Maybe he wasn’t the best person to go to for this, he was completely loyal to Four, I should have expected that he was going to throw a million questions at me and not let me away that easy. My eyes wandered past him as my brain worked quickly in order to from an appropriate and buyable excuse. Despite the twenty five minute walk over to Preston’s not once did my mind wander to the bullshit I was going to have to feed him, I was too busy feeding off my own anger and stubbornness.
Four’s at a meeting or something, he told me to come here and ask if you would be able to drop me off at my grandma’s that is off the pack territory, he didn’t have time to till really late, so he thought that if you were doing nothing else then you could bring me ? My voice rushed out as my statement came out more like a question only adding to how unconvincing it already sounded, however it was the only thing my brain could muster right now.
I held my breath as I watched Preston’s face, it scrunched up slightly in confusion and for a second I thought that my plan was now ruined and he had caught me out, I felt my stomach fall slightly as I tried to search his eyes for any clues, however they remained glazed over slightly for a few moments longer only dragging out the agonising anticipation that was building up inside me.
He’s shut everyone out threw mind link. Preston muttered and I let out a deep brief of relief, if Four hadn’t of shut everyone out then this whole thing just would have went south in two seconds.
I felt a small feeling of guilt beginning to grow in the pit of my stomach the more I filled Preston with lies, he was just an innocent victim in my plan that would no doubt end with him being in a serious amount of trouble.
It’s alright if you don’t have time- I began as an unsettling amount of guilt began to tear through me, taking over me and clouding my petty thoughts, my childishness shouldn’t put other people in danger. What was I even thinking in the first place ? Preston had been nothing but nice to me and protected me and now I was just willing for that to go to shit.
No, I have time, let me go grab my keys. How far away is the house ? Preston interrupted me as he turned on his heel and headed through a door, probably grabbing the keys to his car.
Bloody hell, there was no denying that I had a strong urge to piss Four off and go to my grandma’s, I felt like I was finally ready to face my friends back home. I wanted to do things on my terms, when I was ready and when I wanted to. I didn’t think it was fair of Four to have that sort of control over me. I know about his secret now, I’m aware that no matter how hard I wished I wasn’t attached to him for life that I was. I couldn’t run away, what would be the point ? He would never stop looking for me if I managed to get away and what quality of life would I have then ? Always looking over my shoulder ? Never getting too comfortable in an area out of fear that I would be found ? Pointless. But I had sort of come to terms with it in my head. I know I’m not going to get the college experience, the moving out on my own experience and dealing with life’s hurdles. I know all that now. Don’t get me wrong, I know Four is trying and I should be grateful for the freedom I have now but I can’t deny that there is something missing. The feeling of freedom of choosing what I want to do, when I want.
Emily ? Aren’t you coming ? Preston’s voice interrupted my thoughts as I realised I had been stood staring at the door he had disappeared into earlier only to find now that he was stood at the front door holding it open, his keys dangling from his hand.
Almost as if my mind was speaking rather than the guilt that was now eating me alive my head quickly moved up and down as I walked towards the front door where Preston had served me a small smile and all the reassurance I had given and feed myself before that I had to do this disappeared and my stomach was soon filled with guilt, dread and fear.
Jesus am I that bad of a driver ? Preston broke the silence that had riddled the car for the past fifteen minutes of driving as I looked at him my brows furrowed in confusion as he pointed at my knee that was bouncing up and down at a rapid pace.
Yeah, shitty I replied smiling over at him as he let out a breath of laughter as my insides fell apart and my smile instantly dropped. I was the worst person on the earth right now.
You know when the pack first heard that the Alpha had found his mate, I thought it would make him less harsh at pack training, that he would get off our asses for a while but it only made him work is harder. Even when he wasn’t at the pack trainings because you know it was hard when you didn’t know everything, he was in our heads. Pushing and pushing us. Obviously it pissed me off but it was so obvious what was happening. Since you came you changed him to be better. Preston spoke his eyes flickering to meet mine every couple of seconds as his words sunk into my chest.
His words didn’t comfort me which was no doubt his intention and purpose but only added to the guilt that had filled me. I opened my mouth to tell him that I wanted to go back, I wanted to pretend I never went and lied to Preston, I would just be patient and wait to the weekend to see my grandma.
Preston- I began my voice coming out slow as my brain fumbled over the words I was about to feed out to Preston however I was interrupted by the sound of the engine of the car turning off.
Here we are Preston sighed as I looked up and sure enough we were at the end of the driveway to my grandma’s house, the locked gate preventing Preston from driving up to the front door.
I’m sorry I let out as I pulled of my seat belt, yanking the door open. I couldn’t help myself, even if he didn’t realise the real intent around my apology right now he would no doubt soon no once he faces Four’s wrath.
For what ? He questioned his eyebrows furrowed in confusion, he was so innocent in the mess I had just purposely got him caught up in.
For bothering you I forced a small smile on my face as I had successfully hopped out of Preston’s car and was no leaning on the window to see his face.
What are friends for ? He threw one last smile as I backed away from the car and the last remaining piece of decency I had left in me shredded, I had just fed my friend to the dogs.
I took a deep breath as I turned on my heels, coming here didn’t even seem worth it anymore. I was a shit person for throwing Preston under the bus like that, feeding him lies which would no doubt end up with him hurt and with what advantage ? No doubt I would only be here for what ? A mere half an hour before Four realised and I would be back there anyway. This was my fault, no one to blame but myself.
I forced my legs to movie and walk towards the gate, I made my way over to the small plant holder my hand fishing in blindly in search for the spare key I knew was kept in here. Darkness had fully swept over and the light and protection from Prestons car was now gone. My hands soon clasped around the cold metal as I made my way over to the lock on the gate, my hand dragging across it acting like a map as I fumbled around pathetically failing at getting the key to even line up with the lock.
Having a bit of trouble ? A deep voice felt like a roar in the silence as it sent shivers down my spine, the hot breath bouncing of my neck as I felt my hands go numb and the key fell to the ground. I felt a hand being forced over my mouth as their body heat transcended over to me.
My heart fell out of my chest as I flailed around in the persons strong grip until my eyes finally caught sight of whose arms where around me.
I closed my eyes almost in relief mixed with shock as I pried his hand from my mouth as I turned my body to face the familiar face which I never thought I would get too see again.
Dylan I breathed out squinting my eyes, even in the darkness I could determine his distinctive features. I don’t know if I should be overjoyed that he was the one that found me or scared. Was he still the same Dylan ?