Stella POV.
I didn’t feel that good, the feeling of being under pressure, of being watched didn’t leave my body as we went to school, I didn’t care this morning, I let Finn sit next to Calesti in the front seat, they were talking and having fun, no need for me to be the party pooper.
“Are you okay?” they both asked me sounding worried.
“I’m just tired,” I answer them with a tight smile, Calesti gave me a knowing look while Finn looked to be worried.
When we made it to the school, we all got out, I smiled one more time at my friend and brother, I was doing a great job pretending I was fine, I was very proud of not breaking down and crying yet, but their faces said that I wasn’t doing that good of a job, but I continued.
We went to our classes as normal, there was the usual gossiping that happens every day in school, but it’s a high school, what else would you expect, everyone had something on everyone, and they liked sharing. The looks I was receiving today were different, some of the royals knew about my date with Theo since they were at the dinner along with us, but none of them knew how it ended, and none of them knew about the wolves.
“You go ask her,” one girl says to her friend.
“I’m not her friend, you do it,” the other one says.
“I don’t want Cici to bite my head off, you’re more friends with her, just ask her how her date was,” the first one said again, and I decided that it was better to get away from them two so they couldn’t ask me, the date was perfect but then my date turned into a wolf.
I avoided most of my class for the next hour, and the one after it, I decided to skip lunch then, I didn’t want to give anyone the chance to talk to me, so when Calesti asked me where I was going, I just said that I need to be alone.
I walked out of the school and sat in the backyard of the school, there were some tables and chairs left out there for people to sit on, I was looking into the woods, I felt like being called in if I went into the woods, if I go in the feeling of being locked in would disappear if I go in there, but I knew better, I shouldn’t go there, what if the wolves find me? Or worse what if Theo finds me in there and hurts me?
“Can I sit with you?” A voice came from behind me, and I jumped up, the voice scared me to hell and back, it’s the voice that I was trying my best to avoid.
“What are you doing here?” I ask him with fear running through my body.
“I’m here to talk to you, and apologize,” Theo says looking everywhere but at me, he was avoiding my eyes.
“Okay, now go,” I say looking at him with pity in my eyes, I felt sorry for him, he looked so sad, he looked miserable.
“Please, Stella, I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t think… I know I came out the wrong way but I want to talk to you,” he begged me, and so I decided to listen to him, maybe I could help him relax, I felt very sorry for him.
“Tell me what you have and leave,” I say in a firm voice, no matter how much I felt sorry for him, I wasn’t going to just break, but I felt connected to him, and I felt the urge to listen to him.
“Stella, you’re special,” he says and I laughed at him.
“Special?” I ask him, like how he turn into a wolf?
“Yes, for me you’re very special, and I need to talk to you, and I’ve been going insane, I think I did everything wrong,” he says with a shake of his head.
“I think you did,” I agreed with him, he hadn’t done a thing correctly so far, maybe at first when I had this giant crush on him but then he went all psycho on me, and he drove me away.
“I’m sorry Stella, I really am, can we talk now?” he begs me.
“Not here, maybe after school?” I say, trying to think of everything that happened since the day we met until now, the way I ran and he took after me in the park, and then the wolf chasing me.
“You promise to talk to me after school?” he begs me he looked on the verge of crying or maybe on the verge of going insane and killing everyone, I wasn’t very sure when it came to him.
“Yeah, after school, we’ll meet near my home,” I say, near my house where it’s safe, where I could run back home right away.
“You got a deal,” he says with a big smile on his face and takes off running,
I went back toward the school and sat next to Calesti, do I trust her? Do I tell her about the fact that we’re going to talk about? But what would he tell me about? What would she think? I was lost in my head, and she noticed it, she poked me and asked me what was going on?
“I’m going to talk with Theo after school,” I confess to her.
“That’s really good, I’m sure you two can figure things out,” she says with a big smile on her face, does she know?
“Do you know everything about Theo?” I ask her, wanting to know if she knows that he’s a wolf?
“Not everything, but I know him well, and I know he’s a good guy, even if he acts like a stupid guy most days,” she assures me.
“Okay,” I say believing her, the rest of the classes passed in peace, and then it was time to leave, time to talk to him.
“You want a drive?” she asks me, and I nod, she’s the one who’s been driving me to and back from school except for the first day in school when dad brought us and then we got lost.
“Yes, please,” I answer out loud, soon I’ll have my own car and then I won’t have to depend on her.
“What’s wrong Stella?” Finn asks me, that’s all we talk about these days, what’s wrong? What’s wrong? I’m terrible with hiding the fact that a lot of things were bad for me.
