This is pregnancy, he added, signaling to the baby curled fetal position inside the woman’s stomach, this is a possible outcome of having sex, which is where you and your partner create a life, making you parents to the child. It typically can only happen if you are fertile, otherwise your chances are very low.
I stared at the image, reaching down and placing my hand over my stomach with a burning, yet sharp, pain in my throat. It felt like my heart was ripped right off it’s strings.
I wanted a child of my own someday.
I’m sorry, Luna, he frowned upon seeing my reaction, sliding over and putting the image back in the drawer, then coming over and placing his hand on my knee, if his blood couldn’t change it, I’m afraid there is nothing I can do.
I guess it’s for the best. I’d just be an unfit mother, too.
Is this what you were talking to Axel about a few days ago ? I frowned, looking down at my hands and clenching my jaw in frustration as I furrowed my eyebrows, he needs someone who can have children… doesn’t he ?
He was quiet for a second, releasing a small sigh, it’s not necessary, but it’s certainly advised. As Alpha, it’s very important that he has at least one biological child for the sake of the pack if none of its future members qualify to take over after he steps down. It’s a fall through plan we haven’t had to use yet, but we like to be prepared because having an Alpha is required.
I have a question, I felt water fill my eyes, my voice wobbling.
I’ll answer to the best of my ability, he replied, retracting his hand from my knee and I looked back up at him, rapidly blinking back the building tears that made his features morph into concern.
How do you reject a mate ? I whimpered, wiping at my eyes to get rid of the tears at the mere thought of losing him.
He deserves better.
He deserves someone who can satisfy his needs, too.
I’m not her, and I can’t be selfish. I’m unfit for him in many ways…
What are you saying ? He asked cautiously, his eyes scanning my face for any signs of humor, but I continued to frown and he visibly began panicking.
If it’s what I said that day, I sincerely apologize. I didn’t mean to upset you in any way. You’re his mate and I was being inconsid-
I can’t provide for him like he does for me ! I snapped uncontrollably, heat flushing my face and I lowered my head in shame right after, he needs someone who’s nothing like me… and I think he’s starting to see that, I mumbled sadly, I have to reject him.
He looked flushed, I can’t help you do that, I’m very sorry.
I got off the bed and walked over to the door, turning to Doctor Wayne with a deep frown, I understand. I know who can, I responded, watching him whip around to look at me with wide eyes.
You cannot go there ! I will have no choice but to tell Alpha Axel if you try, it’s unsafe and I can’t condone such ridiculous behavior, he breathed in disbelief.
Fine… then I won’t, I muttered, hearing him sigh in relief as I left the room.
I’ve never lied before.
?
I looked around at the many people around the front of the house, smiling sadly at the children playing, parents laughing, and the creepy men walking around wearing only shorts with multiple body scars and neutral expressions.
I averted my gaze to the building sitting alone a decent distance away and frowned knowing I shouldn’t, but my feet already began dragging me that direction before I could put anymore thought into it.
I ran without looking back, stopping to hide behind a few thick trees, and when I heard nobody chasing me, I continued to close the distance between me and the building. That was until I heard a familiar voice, making me stop behind the closest tree and peek behind me.
S-She went back ! Doctor Wayne stammered loudly and my eyes trailed down to the hand around his neck, up the muscular arm, and onto the man I was hoping to avoid-Axel.
You’re testing my patience, Wayne, he glared, shoving him into the concrete building and I flinched at the sound, I’ll ask one more time before this goes a horrible direction, where is my girl ?
She is in the house ! She just left ! He wailed, his body trembling, and I turned to proceed with my journey.
I quickened my pace, reaching the door and struggling to pull the heavy steel open. I successfully managed a moment later, pulling it closed behind me and latching it locked with an exhale of relief.
A deep, slow, spine-chilling chuckle bounced off the silent walls at my entry and made me freeze, the hairs on my arms sticking straight up as goosebumps covered my body.
I get a visitor, his voice mused the way Jade’s would whenever she was too drunk to function and I shivered.
Shaking away my fear, I walked deeper into the cold, eerie room while my eyes scanned the empty cells containing blood splatters and a terrible stench. I then looked ahead and spotted a cell at the end of the hallway facing the entrance.
I walked up to it but kept my distance, only seeing Calix’s sheet covered body sitting in the corner whenever the light in his cell turned on. It kept flickering off and on and it did little to help my anxiousness.
Why’re you here, princess ? I know my brother wouldn’t let you come, he grinned darkly and I took a step back, squeezing my shirt.
How do you reject a mate ? I swallowed harshly, keeping down my tears by taking a deep breath.
He chuckled, sucking his teeth and rolling the tip of his tongue over his lips as he scanned me up and down, oh… that’d be stupid of you to do, you know, with Jade Curran after you and all… he trailed off, smirking sinisterly.
How do you know she’s after me ? I bit my cheeks, wrapping my arms around myself and squeezing my sides instead.
How do you think she found you in the first place ? He asked, his smirk never wavering, she threatened torture, so I told her where this pack was and to look here. I was hoping for her to burn this place to the ground. I didn’t know who the hell you were nor did I care, luck just happened to be on my side when she found you.
Why are you so full of hate ? Whatever happened to you here was your fault, why are you so angry at everyone else when you brought it on yourself ? I balled my fists and pressed them into my ribs, feeling a heat wave of anger flush through me.
Yeah, it was my fault and I’ll admit it, because I’d rather be alone with nobody to care about me than be around people who don’t care about me. At least then I won’t be constantly reminded, he snapped, narrowing his eyes at me through the bars.
What ? I faltered, sorrow filling me the more I let his words sink in.
Axel was always the favorite, and Gabbie being the only daughter automatically made her favorited also. I was always placed on the back burner, he growled, clenching his jaw and looking down at the sheet covering his lap.
But… what about your soulmate ? I asked quietly, taking a seat right outside the cell door and he watched my movements intently. His eyes were nearly glowing under the flickering light and he looked horrifying, except I didn’t feel afraid.
She rejected me because of my scars, he answered with a scoff and my heart clenched in sadness, she couldn’t even look at me.
I was speechless and he looked pained as if he was reliving the memory, causing my throat to swell while I stared at him, screw a mate, I stated firmly.
Surprise struck his face and he lifted his gaze onto me, his eyebrows shooting up and I shook my head, you deserve someone who will accept all your flaws, and if a soulmate isn’t capable of doing so then screw them, there are others out there who will, like Carly.
He grimaced at the name and I couldn’t help but smile, holding down a small laugh and fiddling with one of the bars on the door, okay, you don’t like Carly, I noted, pursing my lips in thought, I don’t know anybody else, I realized, lifting my line of sight onto him only to see he was staring at me with an indecipherable expression.
Tell him you reject him, he said randomly. I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion and he went on, you reject a mate by telling them to their face that you reject them. It’s that simple, and since you’re human, you don’t need his acceptance-the bond will sever once the words leave your mouth.
Actually, I changed my mind… I can’t do it. You made me realize something, I released a small breath, frowning at him, I have flaws and he accepts them, not everyone will.