Yes you can. At least that please. Please, otherwise I’ll go crazy Nathan. I begged him with my eyes.
He looked down at me about to tell me off but I watched his void eyes slowly melt as they locked with mine. I watched guilt a heavy sadness cloud them instead. I really can’t say, but from what I heard it could be up to three months.
My jaw dropped. Three months !? I cried, my heart pounding away as the dread and panic settled in tenfold.
He suddenly rushed over to me. Hey why don’t we buy shoes now ? Shoe shopping helps girls feel better right ? He asked in desperation, his tone mixed with concern.
I watched his desperate attempts and it made me realize that there was no point in freaking out at him right now. It reminded me that he wasn’t the enemy, well at least not the main one. He was just a puppet who was trying to buy me shoes to make me feel better right now. He wasn’t the one deciding I’d be held in captivity for three months.
That was Ryland.
I nodded and let up a small smile, following him to the first shoe store he saw.
After about a whole hour of shopping some more, we finally crashed down onto a bench, both of us exhausted.
I stared at all the bags around us and suddenly felt guilty. I had probably made him spend a fortune on me. I was too busy counting the money towards repairs and damages towards myself to stop and think that this was all most likely coming out of his own wallet.
Nathan, how much did you spend on me ? I asked hesitantly.
Don’t ask stupid questions princess. He gave me a smirk.
I knew it was a large amount since he wasn’t telling me.
I always do this ! That’s why I hardly go shopping ! I cried.
He just silently watched me as I started yelling at myself.
I always overspend and by the time I get home, I realize how much money I wasted. I covered my face with my hands.
You should’ve told me to stop. I mumbled into my hands.
Skylar. He said softly.
I probably cost you your whole rent. I’m pretty sure that leather jacket was more than my-
Please love. This wouldn’t even cover half of it. He scoffed cockily. Why he would brag about that, I don’t know.
I opened my mouth to argue more but he placed his hand over my leg, stopping me instantly.
It’s okay. He assured me. I get paid more than what I spend every month, it’s fine. Plus, I never had anything good to actually spend it on. He smiled at me, causing my stomach to flip.
Thank you. I said softly, looking down at all the bags surrounding our feet. I was thankful for the hat I was wearing as it hid the blush on my face right now.
Anything to make you blush sweetheart. He grinned, proving the hat to be useless garbage.
I felt my cheeks heat up more and looked away from those piercing green eyes which I bet were filled with amusement right now.
My eyes caught his hand move from my thigh. I watched in anticipation as he lifted it slowly towards my face. Subconsciously biting my lip, I finally lifted my eyes to his and was taken aback by the intensity in those emerald green pools. I wondered if he could hear my heart as he tucked a strand of hair behind my ear ever so softly. I started to lean into his touch before I knew what I was doing, my eyes not breaking from his.
Nathan… I softly called, not sure if I should tell him to stop or tell him to never. The indecision must have shown in my eyes as he cut me off before I could finish.
We should go, more people are gonna start to come in now. He said, standing up and looking around.
I stood up too and stepped awkwardly far away from him, just to assure my heart rate not spiking back up due to being close within his vicinity.
Okay, I just need to use the washroom. I said, remembering the long ride here.
He sat back down with the bags and looked at his non-existent watch. Make it fast.
I just rolled my eyes and called him twelve, before walking off towards the washroom.
As I was washing my hands, something in the mirror caught my eye.
I quickly shut the tap off as I turned to face the window.
I started walking towards it and felt my heart start pounding. This was my chance. I could just climb out and run to the closest pay phone, building, or person. Escape from all of this. Escape from my kidnapper. Nathan…
I closed my eyes, debating on whether to take this chance or not.
No one ever said it would be this difficult to escape with an easy opportunity right in front of me.
My mind was screaming at me to go, but my heart was aching with each step I took. I knew if I left, my chest would only become heavier and I’d never forgive myself.
Nathan needed me… I don’t know why or how, but I just knew that if I left, I’d be leaving his life in chaos.
I let out a defeated sigh as I stepped back and turned to face the door.
I stepped out and crashed right into a strong chest.
Stumbling a little bit, I looked up to see Nathan.
I couldn’t see his eyes, since he had the ray bans on.
There you are. I thought you had left. He said, looking relieved.
I just guiltily stared at the ground, feeling his eyes burning through me.
Wait, you weren’t planning on leaving, were you ? He asked slowly.
I just stared at my feet, wringing my hands. Finally I looked up at the two black rectangles looking down at me. I-
We should go. He gritted out, walking away after with tensed up shoulders and carrying all my bags as if they weighed nothing.
I felt hurt as he walked away. After standing there for a while, regret, pain and guilt swirling my mind, I walked after him.
It was awkwardly silent on the way back. No one said anything. I had opened my mouth a few times but nothing had come out.
Once we arrived, he went to his trunk and I followed suite, taking a deep breath.
I stood in front of him, blocking his path just as he turned to grab the bags.
Look, I know- I started.
Excuse me. He said bluntly, cutting me off and trying to reach behind me.
I swallowed the hurt and put on a determined face.