Luo Chejue was unrestrained and merciless when forcing himself on her in the state of sobriety. This time, he had made it difficult for Xia Weiwei to even get out of bed. Even when she cried out in pain or begged to stop, he would ignore it.
Luo Chejue left home early and returned late, or sometimes didn’t even come back through the night. But every time he came back, he would definitely force himself on her, even if she had already fallen asleep.
Xia Weiwei laughed at herself. Maybe it was his new way of torturing her. Wasn’t a disregarded wife a legal prostitute?
After swallowing several tablets to suppress her mood swings, she took out the contraceptive she had prepared earlier. She was going to take it, but at the thought of the will, she eventually put it down.
The will had made it very clear that for the Luo’s to get the shares of the Bai’s: she must have a baby. Although with all the means of Luo Chejue, he could still get them even without a child, but it would not be so smooth.
She couldn’t foresee what else Luo Chejue would do. But at least he wouldn’t reject the weakness she showed, for it was the best way to get the shares smoothly. As for another child, it wouldn’t change anything. Wasn’t the dead child the best example?
Didn’t Xia Mo want to be Mrs. Luo? She couldn’t succeed unless they were divorced and Xia Weiwei had a child! Didn’t Luo Chejue want the shares? He wouldn’t succeed if he couldn’t give her a child, either! This was her only condition.
Luo Chejue must have thought that she had gone mad about having a child, and been madly in love with him.
But she would never have a child again, and without a child, she would hold onto the position of Mrs. Luo until her next life!
“Miss Xia, have you really made up your mind?” The doctor asked again. After all, childbearing was crucial to all women, and she really couldn’t understand why a woman would make such a decisive choice to have a sterilization operation. This was not a ligation!
Xia Weiwei was lying on the operating table with a calm expression, which made the answer evident.
The doctor sighed: “I’m afraid you’re unable to stand the operation because of your health condition. Where are your family members? I suggest you think about it again. If you don’t want to get pregnant, you could use contraception.”
Xia Weiwei closed her eyes. Contraception? It could only avoid the risks, but what she wanted was to totally cut off all possibilities, even if she would lose the ability of becoming a mother ever again!
The anesthetic was taking effect, and she began losing consciousness. A drop of tear slid down from the corner of her eyes, and the warmth of her abdomen was replaced by the cold feeling of piercing.
Was it worth it? She asked herself. She was really terrified of love now. Her dead baby, the ridiculous marriage, and her true love being used…she was exhausted. She dared not and would not ever love again.
It was so painful! The operation hadn’t even started, so why did it hurt so much? It was like a piece of flesh being torn from her heart, like muscles being torn from bones.
Xia Weiwei, who was supposed to have lost consciousness, had tears falling out from the corner of her eyes like pearls, wetting the operating table.
After the operation, Xia weiwei, with a pale face, didn’t follow the doctor’s instruction to get her medicine. Instead, she went to the psychiatry department as usual.
“Mrs. Luo is a bit late today.” Lin Yu, Xia Weiwei’s doctor in charge, prescribed the medicine for adjusting her mood.
“Family issues.” No one would find out that Xia Weiwei had had the sterilizing operation on the day of her routine examination.
Lin Yu nodded and didn’t ask further questions. No one would relate this haggard lady with the eldest daughter of the Xias, who used to be envied by everyone? The rich and powerful families always had a lot of things going on.
“How have you been feeling recently? Has there been any sign of an attack? ”
“Occasionally, so I’ve come to fetch the meds.” She wasn’t telling the truth. Since the loss of the child, she had been having it most of the nights. Recently, in order to cope with Luo Chejue, she had to take a lot of medicine to relieve it.
Xia Weiwei knew that her nerves were getting increasingly fragile, but she couldn’t lose her mind!
Standing at the gate of the hospital and looking up at the gloomy sky, she exhaled a mouthful of gloom.
No family, lovers or children. In addition to hatred, what was left in her world was only loneliness.
But she would get back her dignity and pride bit by bit!