Chapter 36: Desperate for Death

Book:Love Like Arsenic Published:2024-5-1

Watching a bunch of people in black suits getting out of the car and dashing toward me, I was intimidated and began to run in an instant.
However, as I had completely worn out, I felt dizzy and fell to the ground after a few steps.
Before I closed my eyes, I felt chilly deep inside
I was so desperate at the thought that I ended up being caught by Zhao Dong after I had made countless attempts at escaping.
After I fainted, I was seized by a nightmare.
I saw a bleeding baby crying and calling me ‘Mom’, which broke my heart and reduced me to tears.
I was reluctant to face the fact that I had lost my baby, so I ran away as fast as possible. However, the baby’s cry lingered in my ear, which almost drove me mad.
In the suffocating dream, I suddenly heard someone comforting me from far away.
His low, charming voice sounded kind of familiar, which immediately brought me back to my senses.
In the semi-conscious state, I sensed a cool, big hand touching my face gently and I woke up with a start.
As soon as I opened my eyes, I saw a pair of familiar, thoughtful eyes, which weren’t that cold but were still as indifferent as usual.
Meanwhile, I happened to see him drawing back his hand which was wiping my tears.
Quan Shaoze!?
When I recognized him, I immediately sat up in shock. As I got up too fast, in addition to the pain from the bruises, I suddenly felt a splitting headache.
As I was still wondering whether it was my illusion to have seen him wiping tears for me, Quan Shaoze rose to his feet with his hands in his pockets when he saw me wake up.
“Useless! You were crying even in your dream.” He looked down at me by my side, his eyes full of sarcasm.
I immediately came back to my senses at his words with a sudden surge of hatred which almost overcame me.
It was this man who had turned my life upside down!
Now I had lost both my baby and my family, but he was still mocking me mercilessly!
“Leave me alone! Get out!” It was the first time for me to yell at him without fear. In his indifferent, dark eyes, I saw my own discomfited appearance with bloodshot eyes.
My words successfully irritated him. He pinched my chin and began to threaten me with my brother again.
“Go ahead! Anyway, I don’t want to live. I’ll just make atonement for my brother with my death!” After a short pause, I roared hysterically out of grievance and anger.
With tears in my eyes, I got out of bed and rushed to the windowsill.
Having struggled for so long, I still ended up like this.
At the sight of this man again, I realized that I was no match for him. However, though I had nothing left, I could choose to end my own life and bring closure to this farce.
If it was possible, I wished that God would allow me to see my baby and say sorry to him in person after my death.
At the thought of my dead child, I stopped hesitating and took a step forward fearlessly.
At this very moment, powerful hands grabbed me by the waist and lifted me from the windowsill easily.
“Let go of me!” Failing to jump off, I kept on punching Quan Shaoze randomly with tears streaming down my face.
When he saw me struggling desperately, Quan Shaoze wrapped his arms around my waist tightly and stared at me coldly.
“You attempted suicide just because you were bullied? Lin Feng, I never expected you would be such a coward!” he said in an indifferent tone while pinching my chin with another hand to force me to meet his gaze.
His words added fuel to the fire.
For a moment, all I wanted was to end my life as soon as possible.
However, no matter how hard I struggled, I couldn’t break free from his grip. I grabbed him by the collar and roared with grief and anger, “I’ve lost my baby, and my brother has only a few more months to live. What’s the point in going on living?!”