I have become a customer of the hospital. It seemed normal to me that when I opened my eyes; I was in the hospital. It’s like luck if when I wake up I won’t see a hospital room. I tried to move my body but I couldn’t move it. When I suddenly remembered what happened, it was as if my body had a switch and I suddenly woke up. I saw everyone worried, looking at me. Ava, Turstin, Randall, and Alex.
When I saw Alex, I wanted to hug him, but my heart seemed to say I didn’t want to. I would have talked to him when I remembered my baby. When I touched my stomach, they looked at me at the same time. Ava, whom I don’t know when I got home, averted her eyes from me.
“How is my child doing?” I stared at them one by one, unsure who to approach first. All I want to know is how my baby is doing! I’d like to know if he’s all right! When no one responded, my hands trembled. When the doctor walked in, I was going to get up.
I sank my foot to the floor and grabbed him by the collar of his uniform. I already know the answer based on their appearance, but I’m curious. Just in case something awful happens to my baby, I can’t forgive them! They enrage me! My heart is racing. While Randall couldn’t stand me, Ava pulled me away from the doctor. I don’t give a damn about him any longer. They will never see me get engaged with the two of them, no matter what Charlotte does.
“First, I want you to take a deep breath because what I’m going to tell you will be even worse-”
“Bullshit! Tell me what! How is my child!” I was no longer deterred. I want to know if there is still a kid in my stomach. I know the doctor is just putting up with me. He sighed, then spoke.
“I’m sorry to say this, but the child couldn’t handle the height of your fall. The first to hit is your stomach so he can’t survive. The baby is gone.”
It was as if what he said was repeated in my ear. I feel like I’m just stunned while playing with his words in my ear. It was as if I had lost myself. I do not know what to do. When the words sank in on me finally, I cried out. I let out all my anger at that scream and I knew they were deaf to what I did, so maybe even the other room could hear me.
“AHHHHHHHHHHG!” I threw everything I could find on the hospital bedside table. Ava wanted to stop me but she walked away because she knew I could hit her but nothing could stop my anger. No one tried to stop me.
My memory returned, but I had lost my baby.
Randall approached me when I had stopped weeping. He was going to touch me when I smacked his hand away, preventing him from touching me. I gave him a stern stare before speaking. On him, my stare was strong and dark. “I don’t know you. Who are you?”
Everyone in the room was surprised by what I said. He averted his gaze from me, then answered my question. “I am your husband-” he didn’t finish what he was going to say because I cut it off immediately. I could feel nothing but the coldness of my heart. It was as if I had lost my life when I lost my baby.
“Yes, in the paper. But do we know each other?” My question is too shady, so I feel it is hard for him to answer. I no longer wandered around and said what I wanted to say. “My baby is gone, so I have no reason to live in your house.” Yes. His house. It wasn’t mine. He bought it. If that is what his mother is upset about, Charlotte and he are free to live there.
“Winter, let me explain.” He is now looking straight at me. His eyes looked tired. If only when he stared at me like that back then I would melt. Just one look with those eyes makes me soften, but now? I feel like I don’t care what he feels.
“I will get my things. I’ll ask our maids. I won’t go straight to your house. I’m going home to my parents’ mansion. Don’t worry, I won’t revoke our company’s business partnership. I will also talk to the lawyer for the divorce paper. ”
That’s when he turned to me. His eyes were full of shock. “W-what … are you saying?”
For the first time, I saw miserable Randall. The not scary Randall. I don’t know what your fear is for, but just save that for the next person who will come for you. I don’t think this eternity is ours. People came out one by one, so we were the only two left. It was there that he had the strength to speak again.
“No. Give me time, my angel.” Maybe if he had called me by that name before, I would have been so happy. Maybe my heart is beating right now. The only case is different now. We’re getting too unhappy and that’s okay. I wasted too much time waiting for the time he demanded.
I faced him, gave him my most genuine smile. It is a smile of gratitude, love, and care. I enjoyed the times he was with me. “If you give me a chance to go back on our first day at your house, I will, but this time is not for us. I gave you too much time. I forget to love myself. I lost my baby because of you – because of you and Charlotte.” I did not show resentment in my words. Then I gave him the last smile he would receive from me.
“I’m glad to meet you. I will still pray for your happiness. We need to end the relationship that doesn’t exist. ”
“Leave now because I don’t want to see your face anymore.”