“Nothing, I’m good,” I lied.
“Sure, sure,” Finn says not believing me, I sat in the backyard of the house telling Finn to tell mom I’m just sitting out here for a while, I’m not going anywhere and she could come and get me anytime she wants to, just to be safe.
“Fine, I’ll tell her you’re being crazy and sitting in the woods,” Finn says.
I waited for Theo to come over and talk to me, I wanted to know what he had hidden, what he wanted to share with me, he’s going to tell me he’s a wolf? And then what? Am I going to die? To be told to stay quiet and not to tell anyone anything next?
“You came,” Theo says walking toward me, he came from the woods.
“It’s my house,” I remind him pointing behind me, reminding him that it’s my house.
“Right, but you still came out to see me,” he says with a big smile on his face, he was so happy to see me, for once he wasn’t that angry.
“Yeah, what do you have to tell me?” I ask him.
“I should do things right this time, I’ll start the story from the beginning,” he says and I nod.
“You see, I’m not just a human, I’m more than that, but I think you know that by now,” he says with a sad smile.
“Yeah, I think I have found that out,” I say feeling anxious, is he going to kill me? Is he going to turn wolf and hurt me?
“I’m sorry princess, I’m really sorry, I should have said something, I shouldn’t have scared you, but you see, we are created in another way,” he says.
“What way? A wolf way?” I say the words out loud, looking at him with worried eyes is he going to deny it? Or is he going to tell me the truth?
“Yes, I’m a wolf, I should have told you things in another way, I should have explained them,” he says with a sigh.
“Maybe not act like a psycho?” I suggest.
“You’re right, I was better not acting like a psycho,” he says nodding his head yes.
“Yeah, you are,” I say with a nod.
“Wolves they are different, we’re created in another way,” he says.
“Right, ’cause we don’t run around and turn into wolves,” I say with a nervous chuckle.
“That’s right, but it’s not just the fact that we shift into wolves,” he says and I nod, what else does he have? What else?
“Do you kill people?” I ask him with fear running through my body.
“No, I don’t,” he says quickly.
“Then what else?” I ask him.
“You know about the legends of the wolves having soulmates?” he asks me and I remembered the first time we talked, the time he called me his soul.
“Yes, but I don’t think I’m gonna fall for you, and want to run away with you,” I say, looking at him, he frowned, what did he expect that I’ll confess my love forever?
“I was told that you won’t, that those legends aren’t that true, I have to take things slowly, get you to trust me first, and maybe then you’ll fall in love with me,” he says, and that’s right, maybe then I’d love him, but it won’t be like that, not this quickly.
“Right,” I answer him.
“But you need to know what you mean to me first,” he says and I nod, what do I mean for him?
“And what do I mean for you?” I asked him when he didn’t start talking.
“You see wolves, ones like me, we are born without a soul,” he says.
“That’s impossible, everyone got a soul,” I answer him.
“Not us, we’re not just humans, we’re also wolves, and we are born soulless,” he says.
“What does that make you?” I ask him, killers? Murderer? Psychopath?
“That makes me, Stella, it makes me a creature without a soul that lives inside my body,” he says.
“If your soul doesn’t live inside of your body, then where is it? It went to hell or something?” I ask him with a raised brow.
“No, not hell, it’s still on the earth with us, but it doesn’t live inside of me,” he says.
“Then where is it? In a bottle underneath your bed?” I asked him and he laughed, he sounded like a psycho, it wasn’t even funny.
“It’s funny, but no, let me tell you, we are born without a soul, our souls are living in another body, they are held by someone else,” he explains to me.
“And where’s your soul?” I ask him with a raised brow.
“I’m looking at her,” he says, me? He called me soul earlier, but I didn’t understand it.
“Are you serious?” I ask him.
“Very serious, you’re my soul, and seeing you, and having you near me, it’s my pure joy, you’re everything to me now,” he says.
“But Theo, I’m not attracted to you like that,” I say blushing, I wasn’t attracted to him in a physical way, I had a big crush, but nothing more than that.
“You don’t have to be like that, you can stay as my friend, you can be anything you want to be, as long as you’re near me and mine, I’ll be happy, we’ll both have a good life together,” he promises me.
“Now what?” I ask him.
“I want to be your friend again, can I?” he asks me.
“Okay,” I say, I wanted to be his friend and maybe more with time, but as long as he promises to be less psycho, but maybe I can’t ask that from a guy who’s a psycho.