Alpha Jax walked to his chambers, clicking his door shut. He was beyond annoyed to meet his mate in such a despicable state. The moon-goddess was surely punishing him for something. Though, for the life of him, he didn’t know what that something was.
Damn it! He couldn’t be able to love her, and he wouldn’t even try to. With what went down in his past, it would be completely foolhardy to love again. No woman would ever turn him into a fool again, mate or no mate. They were all the same, manipulative bitches!
The black bottle which held a green liquid with a safe dose of wolfsbane stared at him from its spot on the antique shelf. Yes, he would take this religiously. It has been helping him, and would continue to do so. None of his feelings will move beyond the sexual aspect.
He moved towards the substance, grabbing it fiercely as he took two sips of it. This would do for now, there will be no stupid mate bonds cropping up from nowhere. He would have her where she ought to be, under him, panting and begging to be dominated.
He stared at the green liquid, his blood going numb, which was code for the wolfsbane was doing its duties. That was perfect! There was only one problem, and that was the fire in her eyes. Most slaves became very submissive immediately they set eyes on him. But, this Ava! She was in trouble.
He swirled the bottle around, watching. The liquid rolled through its seams in barely contained anger. The herb wasn’t doing its work yet. He was still thinking about that girl. He drank another healthy sip of the drink in hope that it would speed up the process.
His heart contrasted almost immediately. He rubbed it through to the chest to ease some of the pain. This was all Ava’s fault. If she hadn’t come into his life as a mate, things wouldn’t be like this! He wouldn’t force himself to take more than the needed dosage. She was the cause of all these!
“I have a million things I need to do, but here I am, thinking about this girl! This disobedient, loud girl with a sinful innocent face!” He shouted angrily.
A knock sounded on the door. There was only one person who would dare to meet him in his room. That was his sister, Lily. He didn’t want to see her perfect face right now, but if he didn’t answer her, she would pull down his doors using her paws.
He dropped the bottle down, and pulled open his door. His sister waltzed past him, her face a mask of rage. What now?
“Why are you here?” He asked easily, shutting the door closed.
She turned to face him, removing the protective mask from her face. “You know why I’m here,” She shot back.
He crossed his hands in his middle. “I don’t have time for games. Spit it out!” He snapped.
She glared at him. She was older than he was, and had Alpha blood also, but his people hadn’t agreed for her to rule. She’d learn to step in line when he took over. But, times like this made him have doubts.
“Fine! Why are you bringing in more sex slaves? What the fuck is wrong with you, Jax?” She snapped angrily. “I can’t understand a pack that used to be so healthy turned so gross. Why are you doing this?”
He moved closer to her, his breath so close to her face. She blinked her curled lashes at him, not to show submission, but the exact opposite. It annoyed him immensely, her lack of respect.
“I don’t answer to you, Lily,” He said quietly.
She placed a hand on her heart. “For the first time, I wish you did. You’re going to destroy it all, if this keeps up. Did you even do a background check on her or your libido did the talking for you?”
He pulled his face into full grown. She just insulted his intelligence like it was nothing. It annoyed him endlessly, but hitting your eldest, Alpha or not, was part of their training.
“Don’t talk to me like that, Lily!” He warned in a low voice.
She rolled her eyes as she stepped away from him, looking at his perfectly made room. “Save that for your slaves, and the omegas, not me! You don’t scare me brother. I honestly hope your sex craze doesn’t make you lose your mate when you find her,” She mumbled to herself.
Alpha Jax laughed with humor, making Lily turn her head towards him in confusion. Her face only made him laugh more. It was a type of cynical laugh, and someone below belt would be shrinking by now.
“What’s so funny?” Lily asked, a bit irritated now.
He pointed towards her. ” You!” And his laughter simmered down like he hadn’t been laughing moments ago. “Do you really think I give a fuck about some mate? No, Lily! How many times do I have to tell you I don’t believe in all that!” He said coldly.
“Jax,” She said softly, touching his hands. “Don’t do this to yourself. Just because…”
“Don’t! Don’t say it!” He grounded out.
She nodded in understanding. “I won’t. I just want you to be okay. I want you to get your life back and stop all these sex slaves bullshit. I don’t want it for you, please.”
His composure broke a bit, but melded itself almost immediately. “It’s too late. I would never change who I am.” He moved away, towards the small bar at the foot off the wall. He grabbed a sonic, and poured it in a tumbler, putting two ice in. “Dress up, I’m parading my new toy today.”
Lily looked at him through her nose, but said nothing. She let herself out the door. The moment the door clicked lock, Alpha Jax smashed the tumbler on the floor. He screamed into the empty room, hating himself and Lily. Her smart words had torn his heart open.