I remember everything that has happened and I can’t forget anything from the time where I have spent more bad moments than good ones. Good memories are easy to forget but the bad memories will haunt you forever and they will stay with you till the day you die, maybe still haunts you after your death too. Who knows!
Meeting Maria was a good thing or a bad thing. I never thought about it at first but as the days went by I got, even more, confused about it. She is this girl who is so calm and lovely at one minute and the second minute she will become this moody and bitchy girl who likes to bully people. I have never liked this side of Maria and have always tried to change her habit of getting happiness from others humiliation but I never thought in my life that I would be the victim of Maria’s weird obsession with bullying people and humiliating them.
“If you don’t want to get humiliated or embarrassed in front of everyone then stop talking to other people and replacing me with them”. These are the exact words of Maria when I tried to make new friends other than her. I didn’t take her warning seriously and took it as a fit of jealousy because we were friends for a long time. That’s why she is being jealous.
“I Am not replacing you with anyone maria, I’m just trying to make new friends and you have other friends too but I don’t have any other friends other than you and this is not fair.” I angrily replied to her standing my ground firm.
“Hahaha so, now you are bored of me that’s why you want new friends? Huh?”. She scoffed.
“Shut up Maria, this is not what I meant, and stop being a hypocrite bitch. This is my life and I have every right to make new friends and I will make new friends,” I yelled at her face before storming out from the school. I regretted that day so much to this day. I would have never thought about the intensity of my words.
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I tossed and turned all night because of the fight and I closed my eyes after so much trouble and that made me grumpy the next day and I even didn’t get to eat breakfast because I slept off and made me late for school. I just hope there will be no more mishaps throughout the day.
When I reach school, it feels like something bad is going to happen and I always have this gut feeling whenever something bad will happen. Half of the day went by slowly and painfully making my head throb with the lack of sleep. I’m just waiting for the bell to ring to dash out of the classroom to the cafeteria to get me a hot chocolate that is the only thing that will make me awake.
Everyone was looking at me weirdly when I made my way to the cafeteria but I brushed it off. They were gossiping about the fight I and Maria had yesterday but I was so wrong because as soon as I entered the cafeteria I heard loud murmurs about maria? Me? Beaten? At first, I didn’t understand what everyone was talking but once I saw the girl with whom I talked yesterday and wanted to make her my friend sitting at the corner table with a busted lip and other bruises on her face and neck.
At first, nothing passed through my mind seeing her all beaten and bruised but as the bulb went off somewhere my brain started to piece everything. The warning, the evil glint, the smirk this morning on her face. For a second I thought no she can’t be this cruel but now seeing her with the same smirk and the same evil glint in her eyes sitting with her so-called friends far away from me, now I believe that she is the one who did this to the poor girl.
What is her mistake? And what is my mistake? Nothing is our mistake but the psychopath sitting there without any remorse is the one to blame.
From that day onwards I slowly distanced myself from Maria’s so-called world and her toxic friendship but like bad luck has made its home in my life, she started bullying me whenever she thinks.
Nothing stopped from there and that day. I never understood what I did wrong? I just wanted to make friends and she was my first friend. To this day I don’t understand what went wrong and when.
The last straw is the farewell of high school, from which my anxiety, panic attacks, and insecurities started.
Maria did something which a friend would have never done to a friend. She killed our friendship and a Scarlett who was once bubbly, lively and carefree. She made me this empty box full of insecurities and doubts.
Maybe I did something to make her upset, that’s why Maria did the thing she did. I thought so hard but I can get up empty. I was never mean to her, I always supported her in everything and cheered her up whenever she was down. I was a good friend to her but she just tossed everything aside and turned into the bully who beats people with whom I want to be friends.
Noah, Noah Hayes is the only good thing that happened in my life after the constant bullying of Maria and her threatening everyone to stay away from me. He was a transfer student and new to our town.
Noah approached me when I was sitting in the cafeteria by myself. At first, I thought he was one of the bullies but he took the seat in front of me and introduced himself as a transfer student and wants to be friends with me.
Me being an insecure self I just bolted from there without answering him anything. But after that day he continuously chased me till the day I gave in and accepted his friendship but still had my doubts that why a good looking 6 feet tall blonde Greek God wants to be my friend? But as always my crush on him made me vulnerable and to trust him.
Like always there will be bad days after good days and good days after bad days. My good days came to an end when I received the betrayal of my life, which haunts me for a long time and makes me much more insecure about my existence.