18-Sick.
Arianna POV.
“Lucas, can you get her dinner?” dad asks my papa, I don’t get what’s up with them, I can go eat alone, but my dad is holding me close, trying to get me to get back to sleep, I wasn’t sleepy anymore, I never want to sleep again, I never want to dream about him not ever again.
“Here you go little bat,” my papa says handing me a sippy cup of blood in it, my dinner, the thing I don’t like drinking.
“I’m not hungry” I lie, I was hungry, I didn’t have any lunch, and haven’t had any blood in few days now, which isn’t good.
“Try to eat a bit for me baby” dad says, holding me tight in his arms, pushing the cup in my hands, helping me take the first sip, it’s only the first sip that got me to start drinking, me and Andy are the same when it comes to eating, they might force the first sip on us, but once we start, we’ll drink the whole thing on our own. And that was the case with me again, I drank the whole thing, I was starving, with dad holding me, I didn’t want to stop, their encouragement, had me drinking the whole thing.
“That’s a good little bat, now let’s get you ready to sleep” dad says, but I wasn’t in my little space, I wasn’t feeling like a baby right now, them babying me didn’t help, I tried to push their hands away, I’m too old for this now.
“Stop it, I can go alone” I say having enough of them, but they kept trying to baby me, until I had enough, I’m an adult vampire, not a small girl anymore, I can take care of myself, I don’t need any help.
“Arianna, please baby” papa says but I push him off me too, it’s not time for him to baby me, I’m going through an internal struggle right now.
“No, leave, I’m old enough to take care of myself, please leave, I want to sleep” I say begging with them to leave, they share another look and finally let me be, leaving my room.
I jumped on the bed, and started to cry, it all hurt so bad, I didn’t know why I’m crying, I’ve fell in love with the creature of my dreams, one that’s not here, I’m driving myself crazy.
I fell asleep, maybe I did or maybe I didn’t I was somewhere between conscious and unconscious, I opened one eye, and looked next to my bed, I saw him, he’s standing in my room, looking at me all worried, I’m going crazy, I’m hallucinating maybe.
“Go away, go away…” I say over and over again trying to cover my eyes with my hand.
“Rina, love, you’re sick” he says getting close and touching my head, he touched me, and I felt his touch, which means I’m going even crazier now!
“I’m hallucinating” I say, knowing that my feeling of being sick is doing this, he’s not here, he can’t be here.
“You’re not love, I’m right here little fox, I’m sorry about earlier” he says, now that I’m looking at him, I could see he had the hood on, but his face was all messy, I couldn’t see his face, no matter how hard I tried to squint and look.
“Why didn’t you come?” I say but then I laugh out loud, “It’s because you aren’t here” I say out loud again laughing.
“I’m here now Rina, I couldn’t come because it wasn’t safe for me, I’m sorry love, I didn’t want to stand you up” he says begging with me.
“But you aren’t real, how can you be real?” I ask him going insane.
“I wish I could tell you everything Rina, but if I do, I’ll be pulled back, I wouldn’t be able to see you anymore, I don’t want to loose you Rina” he says again.
“What do you want from me?” I ask him him this time.
“I want to love you Rina, I want you to love me, I want you to trust me, I want to take care of you, and have you as mine” he says, he sounded desperate, but I believed him, which is the biggest problem I believed him. And what’s even worse, I wanted to love him too, I wanted him to take care of me, I wanted him to have me as his.
“I want to see you for real, I want to see your face” I say, that’s what I wanted.
“Once you get better, we’ll meet for real, promise” he says kissing the top of my head, making me feel a bit chilly, like cold air passing over me.
“I’m cold” I whine, I was feeling sick, no wonder my parents were trying to baby me.
“Let me tuck you in, time to rest little fox” he says laying on the bed with me.