Elle POV.
I’ve messed up, she hates me now, she kicked me off, I never expected her to hate me, she gave me no chance to explain things, no chance of telling her I did this for her that I never wanted her to hate me, I just wanted her to be safe, I did this for her safeness, but she didn’t care.
I had to go back to work, but how can I get back to work, I can’t get back to work, I feel like crying, not feel like, I was crying, I was sobbing loudly even on the road, I couldn’t help myself not right now. This hurt so badly, she hates me, she doesn’t want me, she called me a whore even.
I had to get back to the cafe, but all I wanted to do is get back home, hide under a blanket and cry, but I couldn’t do that, I had to get away, I had to get away from everyone first. I walked back toward the cafe, still crying, I walked in and went toward the back, I need to change and leave. My plan didn’t go as planned, Paul was there, my friend was there and he’s going to ask questions, he wants to know where I’ve been, what happened, why I’m crying, why I want to leave. I always thought I wanted to have friends, I wanted them to have someone who would care, but right now I miss being alone, I need to be alone.
Paul followed me, as I went inside, he even got in behind me, in the changing room, I tried to push him out, he’s not allowed in the room with me, but still he’s here, it’s only one person at a time.
“Go out Paul” I say my voice breaking badly, I could hardly see from in between my tears anymore, breathing was getting even more difficult.
“No, what’s wrong? Why are you crying” he asks refusing to leave the room without knowing what’s wrong with me, but I couldn’t tell him it’s Devil.
“Nothing, I need to leave” I say wanting to leave already.
“You’re not leaving anywhere without me” he says, I was about to yell back to tell him, I want to be alone now but our boss decided to join the party too now.
“What are you two doing here! Get back to work” he yells at us both.
“Give us a second boss” Paul yells back to him.
“OUT!” he yells again, Paul groans and say few naughty words under his breath before turning to me.
“Change, but don’t leave” he order me getting out of the room and going to talk with the boss, yelling back at him that he’s here, I’m sick, it’s a girl thing and I should be allowed to get back home now.
I was very grateful for Paul now, okay maybe having a friend isn’t that bad, maybe he does have a big use for me, I changed back to my clothes, hating to have to put on the pretty clothes again, I wore those for what? To impress her, but she’s not mine anymore, I did this to myself, it was my fault and now I’m paying the price, I don’t belong to her anymore.
I finished and got out of the changing room, I went to the boss going with Paul’s excuse of my period, but I now need to leave, I tried to walk out of the cafe but Paul pulled me back inside.
“She’s waiting for her boyfriend” He says out loud before getting closer to me.
“Nikolai says to wait for him or else, I wouldn’t want to experience the or else” he whispers in my ear, I just nod my head yes.
I was too tired, too exhausted and too depressed to say no, to fight with Nikolai, could I get away with telling him I have my period, I hope I could, I sat down on one of the empty tables, giving Paul an assuring smile, I’m not running away, and I’m not that sad, see I could smile.
He wasn’t believing me much, he kept looking at me with the side of his eyes, until a black Mercedes car parked in front of the cafe, the driver got out of the car and walked inside the cafe, toward me. I’m screwed, seeing how worried he’s looking, searching for me, how am I going to explain this without explaining this.
“Elle, let’s leave” he order me, offering me a hand, it wasn’t an offering, he just held it and dragged me with him outside, he opened my side of the car and helped me inside, I tried to wipe my few stray tears off but they kept going down on my face. He got in the driver seat and turned the car on not talking to me, he just drove off.
“Nikolai” I whisper, but he doesn’t answer me, he just keep driving so I keep it down looking down at my lap, more tears sliding down my face.
We got toward what looks like the docks, he parked his car there and got out, I stayed in the car still afraid of moving, he came to my side and opened the door for me, taking the seatbelt off me and dragging me back outside the car. He pulled me toward him, gulfing me with his arms, I couldn’t help but cry, it hurt so badly, I held him closer needing his strong hold on me, needing the help, needing the comfort he’s offering me.
“Shushhh Elle, shushhh” he says petting my head, helping me calm down.
“It hurt, it hurt so badly” I say not able to help it, this is just too much for me.
“It’s okay baby, it’s okay. I’m here now” he says helping me calm down, he’s here.
“Promise you won’t leave” I say, knowing I can’t leave him, I got myself into this, but he could leave me.
“I’ll never let my princess go, never, you’re mine Elle” he says kissing my lips holding me closer again, I could hear the sea sound from behind us, it was mixing with his heartbeat making me relax even more.
We shared the moment, we shared the hug, the love, the comfort, it wasn’t until he moved and pushed me off him, I wouldn’t have let go, he didn’t push me far, just enough to get us to move and take a seat on the bench pulling me on his lap with my head leaning against his shoulder.
We stayed like that for too long, I’d say hours, but I’m bad with time estimation, all I know is that all this hurt too badly, I know that my heart has just been broken all over again.
“Elle, what’s wrong?” he asks, why is he asking, do I have to tell.
“It’s my period” I lie, he doesn’t seem to believe me at all, his eyes yelled liars.
“What really happened Elle, Paul told me you left the work, and came back crying” he says, the traitor have already snitched on me.
“It’s my period” I say again trying to get away from him a bit, maybe if I move back toward the car, he’ll get the idea and we could leave now.
“Don’t lie to me Elle, I’ll spank you right here” he threatens me.
“It’s nothing” I say trying to hide my face instead this time.
“You’re lying to me Elle, I don’t like lies or liars” he warns me, but I just nod, not saying anything back to him.
We stayed like that for some more time before he told me it’s time to leave, we walked back toward the car, he helped me get in the car and got in his seat, he didn’t say anything on the way back, he didn’t comment on our talk, or moment until we were back home. He parked the car and turned to me, this is where he’ll make me tell him what’s wrong.
“I don’t like lies Elle, I’m not pushing you, but when you’re going to tell me I want the full truth Elle” he warns me again, I never expected him to be this understanding, to be this cool with what happened, he let me get back inside the house while he had to leave for work again.