I thought Enrique will hurt me. I admit that I was also nervous because he might actually put his hand on me. What do I have against him if he uses his strength on me? But he left me as if nothing happened and left me alone here in his office. Though I saw in his face how angry he is he still couldn’t put his hand on me.
Is he mad at me? Why? Because he cannot go away from me now that we have a child? That no matter what he does, we are connected. As if I will force myself on him and use my son to make him stand up for me.
I hid it from him so that he would lose responsibility and now he will be angry because I didn’t tell him. He will make it. Even if he files an annulment and evicts me from here, I’m not afraid. I’ll fight him. But I will not leave my daughter.
I took my phone and called Celestine. I need someone to talk to who will listen to me. I need someone right now and she’s the only one I know. It’s not like that gay who has been raped by ten million men and never made it home and I hope he never makes it home.
I don’t know how long my brother will hide him. There is no reason to hide him anymore, especially now that Enrique knows the truth. I’m going to tell my brother the truth so he can send that gay man home. So that she doesn’t have to live as a wandering queen.
After a few rings, Celestine answered my call. I told her everything that happened and also Enrique’s discovery that Ixora is his daughter. She listens to all my rants, no matter what I’ve said.
“So, what’s your decision now?” she asked me.
“I don’t know. I want to leave. But I can’t ignore what he said that I can’t take my son with me. I don’t want my family to be affected by this.”
“They are already there. They are your family, remember?”
“I don’t know what to do then.”
“See, Daze. I am your best friend through thick and thin. I always got your back. But it doesn’t mean that I will tolerate you. What you did is…. is something—–immature. Hiding your daughter with her father. Even if I do that to Cluster, no matter who you do that too, they will be really angry.”
“Are you saying that I am immature?”
“What I am saying is—–”
“I thought we were best friends.”
“Of course we are. Listen, Daze. What I’m saying is you’re out of line. I hope that even if you hate Enrique, you still tell him that he has a child with you. He has the right to know because it’s his. Now if he doesn’t want to accept ok, don’t, at least he found out and you told him. It’s your point, unlike now that he still finds a hole in you.”
“I will tell him that I exploited him when he was drunk? I will tell him that I am crazy about him. Is that what you want? I will lower myself to him and beg him to marry me and be responsible because he got me pregnant.”
“That’s not what I meant. What I mean is—–”
“Liar, you are all the same. You underestimate and judge me too much. For the record Celestine. Don’t make me look like you who just needs to kneel down to my husband to get him back because I’m not afraid of losing a man unlike you.”
“Daze, are you ok?”
“What?”
“I think you are not ok. Did you try to see a psychiatrist?”
“Are you saying that I am crazy?”
“No, I mean maybe you’re experiencing post—–”
“I am not crazy.”
I ended the call without letting her finish. I dropped the phone here in Enrique’s office and I don’t care if I break it. I can change it even a hundred more.
I feel bad for Celestine. I thought we were friends. I thought we were best friends. After I accept her and forgive her for what she did to betray me, she will say that I was wrong for what I did. Then he will say I’m crazy?
I sat down because of my last thought.
Am I not normal? Did she notice something different about me? What if she tells that to my family? What if she tells my brother or Cluster and Cluster tells my brother?
Damn! What if they send me to the doctor and find out that something is messing with my mind? And they will say that I am crazy? Then they will confine me. I will be separated from my daughter and Enrique will have more rights to her. I might never get my daughter back.
No, it can’t be. I won’t allow it to happen. I shouldn’t let them know. I shouldn’t act like this. No one needs to notice that I’m going through something. They must not notice me.
Right! I should act like the old Daze. I need to show them that I’m still me. I should go hang out and have fun. Enrique is there for her daughter so let him take care of it. I will go out as usual. I will enjoy it to get it out of my mind so they don’t notice that I’m going through something.
I left his office and then entered Ixora and I’s room. I met Enrique there carrying Ixora. I wanted to take her from her father but I chose to stick to what I wanted to do. I took a dress and then got dressed.
When I came out of the walk-in closet, I saw Enrique frowning. I sat at the vanity mirror and put on make-up. I saw in the reflection of the mirror that he put Ixora down so I stood up before he came to me.
“Where the hell are you going?”
“Having fun, going to a party.” I took my bag and heels.
“What? Are you out of your mind? Your daughter just got out of the hospital and you’re going to have a party?” Should I explain my side to him? No, he won’t understand me either. Just recently we almost killed each other.
“Oh, you’re the dad, aren’t you? She is your daughter? Then spend your time with your daughter.”
“Are you really that stubborn? Going outside and having fun than staying with your daughter? We just had an argument and now you’re going to leave?”
“I stayed with her 24/7. Now it’s your time since you already know the truth.”
“When you leave, don’t come back. Bring all your things with you.”
“When I don’t come back, I will take my daughter with me. Maybe you forget, she’s an infant so I have all the right with her because I’m the mother. Don’t try me either because I’m not stupid even though I’m IMMATURE.”
“You’re not leaving.”
“I’m leaving and you can’t stop me. I’ll have fun, drink, dance, be with a man and you can’t do anything.”
“I said you can’t leave.” He grabbed my hand but I pushed him away.
“I’M LEAVING!”I left the room but he still followed me out. The assistants looked at us because we were arguing. But Enrique did nothing when I got into my car. He also couldn’t use force on me so he couldn’t pull me out of the car until I closed it.
“Dandelion!” I didn’t pay attention to him that the glass was constantly banging. I drove the car away from the mansion.