ELEANOR
It’s been three days since the incident with Zane and his pack. He had killed the gamma wolf for inflicting some cuts on me, but that did nothing to lessen my hate for him. It filled me with anxiety, if anything, the fact that he had been deriving pleasure from torturing me so far and is now treating me like this, whatever this was.
The sudden different treatment left me uneasy and scared. After getting me out of the torture room before the end of my punishment, he’d even taken me to the pack doctor to get treated, after which he handed me his food, which was definitely not meant for a slave. According to Jasmine, it was probably a plan to get me to put down my defenses so he could get rid of me once and for all when I finally make a mistake after getting too comfortable.
I had made sure Jasmine got a share of the food since we were obviously closer, and I’d taken a liking to her. Thanks to her, I’d adjusted fairly enough and her company was probably why I hadn’t gotten approached by the other slaves who intimidated the newer ones, which was when she voiced her thoughts, which didn’t seem so far fetched.
During those three days, he hadn’t sent for me, which I was grateful for, and he’d instructed the head of slaves to assign me some lighter duties. He didn’t seem like one to be guilty of having them beat me till I was almost unconscious, so I couldn’t even think this was his way of apologizing for that.
Although I was now resulted to nothing, I was still a human and I got blood flowing in my veins and I was glad he was able to see that but then again I didn’t give a shit about him, as long as I didn’t get to see his face, I was more than okay. If this was going to be the case forever, then I certainly wouldn’t mind.
I wished I could get beat up every day just to avoid having to lie in the same bed with him. I can remember the day clearly like it was yesterday. He had been so lost in his own pleasure that he didn’t even care if I was dying at that moment, not as long as his ugly desires were sated. I had lost count of the number of times he went before I passed out, only to wake up to him yelling for his guards to order them to take me out for a punishment.
I knew I had made a mistake by spending the night in his bed. It was against the rules, but maybe I wouldn’t have if he hadn’t fucked me close to an inch of my life. This was all his fault.
My fists balled in disgust as I remembered how my body reacted to his touch. I was supposed to be repulsed by even the thought of his hands on me, but my body and biology betrayed me. I hated that.
If only I could feel my wolf. If only. That would’ve been my surest chance at revenge. But ever since the attack on my pack and my family brutally killed, Alpine had gone into hiding. I couldn’t sense her, hear her, or even feel her heartbeat, it was like she never existed and it made me feel like a wolfless wolf, a human.
Jasmine had told me that it might’ve been as a result of the shock and she was guilty or angry at herself for not protecting me and my family, but I wasn’t angry with her, there was nothing she could have done. They came when our guards were down and used that as an advantage to defeat us.
Although I have told Alpine a thousand and one times, she still wouldn’t have a conversation with me. Over the days being spent here, I have adjusted better to living without a wolf, though it was difficult at first, but as time went on, I became accustomed to it. I became a wolfless werewolf or what some people would call, a disgusting werewolf, or rather a human.
“Are you okay?” Jasmine asked, bringing me out of my reverie, and I nodded. Sighing at the sudden memory of my dad’s final words to me.
Try to live, be happy, and don’t seek revenge, just be happy.
If only he knew it wouldn’t be possible. Someone needed to avenge them and I was the only one who could. I have sworn to be that person and I wouldn’t stop until I did. Only after that, would I get to live a peaceful life, with Clara beside me, of course.
“Hey, Eleanor!!” This time Jasmine banged her hands on the table and I was startled, wide-eyed, “What exactly is going on with you? I heard nothing was wrong with your memories but you keep spacing out and that is what worries me. Are you sure you are okay?” Jasmine asked and I hummed, forcing a breathy smile as I did.
“I’m okay, perfectly fine. Nothing is wrong with me, promise ” I assured, watching as she gave me a skeptical glance once over before nodding, and then we fell into a comfortable silence, which got broken when a slave suddenly runs in and sits with us, a broad smile on her face as she practically whispers.
“Hey! Hey hey, did you guys hear the news?” Sarah asks, staring wide-eyed at both of us and pouting in disapproval when Jasmine and I share a look before shaking our heads “Oh come on! Are you both being for real right now?”
“We don’t tag ourselves to gossip, I guess that’s why we are in the dark” Jasmine answered, which only made Sarah laugh loudly.
“Well, this isn’t exactly gossip, since the whole pack knows about it. It makes me wonder if you are both really existing here or just in your own worlds” Sarah giggles, shaking her head as she folded her hands across her chest.
“It sure does look like we are. So ….. are you gonna tell us what it is that you’re so excited about?” Jasmine asks unimpressed and Sarah clears her throat, looking between the both of us, clearly trying to build the anticipation she wasn’t getting.
“Alpha Zane was summoned to court by the elders because he seems to have broken the law! And for a slave at that. A law that he created and strongly upheld. Rumors have it that the slave must’ve been someone important to him.” Sarah whispered and I immediately choked on the water that I had been drinking. I coughed out, drawing the attention of Jasmine and Sarah who looked at me with raised brows.
“Is everything okay?” Jasmine asked as I dropped the cup, my fit dying down.
“What was that about? Do you happen to know anything about it?” Sarah asked in a low gasp and I immediately shook my head.
“What?! No, of course not. I have no idea” I lied, continuing when she didn’t look very convinced, “I have been sick, remember? I have been out for two days and only got back on my feet today” I answered, avoiding their eyes and opting to wipe my clothes with a napkin.
“Oh. Well, moving on! I haven’t even gotten to the juicy part yet. The gamma guard that was present there said he saw everything that happened. He said Alpha Zane was so angry because his precious slave had been wounded during punishment and he got the one responsible for it beheaded!” Sarah pauses as Jasmine and I audibly gasp, my hand going to my mouth.
