ELEANOR
“A penny for your thoughts, Eleanor?” When the small rounds of laughter that escaped my lips due to Jasmine’s tickling died down, I heaved a sigh as she took a seat next to me. “you seem lost in thoughts. What are you thinking about that got you so occupied? I want in, ” Jasmine asked with a mischievous smile, and I returned one of mine.
The truth was that I had been hatching a plan ever since Jasmine told me I needed to survive if I was going to see Clara again, but, the flogging and also getting fvcked till I could almost feel my lifeforce slowly slipping away was more than enough motivation to want to make sure I had it all right. I have decided to restrategize and go for a more easy way to attack without having to get myself killed in the process.
I think it is safe now to say being mouthy with him would only get me in trouble, and he also didn’t look kindly at my fearless front, which only angered him, if anything. So, if I was going to make him put his guard down, I was going to have to become exactly what he wanted. That way, he wouldn’t consider me a threat anymore or even see the need to tame or punish me continuously. I would only have to do that for a while, and then I’d find his weaknesses and use them against him. But even this plan doesn’t seem to be working out for me.
After the brief meeting in the hall today regarding the summit, I have been in what you could either call a brainstorming session or just fruitless staring at a distance, waiting for the ideas to come.
“Earth to Eleanor? Hey, what’s going on? Did you get yourself in trouble again?” She asked, and I shook my head, “then what?”
“I …. tried something else today. I stuttered when he spoke to me and shivered in fear when he touched me. I’m just lost and out of ideas at this point. I’m really struggling to find a breakthrough here,” I answered truthfully, Jasmine was the only one I could trust here and at the moment I had to let that out and maybe even motivate her to start trying again because, going by all our past conversations, it was obvious she wanted her freedom too, but had given up trying.
“Breakthrough?” She asked, her features twisting.
“I want out of here, Jasmine. I want to avenge my family, free my best friend and my pack members, the ones that survive this ordeal, and the hell hole we find ourselves in at least!” I answered slowly and watched as her eyes widened in panic.
“Are you insane!!? Are you trying to get yourself killed?” She asked, yelling in a whisper, and I nodded.
“I am fvcking insane. Being here and being treated lower than an omega all while getting violated almost every day against my will is driving me crazy. Having to call that bastard my master and having to bend to his whims is driving me insane. My plans have always been to avenge my parents and pack members, and I won’t stop until I dig a knife deep into his heart and carve it out,” I finished with a frustrated yell.
“And do you think you will survive it even after killing him? You will be killed immediately. You are not in the right state, both physically and emotionally! You’re weak, wolfless, and have no battle skills. Don’t you think he will see right through you? This is not as easy as it might look, Eleanor. This is serious!” Jasmine reasoned, and I scoffed as the weight of her words settled in.
She was right about everything but I didn’t care, I wasn’t going to remain here and continue this torture with no hope of ever leaving here and then slowly become fucked in the head like Sarah who thinks warming the alpha’s bed would be an honor.
That was a disgusting thing to say, and I wondered if all of them thought the same thing. If they have all been conditioned to forget what it means to be free and be with whoever they want to be with. They have all given up on freedom, but I won’t. Even if I do not make it out alive, I would be more than pleased if I dragged Zane to hell with me.
“Eleanor, people have died, just from harbouring thoughts of escaping. It might look easy to you because the security looks lean without the guards stationed everywhere, but before you manage to take a step out of the gates unauthorized, you just might be learning the hard way just how well hidden the pack guards are. They have no remorse and won’t bat an eye after separating your head from your body to bring home whilst they leave the rest for wild animals to feast on. Please listen to me, Eleanor. There is no freedom the moment you step into this place. Believe me, ” she begged, and I shut my eyes to rid them of the images her words were putting in my head.
“Then we need someone that is strong on our side, someone that could help defeat the guards and hold everyone back while I kill Zane,” I countered, and she barked out an unamused laugh.
“Is Zane really driving you insane to the point of loosing your sense of reasoning?”
“Huh!?”
“Where do you think you can find someone like that?” She asks, tiredly shaking her head.
“The alpha’s summit! Surely we can talk to one of the alphas there and seek their help, ” I answered.
“You are hilarious Eleanor, what alpha do you think would sacrifice their people to save some…slaves? Remember, Zane preys on the weak to grow his pack.”
“That’s enough reason to want to work together and destroy him from the inside! That would guarantee their freedoms too, and they wouldn’t have to keep living in fear of when his already overgrown ego would need another stroke that would come at the cost of their lives!” I argued, nodding at my own words. I wasn’t going to back down, and I will find a way out of here either she joins me or leaves me to work alone.
“Fine. Let’s say you might be able to find someone there, but how would that even be possible when we are not allowed to converse with guests? They have eyes on us, Eleanor. It’s of no use. Just forget about it. If there was a way out, do you think I wouldn’t have found it? Do you think I prefer to be stuck here for the past three years of my life? Do you think these girls….. the slaves we met here and the ones that have been here for much longer wouldn’t have tried it? This is our lives now. You just have to live with it,” Jasmine concluded.
“Give up on my revenge, and then what? Hope that Zane keeps finding favor in me and what will happen when he gets tired of me or when I make a mistake? I will be killed, and then it’s really over.”
“That is why you have me, Eleanor. That’s why I will do all I can to make sure I help you throughout our stay here. You don’t have to worry about getting punished.”
“You have settled for this kind of life, Jas, but I will not, I won’t be subject to them. I am an alpha by rank and Alpha-ranked wolves don’t subject or bow to anyone. We can’t be caged forever because we need our freedom. I’m finding a way out, and I won’t stop until I do.”