Thea
I woke up at night to watch Angel sleep, even though it was dark that I could barely see. I listened to his breath but it was peaceful. Too peaceful that I wondered if he was really asleep. I pressed a kiss to his naked chest and placed my head to rest in its roughness. I let my finger feel his biceps and I smiled at the thought of being pinned down to the bed by his strong arms.
Why was I pushing him away from making love to me tonight? As bad as I wanted it, I had a secret wish for when and where I wanted our first time to be after all these while. I couldn’t sleep because I was restless. My thighs were soaked from horny fluids that slipped out of my pussy. I kept pinching my fingers and rubbing my toes to reduce the effect of my sexual achings.
It started to feel suffocating that I was getting impatient and almost desperate for his touch. I didn’t want to be the one throwing myself at him after forcing him to exercise self control but why was it so hard for me? He did cure my sexual addiction but it seemed he had become the same addiction to me. Especially now that we were back together. I just knew once we started having sex, it would be an explosion. My body had so much catching up to do.
I moved away from Angel because feeling the warmth from his body was only making things worse. The moment I turned away, I felt a movement on the bed following me and when I tried to look up to confirm, Angel’s figure suddenly towered above me. Both legs placed on each side of my thighs and enveloping me within his space.
“Angel….” I gasped and began breathing deeply by his sudden act.
“You’re awake.” He said in a deep and rough voice that sent chills coursing every pore of my skin.
“Uh….” I got lost for words as he suddenly leaned down to me and pressing his bulky body against my soft and small one. He brought his face to the side of my neck, his warm tickly breath causing me to tilt to the side so that he had access to my skin.
His slow breath burned my skin and it made me tremble beneath him.
“What are you doing?” I managed to voice amidst the tension I felt.
“Why did you move away or stop what you were doing?” He asked nuzzling my neck and I quivered more intensely. He sniffed in my scent and groaned out in satisfaction then his hand traced mine, pulling them up above my head. With a single arm, he pinned both hands to the bed and his bulge jerked hitting my abdomen. A rush of fluid seeped out of my pussy soaking my thighs once again.
My toes began to curl and I wriggled impulsively from the sensations that flowed through me.
“Angel….” I whispered through shaky breaths and I heard him chuckle. He released my hands above my head but remained on top of me. I could hear his deep gulp which made me gulp as well.
“I can’t sleep too.” He said and laid beside me but very close enough to my body. I let out air through my mouth still feeling overwhelmed with sensations. I could tell he was looking at me and it got me very tensed.
“Why?” I finally asked even though I knew the answer. If we couldn’t do dirty then we could speak dirty.
“You…. Staying this way and doing nothing tonight, it’s torture.” He whispered and my pussy pulsated at his words.
“What exactly do you want to do?” I continued despite knowing that would arouse him even more. He gulped deeply to my hearing and slid his hand to wrap around my waist. He nudged me to face him then placed his hand above my thigh. Squeezing and warming it up while I trembled in response.
Angel moved his hand a little into my night wear causing my heart to race twice faster.
“I want to….” He paused and stole a kiss from me. “I want to slide my hand into your dress, trace it slowly till I feel you, where you damp, soft and slick for something bigger.” He said and a rush of warmth coursed through my skin afresh. I felt a sweet spark to the sides of my temple and a rush of sweet fluid below my abdomen just from the things he said.
“And?” I pressed further with my question.
He dragged his hand slowly out of my dress and cupped my cheek instead, he went ahead to caress it with the back of his palm and I savoured the feeling it brought. I brought my face further aching for a kiss but his thumb touched my lips instead and soon he dug it into my mouth. I sucked it gently before he pulled it out of my mouth.
“I want to kiss you so deeply that your lips burn hot from it and you ache for something deeper … Down, there ” he whispered in a deep voice, the last part referring to his cock inside me. My face flushed and I wanted to pull his finger inside me so he could feel how wet I was for him but then a disturbing image of him inside Natalia flashed through my mind and anger rose suddenly in me but died down as soon as it rose. I looked away from him while he was trying to draw my face to him. I could feel his confusion but I needed a little time to calm down from the pain I just felt from that image.
“Thea, what’s wrong?” He asked trying to pull me back gently but it only made the hurt deepen. I didn’t know why I still had to be in pain but the image of him and Natalia seemed to be like a punishment that I had to remember.
I stood up from my bed to move to my bathroom without answering Angel. I heard him follow behind me, he needed an explanation for my sudden change of mood but how do I even start? I splashed water in my face and wished I could dip my self in water to stop the intense aching of my pussy for penetration.
I felt Angel behind me and soon both hands were on my shoulder, rubbing them gently. I looked at our reflection through the mirror but the anger seemed to be returning instead of fading. I shrugged letting his hand slip from me then I turned to meet his confused face.
“Did I do something wrong?” He asked and I nodded though not in response to his question.
“I’m sorry.” I said instead dipping my head as if I was defeated.
“Talk to me Thea. I’m here, I want to know what’s wrong and what I can do to stop it.”
“I’m just being haunted by the image of you deep inside Natalia. Having sex with her while I suffered. I really want to get over it but it’s like a trauma I have to fight constantly. I wish I could make her pay dearly. I wish I could hurt her to the magnitude of how I felt jealous and hurt from what you both did.” I spilled my thoughts and when I looked at Angel he looked defeated as well. “See? You can’t do anything about it. That’s why it’s difficult for me to give myself to you now. I want to be free of this thought that plague me.”
Angel remained silent only to pull me into his arms gently after some seconds. I hugged him back because I needed to feel his warmth and calm myself.
“I can accept that I’ll have to pay everyday for all I did to you but I cannot bear to see you suffer still for what I did. I don’t know how or when but I promise you Thea, it will go away and you’ll never remember what it feels like to be in such pain again. ” He said stroking my hair and squeezing me gently into his embrace.
I believed him because his words were soothing to my heart. It gave me hope that Natalia was feeling worse pain knowing I was with the man she so desired but couldn’t be with.
“Come back to the bed my love.” Angel said and I nodded pulling away from him slowly. He took my hand and led me back to the bed. He cuddled me from the back and kept dropping kisses on my neck, shoulder and cheeks till I began feeling them in my sleep but before I surrendered to sleep I prayed earnestly that the images and pain would stop haunting me so that I could be with the man I loved without resenting him at the same time.