Elle POV.
I’m hurt, I’m in pain and I’m suffering, I didn’t want Nikolai to leave me but he had to go, he had work to do, I never expected him to hold me the way he does. For me to crave his comfort, to feel safe in his hands like no one else, but once he left the whole in my heart got bigger again, I went to my only other comfort zone, to the only other thing that helped me get all my anger and hurt out, my only breather. It’s how I always cope with things, it’s how I’m used to do it, I went to my stories, I decided to write the story of how I lost Devil, of how my character had to give Nathalie up for her safety. I written in details how much it took me to take my decision, how much it hurt, how I only did it to keep her safe. I clicked publish the second I was done, I wanted her to see it, I wanted her to see my explanation, to know I would never betray her, I’m not a whore, I’m someone who loved her so much, my love is blind, my love is unlimited, I did that for her, but I also mentioned my love for Nikolai, how well he’s treating me, that I might be falling for him too.
It was an explanation, an apology, a goodbye message, I expected her to comment, maybe say goodbye back, but she never did, I don’t know if she saw the chapter or didn’t, but I wish, I hoped she did. After checking every comment, every notification, she never showed up, too frustrated and hurt she never came, she never read it, she hates me now. I shouldn’t care as much as I do right now but I do care, I still have feelings for her, even if I should she’s still hold a very important spot in my heart, in my mind, and soul.
I skipped dinner, Nikolai wasn’t here, I didn’t want to have any kind of encounter with Angelo right now, not now, not when I’m in pain and vulnerable, I decided to go to bed early, I couldn’t sleep, tears wouldn’t stop trailing down my face, I tried closing my eyes but couldn’t sleep. I decided to take something for the pain, the mental pain is even worse than the physical one, when your heart breaks, you could feel the pain deep down in your chest. I took a pain killer, it’s the ones I use for my period, they are strong enough to get me to sleep or at least feel like my brain is on vacation, it’s exactly what I need right now.
I was somewhere between asleep and awake, somewhere between reality and dreamland, I felt cold air come through the balcony, I don’t remember opening that door, or maybe I did, there’s also the chance they left it open when they cleaned our room, I didn’t pay that any attention, the tears were still coming full force, blinding my view, making everything look blurry, I think I saw a figure in my room, but no one is there, I’m just dreaming, that’s what I told myself, until the figure got closer, imagination figures don’t have a smell or wear a perfume, but this one did. Every time she got closer to me I took a step back on the bed until she got me pinned against the headboard, I knew who that is, it’s Devil. Maybe she read the chapter or maybe she didn’t she’s here to kill me, she’s going to end what she started this afternoon, my heart was beating a thousand beat per minute.
“Don’t make a sound” she whisper holding a gun up to my head making me freeze, she’s going to kill me now!
“We could go down from the window or the door, but in both cases you’re keeping quiet, one sound and I’ll blow your head and set this place on fire” she says in a mean voice, I knew she meant it, she meant every word she said, I knew what she’s capable of, this is Devil the hitman, the one I rarely saw.
“The door” I whisper, I had no plans on jumping from the window like she did, it’s too high up from the ground for my liking, I’d go with the door.
“Move it” she says, I get out of the bed, I’m only wearing one of Nikolai’s hoodie, when she saw that she growls.
“Put a pant and shoes on” she order me again, I obey too afraid, once I had some on, she mentioned for the door, I made sure no one was out as we walked down the stairs, she knew where she’s going, she kept the gun to my back, pushing me toward the kitchen, the back door, and out toward the backyard, and finally she made us jump the gate, we made it into a rental car.
“In” she order, I get in and she got in behind the wheel, I didn’t dare talk or to say any word, I stayed silent the whole drive, it was a long drive, I wanted to sleep, but I didn’t dare to sleep, not with her driving, she’s going to take me somewhere kill me and get rid of the body.
“Sleep” she says, but I shake my head no, I don’t want to sleep.
“I’m okay” I lie, I was falling asleep but fighting the sleep off.
She kept driving us for more than an hour, she didn’t take us toward her old apartment, nor toward any place that I knew, she took us to an empty looking area, she parked the car into what looks like a warehouse, this reminds me too much of my made up stories, where she’ll torture the people into confessing, before she kills them and throw them in a river, I didn’t want to end up in a river.
“Don’t be scared Elle, you got me” she assures me, is that supposed to make me feel better, she still had the gun out, she pushed me toward the door of the warehouse, she got us inside, locking the door behind her, only then she put the gun away, she turned me toward her and hugged me, the hug was tight she was breathing my scent in, crushing my bones.
“I missed you princess” she says, I was too shocked and afraid to say anything back, I stayed quiet.
“Didn’t you miss me?” she ask me in a softer voice now.
“I…I…I did…. but I thought you hate me” I say afraid of her.
“I never hated you princess” she says making my heart pound quickly, she’d lost it for real this time.
“But you yelled, you called me a whore” I say my voice breaking again, my anger was having the best of me this time, she can’t be real.
“I saw the chapter princess, you did that for me?” she asks her voice filled with emotions.
“You can’t do this Devil! You can’t hate me and love me! You can’t take me from Nikolai, he’d kill you!” I yell worried about her too, I wasn’t scared for me, but for her.
“Let him try” she says with one of her smiles, she can’t say that, I didn’t want him dead, I love Nikolai.
“You can’t do this Devil! I have to get back” I say wanting to get back to him, to keep her safe.
“You’re not leaving Elle! You’re mine now! You’re not going anywhere!” she order me, her voice going back to it’s hard firm tone, she pushed me inside toward what looks like a bunker bed, she made me sit on it. She knew I wasn’t staying, this is wrong, Nikolai would kill her, he’ll kill us both, she saw it in my eyes, she knew I wasn’t staying, she got a handcuff, cuffing one of my hand to the bed railing.
“Get some sleep princess” she says leaving me alone as she went toward the door.
“DEVIL! YOU CAN’T DO THIS!” I yell back to her leaving back.