” I said then turned and walked out of the room before she could say another word.