You’re talking about your bio mom in past tense. I mentioned while leaning my elbows against the railing.
A sad smile formed against his lips, his eyes looked right pass me.
She died when I was five.
I placed my hand on top of his before looking at him straight in the eye. I’m sorry. I whispered.
He wet his dry lips with his own saliva while his thumb softly rubbed the top of my hand.
It worked out for my own benefit, he called child services on himself and I got taken away and put into the system then my real parents found me, and now I’m a famous billionaire. Faust says.
I looked at him like actually looked at him. He tries to act like it doesn’t hurt him, like it doesn’t hurt being the second choice. His parents picked drugs over him, Deborah picked his cousin over him, Nicolas picked me over him and now it must feel like I’m picking Rhett over him.
I’ve never thought of it that way before, I was hurting him in the process of hurting myself.
I look at Kenzo and I see the young me, the little boy who protects his little sister, the little boy who’s caught in the middle of his parents. He says, his voice sounded brittle.
He turns to face me completely, he lowers our hands down near our thighs. I nervously looked down at his hand which was holding mine, it didn’t look right, if someone were to walk in on us they’d definitely think were a couple.
That’s why I didn’t sign the divorce papers, it wasn’t because I loved her but it was because I wanted to save my kids from being apart of a broken family like I was.
I remembered when I found his divorce papers, only Deborah’s name was signed. I thought he lied to me about everything, about wanting to leave her. Now that I know his back story, I understood him and what had gone through his mind when it was time to sign the papers, he thought of that scared little boy with no parents.
My own heart ached for him, I felt bad for not knowing earlier.
I wanted to tell you when you found the papers but I was too ashamed and embarrassed. He says, honestly.
My lips parted, the cool breeze blew my brown hair behind my shoulders.
I would have never judged you, I would have told you that it was okay being afraid, that no one else could understand the pain that parents can inflict better then myself. I told him, I spoke very slowly so he would catch every single word that left pass my lips.
My hands traveled up to his cheeks right before brushing pass his soft tux, he tilted his head against the palm of my hands. I inhaled deeply before exhaling, allowing my warm breath to touch his cheeks.
Truth is, I love you, and I keep loving you more and more each day. My voice wavered, he places his hand over mine with a strong nod.
I love you too. He whispers back.
Our foreheads touched softly and my eyes closed while I bit my bottom lip enjoying the small moment we were sharing.
Adora ! An angry voice said from behind us.
We pulled apart while looking to the side, Rhett stood at the door with a alcohol beverage in one hand and a sparking lemonade in the other. Deborah pops her head out from behind him with a smirk as she grabbed the drinks from him.
A slow tear trailed down his cheek before he roughly wiped it away with his wrist, I shook my head. It’s been him this entire time, this is the man you had an affair with. Rhett says, his voice sounded so hurt and betrayed.
Rhett, let me exp-
He raised his finger silencing me, he glanced away in disgust.
All I did was love you, care for you and you’d rather have a man who cheated and betrayed his own wife. He says.
Did I mention she was our nanny ? Deborah crosses her arms over her flat chest, she was pushing Rhett’s buttons even more.
Shut up, Deborah. I snapped at her, she lifted her hands up while surrendering with a smile laced on her lips.
You allowed me to call this man a ‘reasonable guy’, you let me shake hands with this man who has touched you, you sat in that damn car like nothing ever happened, you made a fool out of me. Rhett shouts, angrily. More tears fell from his eyes, he wiped them away even harsher.
It wasn’t her fault. Faust said trying his best to defend me.
She was happy, she was doing great and then we came back and she started craving alcohol again. That’s what you do to her. Rhett looks at him directly, his voice came out stern.
Faust didn’t move a muscle, he remained quiet.
I’m sorry. I cried.
He glanced away while his lips tucked together in a straight line. No, I am. Rhett storms away, I didn’t think twice before chasing after him through the crowd.
I didn’t care about pushing people out of the way, I had to find him. All I saw was faces of shame and curiosity, the music was blasting and my entire body was dripping of sweat. I spotted Rhett walking out the entrance door, I hurried outside.
Rhett, please. I said while climbing down the stairs, he didn’t stop nor turn around.
Rhett.
I grabbed his arm managing to hold him back, he didn’t exactly look at me, he kept his eyes on his car while his back faced me.
Did you even love me ? Or was I just another insurance policy for you ? He asked, emotion leaked between his teeth.
My head lowered in shame, I gulped.
You know, I thought it was the whole Jakob thing that was making you anxious, I was preparing to do anything to make him suffer, just for you. Rhett finally looks at me, his eyes were red and puffy. I would have done anything for you and you know it.
For the first time in a long time, I was speechless like actually voiceless. Tears filled my eyes as I stared at the man who’s heart I just broke.
God, I’m such an idiot. I left my life behind for you, my family. He shouts.
I jumped at his tone, he yanked his wrist out of my grip.
Did you at least wait a week before having sex with him ? He demanded.
I didn’t have sex with him. I blurted out.
He nods his head slowly, he runs his finger across his lips.
Did you kiss him ? He asked while his voice cracked.
More tears filled my eyes, I nodded with a face of disgust. He blew some air out before chuckling, he rubbed his eyes while smiling.
I can’t even look at you, I’m utterly disgusted. He tells me before getting inside his car, I didn’t try stopping him.
I stood near the stairs watching him take off in his car, I pressed my hand to my stomach trying to release some pressure from my tight dress. I tried inhaling and exhaling but everything was so jumbled together that it was hard to simply get a breath of air.
He would have found out one way or another but I wanted to tell him personally, now he just hates me.
What did I do ?