“Are you both sure you know nothing about this? You’re taking this even worse than I did” Sarah asked, brows furrowed and we both shook our heads.
“D – did the guard h-happen to see the female slave?” Jasmine asked and Sarah shook her head, sighing as she did.
“No, he didn’t. The higher-ranked guards were closer and had been blocking his view, so he couldn’t get a closer look. And you know Alpha Zane might have gotten him killed too for leaving his position. That slave girl is so damn lucky. I wish that had been me,” Sarah says with another dreamy sigh and my jaw dropped before I scoffed, both in disbelief and disgust. Why would anyone wish this on themselves?
“Please. What exactly makes you think she’s lucky to be in that position?” I asked, my features twisted in disapproval, but she was unphased, getting up out of her seat with a smile.
“Maybe to you both she isn’t, but to us slaves, to me at least, she is special. Do you know how much of an honor it would be to get that close to Alpha Zane? I too want to warm his bed. I don’t care even if I am viewed as just an object, but I can’t do that because I don’t entice him, and then to have him kill one of his own for a slave? For me, I’d do anything to be that slave right now.” Sarah says, matter of factly, before leaning in closer to us.
“Trust me, there’s a lot of privileges that come with being screwed by the alpha. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I’m off to find out who that slave is. I need her to let me in on her secrets!” She giggles before skipping away cheerfully.
It took me a while to get my jaw off the floor, processing her words even after she was long gone. I let myself get dragged out of the kitchen by a frantic Jasmine and when we were in a closed area, she let go of my hand, worried eyes running all over my face.
“You have a shit load of explaining to do, Eleanor. What the fvck is going on between you and the Alpha!?” I let out a frustrated groan before answering.
“Nothing! Like I told you, he thinks of me as just a sex doll or something, that’s it!.” She scoffs, rolling her eyes.
“Just a sex doll?! One he would go as far as beheading one of his own guards for!? He killed a man for you, Eleanor,” Jasmine cried out, and I’d never felt more obliged to bang my head on a table till I passed out. Because I had no idea how to explain his reason for that too.
“Jasmine, I have no fvcking idea why he did that. That’s his business, not mine. He had fvcked me so ruthlessly that I passed out the night before! And the moment I woke up, I was being dragged out by his guards after he’d given them the orders to punish me because I’d spent the night on his sacred bed, but then he appeared in the torture room during said punishment and suddenly became furious at them for carrying out his orders! But I’m sure I already told you this much. I guess I’d been too out of it to hear the orders he’d given for the gamma. He’s fvcking insane, I have no idea what was going on inside his head when he did that!” I explained to an eagerly listening Jasmine.
“And that had him called to the courtroom by the elders. Do you know what that means?” Jasmine asked and I nodded.
“Trouble for him and victory for me” I answered and she chuckled unamused, shaking her head.
“It means trouble for you too, Eleanor! Zane has never broken one of his rules. And breaking it for you means you will probably be dealt with by him. Oh no. I wonder what punishment he will have in place for you, him not contacting you for so long means trouble too.” Jasmine said and I felt my heart drop, but I quickly recovered.
“What punishment would he give to me that would be worse than dying?” I asked and she smirked.
“Trust me darling, he will think of something worse,” she said, and for a moment, I was actually scared of the unknown, “just be careful Eleanor, and please don’t talk back. May the goddess be with you.”
I was about to say something in reply when we heard the head of slaves calling out for Jasmine through the mind link.
“I have to run along, I guess my master calls. Be careful love, okay” she said, waving, and I did too, watching her leave. I felt my heart squeeze when I was now left alone, but I also felt a bit glad.
I had a lot on my mind, so what if he is currently being grilled by his own council for breaking his own rules? That’s his ordeal, not mine. Even if he was to loose the position as the Alpha, that would only work in my favor. That way, it would be quicker and easier to drive the silver blade deep into his heart and get rid of him for good.
Whatever is going on with him, he brought it upon himself. I am going to become his worst nightmare and he should never have messed with me. The blood of all the innocent people he’s slain is no doubt working in my favor too. I’m actually glad he is gradually meeting his doom.
A smile slowly made its way to my face as I thought about him being stripped of his position, demoted to a lower rank, and having to live like others, with no authority over others and no one to care when I finally kill him, since he would be just as worthless as an omega.
I was so engrossed in my thoughts that I didn’t notice someone in front of me as I accidentally bumped into him.
“Ouch!!! That hurts… watch where you are goi-” I froze when I saw who was in front of me, I thought he was being reprimanded or even worse.
“You have been given freedom for so long that you now think you could glare at me like that? I will surely see to it that you’re punished for neglecting your duties” he says before taking a step closer.
Placing his right hand on my shoulder, he leaned forward, his lips close to my ear and I could feel his breath on my skin. That sent a shiver down my spine and not in the way I would’ve liked. I hated the fact that my body was betraying me once again, getting used to his touch and even wanting more of it was not what I wanted, but it seems my body didn’t learn yet that this wasn’t our will. Someday, I will train it to listen to me and only me.
A flick at my neck drew my attention back to him and he smiled, broad and menacing. Okay, that shiver was the one I expected. He was nothing short of evil.
“I hoped you enjoyed your freedom, that would be the last of it till the alpha summit.” And with that, he walked out of my sight. I knew he wasn’t bluffing, and I knew I was in deep shit, but I was determined to overcome whatever torment he had in store for me. I would scale through no matter what.
And soon, very soon, I will leave through his very pack gate with my friends and pack members to freedom.