Bambi POV.
“I think I love him,” I say sobbing my eye out to Colin, he’s still my friend, and he’s the only one who’s always here for me. He sat with me while the doctor, Doctor James, who’s also a daddy to a girl named Melody, I know about the girl, but not her really, she’s the alpha’s sister. And a good friend of Colin, everyone like Colin, he’s the alpha’s mates and everyone like him, they better like him or I’d beat their ass.
“Hey that’s good, you finally have someone other than me to love,” he says with a wink, I pushed my friend out of his safe space, the alpha is going to kill me for what I did.
“I don’t know what to do, I don’t know how to love him,” I say with more tears, I wasn’t sure how I was supposed to act to get him to love me back, I’ll just push him away if I do, what if I make the wrong move.
I’ve been with a lot of people for a long time, but everyone I’ve been with, I acted like they expected me to be, I did what they asked me to do, but I don’t know how to act around Christopher, what if I do something wrong.
“Just be you, you’ve been staying with littles the whole time, you’ve been acting like one, just keep that up, act like the way you did when we were in the park and ran under the rain,” he says that wasn’t so long ago, and he’s right, I did act in another way back then, I was a different person, but that was just with him and Lilly, not Christopher.
“What if I turned out to be a brat?” I ask him, what if I’m just like Lilly?
“Maybe then he’d like brats,” he says, but I don’t want to be a brat, what if he wants a brat, I don’t know how well I’ll be able to act around him.
“Just be you, he’ll like you for who you are,” Colin assures me but I wasn’t so sure, Thalia wanted him she made him sign a contract first, but I’m not sure about Christoper, but I will do whatever it takes to get him to like me for real.
“He’s okay, no need to be scared,” alpha Thalia says coming back into her office where I and he were cuddled together, she needed a shower after she was done dealing with the guy who tried to kill half of her department.
“Why did he come?” I ask her, not feeling safe at all anymore.
“It’s the vampire’s revenge, they hold a grudge for a very long time,” she answers us, then pick Colin up, cuddling with him, I wanted cuddles too, but I couldn’t go and ask Chris to cuddle me, he’s sick right now, he needs his rest and not me annoying him.
Now after the days have passed, I discovered that I’m best hiding from Christopher, if he can’t find me then I can’t annoy him, then I won’t be a burden over his back. I and Colin are having another private talking session, only this time it’s with baby Colin and not the big Colin, maybe he could help me while being a little more than he does while big.
“I’m lost, and I’m scared,” I confess to him with tears going down my face, I’m back to crying, I’ve been crying so much lately, with me not knowing where to go and what to do, I’m just crying lately.
“Nu be scared, you baby like me?” he asks me, hugging me tightly.
“Yeah, I think, I’m,” I answer him, I think I’m a little, a lost little though.
“Then why you scared?” he asks me again, still hugging me.
“I’m scared, I don’t want to be a bad girl for daddy,” I confess to him.
“Nu-uh, you good girl, me know you,” he assures me, but how much does he know me for real.
“You don’t know that,” I say, I don’t even know that, I don’t know myself anymore, not the real self, or who I’m supposed to be, I’m just worried about doing any wrong movement.
“Mhm! Me knows! Me knows you!” he says, making me smile if he says so.
“How are you a good boy for Thalia?” I ask him, maybe he’d give me pointers.
“I just am me, and you should be you, and obey rules, and only eat sweet when they think you napping,” the last part he told me it in a whisper voice making me giggle, I will do those.
“Thank you,” I say holding him tight this time.
“You’re welcome, and we’re in trouble,” he says worriedly, I looked behind me to see both Thalia and Christopher coming toward us, we weren’t sitting in her office this time, instead we were hiding on the roof.
“We’re dead,” I say, I’m supposed to be a good girl, instead I’m hiding away from who’s supposed to be my daddy, I did also sneak off the department and came here to see Colin.
“Little deer! Why did you do that! Do you know how worried I was about you!” Chris says in a very worried and angry voice, I think I might be doing everything wrong again, I’m making him worry.
“I’m sorry, I just…” I say not able to finish my sentence, I’m just what? I don’t even know what I’m here doing.
“I did that mommy, I’m sorry, I borrowed Bambi,” he says.
“Borrowed her?” Thalia says raising a brow up at him.
“Mhm, borrowed her for a bit,” Colin says getting me out of the trouble and blaming himself instead.
“No borrowing her ever again, not without my permission,” she says angry at him, I think I just got my friend a booty kicking, but I didn’t mean to, but it happened.
“Come on Bambi, time to get back to our department,” Chris says offering me a hand and dragging me down the stairs, back to our department now.
“Are you mad? I’m sorry,” I say on the verge of tears yet again, the shooting only happened a couple of days ago, and here I’m running away from him and scaring him.
“I’m not mad, I’m worried, you can’t do this Bambi, getting away without telling me, I searched the whole department for you,” he says, is that a good or a bad sign? For him to be worried about me.
“I’m sorry,” I say, not sure what else to say to him now.