Covered with darkness he was still right there but sure of what to do, still it was hard for him to think about all of this that was happening at the moment, left confused .
After she had left he Stepped out, it was more difficult for me to think about the entire situation at that moment.
For one reason it made more sense that all of this was happening, he couldn’t get his mind away from the fact that all this could have been averted if he had just stayed quiet.
Once again he had made the mistake, the same mistake he had made over and over again-
It was miserable, so much that he couldn’t look her in the eyes, he was filled with a certain a feeling for uncertainity.
“So.”She muttered.
She was unsure of what to say as well, she thought about it again … The fact that she had to face her after the moment she had with him.
Of all things he could do she didn’t know how to deal with the fact that she had just been involved with a feeling of animosity as well.
She felt a bit shamed at the fact that she had just fucked Christian and to make matters worse she had to address Tonia who had run seeking help, if there was anything she could feel that moment it was a sense of bitterness seering through her soul.
“What can we do about it “she asked.
“I don’t understand.”Christian asked.”And what were you two talking about, why can’t you just tell her to seek proper help.”
For the first time in what seemed like a while, he was totally angered about all of this and didn’t know why, he couldn’t tell exactly why he was angered.
In a way he couldn’t understand all that was happening at the moment, he was furious at himself for falling again for her antics, or was it his.
“You seem very desperate about all of this.”She uttered and he didn’t know what to do about the moment.
He turned away to leave but stopped right there at the door, he turned back to face her.
“What do you need?”He looked back at her .”I need you to keep all of this secret and I intend you do.”
As he walked away leaving her there still dazed he didn’t know what to do at that moment he couldn’t tell if it was necessary for him to go through all what was happening.
He turned away and stalled at the doorway, he was confused about the entire situation and sat right there on the terrace.
*****
She stopped right there in the room, she could have sworn that he was right there-
She didn’t know what to do again at that moment, she was not there at his room for a moment, leaning against the door and staring at
the wall.
She could feel her chest constricted. She didn’t think she ever felt this frustratedabjyf anything.
To make things worse she didn’t Know why she felt so resentful regarding how she chose to handle all of this past transgressions, but not pure anger.
This feeling that seared with a bitter, cutting flame. Her eyes burned, and she blinked to keep the tears at bay, she couldn’t tell what it was all about but there was something deep in her soul telling her he was there .
Christian was not going to make her cry, all she had done all her life was to try keeping things to herself.
She had told herself lies and prayed that
when the time came she would believe them-that she didn’t need love or
fidelity.
Yet she couldn’t get herself to forget all of what was happening, as she walked away from the window she was tensed , she had put up
up walls thinking it would be alright to start within it but again it had crumbled .
.
A fact was that over and over he had somehow knocked them down in a laughable
amount of time was quite amusing.
She wanted to turn back the clock and never step into her room, it had been a difficult for her to deal with and all she felt was that strange feeling.
A few moments ago, the memory of having his hands had been warm, pleasurable impressions. Now, they were stains she couldn’t wash away.
From the exaggerated banging and clatter of pans downstairs, it was safe to say that she had to do this all by herself…
She suspected that he was seeing her, and was quick to rebuff the possibility to the back of her mind.
Though they hadn’t hit it off. She’d realized shortly after shutting the door that it won’t be easy for her to deal with.
She looked back at the time and could see that it was Saturday and the cleaner was supposed to be here.
She come twice a week and even at that the room never seemed more clean –
Or she was the worst maid she’d ever seen. My gaze coasted through the entire room again as she felt thrilled at this point.
She took in the messy bedroom, taking in the shattered room and everthing again with detachment.
Ever since she’ d stopped all of this she had resorted to immature things that had left her in
awkward situations.
At the moment she stood in the room and banged my hands on the door.
Chris made her do stupid things and she
hated it- she made her way down the stairs, and relief hit me when she found him in the
kitchen.
She didn’t know what to do about it , she was mad at him but still there was that burning need to act immediately and she did exactly that .
“Where have you been?”She questioned.