Everett’s pov
Work had gotten really hectic and exhausting that I always returned home tired and spent. I didn’t really have the time to perform my duties as the Alpha when Rachelle and Violet got kidnapped, it was all suspended while we planned how to attack and save them until we had them back and now the work was gobbling up my energy along with my time.
Rachelle and I didn’t see much of each other anymore these days due to how busy I had gotten with work and duties to fulfill. In the morning she would still be asleep before I go to work so I wouldn’t be able to wake her up and when I returned at night from work, she was asleep already, tired from the day’s training with Theodore as Violet told me when I asked. These continued for days and I was beginning to think she was ignoring me.
I once stayed late before going work, hoping she would be awake before I left but she was still asleep so I gave up on waiting and went ahead to complete the work I left overnight at the office. I was a mess, Rachelle seemed to be pissed off at me, work was taking a toll on me and I was gradually burning out day by day.
So I thought of another way to get to speak to her, hoping it would work. I gave her calls several times, I tried video calls too but she ignored them all and when I sent a message asking why, she replied abruptly and coldly that she was unavailable due to her demanding training with Theodore. I felt that wasn’t the reason why she was acting that way but I couldn’t come up with anything else that could be the cause so I decided to ask her but she kept putting me off and ignoring me, it began to feel like she was intentionally falling asleep before I returned from work so she wouldn’t speak to me. We once had beautiful moments, that would make the hardest of hearts feel something but now she was so close but yet so far and so cold.
I missed that Rachelle she was and how she shrieked with delight and ran into my arms whenever I returned from work. Now I didn’t recognize her anymore, she was cold and distant and didn’t even give me a clue on what exactly I did and how to make amends.
It was a Saturday so I went for my weekend jogging and came back shortly after because I couldn’t concentrate due to what had been happening between me and Rachelle for the past one week. I didn’t want it to go on any longer than this. I decided to do something about it really soon and it had to be today. I went to my room and quickly dressed up for work since I was getting a bit late. It was another busy day at work for me, signing the pile of papers that needed to be approved and giving instructions to workers on what to do.
I quickly rushed through the work and papers and found my way back home. They were making dinner when I arrived, Rachelle was in the kitchen with Violet and Theodore so I quietly walked to the door and watched in silence as she laughed and talked to Theodore. She looked really ravishing and beautiful that I missed when she was that way with me. She was so engrossed in the discussion, she didn’t notice me when I waved at Theodore from behind her and quietly snuck up on her then hugged her from behind before nuzzling my face in her neck.
“Did you miss me love?” I asked her while smiling but she didn’t reply, she pulled my hands of her and scowled at me before walking away.
I would have laughed at how cute she was but with things going how they did during the week and what she just did made me finally decide that I probably did something bad to her or she just fell out of her feelings with me.
“Whatever you did Everett, sorry won’t fix it” Violet said from where she stood stirring the sauce on the stove “that isn’t helping” I replied and she laughed “I wasn’t planning to” she said and frowned at me “what you did Everett wasn’t what a gentleman would do, you literally left her in bed without a good morning or note after that day. You made her feel like a whore dude!” She yelled at me and my heart fell.
That was what I did? I didn’t know I was meant to leave a note or something for her when I woke up in the morning. I was only in a hurry to get to work. It didn’t even cross my mind that I was meant to do that for her. I thought of it all from her view and realized I was wrong. It was definitely going to make her feel like a whore, just sleeping with her and waking up to leave the next morning without even a good morning kiss was going to make her feel like it was a one night stand I had with her. It was a really beautiful experience with her and I couldn’t afford to let her have the wrong thoughts about me and my intentions with her so I was going to fix this as soon as possible.
I realized I was still standing in the kitchen speechless and not moving and they were both staring at me, both Violet and Theodore, “well aren’t you going to meet her and apologize or try to fix the whole situation and misunderstanding?” Violet questioned “on it” I replied and made to leave the kitchen “it’s about time bro” Theodore quipped and I rolled my eyes before leaving. They were obviously all team Rachelle… against me this time. “Well good fucking luck Everett” I muttered to myself as I made my way up the stairs to my room to have a quick shower. Once I was done, I rushed to Rachelle’s room and knocked, scared she’ll get extra mad at me if I entered without knocking.
“Come in” she said gently and I smiled at her voice before opening the door and stepping in. She sat on her bed folding some clothes. “Hey” I said going towards her “why’re you here?” She asked without even looking at me “I know what I did” I replied hoping to get through this quickly and she scoffed “you know what you did… really Everett?” She questioned with a smile that didn’t reach her eyes and at that moment, she seemed really scary so I wanted to be really careful of the words I chose to use. “I know I messed up, I shouldn’t have left you that way in the morning after we had made love that night” I said and sat beside her on the bed while her eyes shot lasers at me as I took a seat.
“Well it didn’t seem like we made love, you me feel like it was a one night stand we had” she threw back at me… exactly the same words Violet used against me too. I wasn’t sure if there was anything I could do to make her calm down and forgive my actions but I was going to try, hopefully I’ll be able to appease her. “I know and I want to apologize, I shouldn’t have done that or made you feel that way and I swear that it wouldn’t happen again. I promise” I told her but she didn’t look convinced or that she was buying all the words I just spewed out hoping to win her back.
“We had dinner Everett, we sat opposite each other but you didn’t bring it up, you didn’t say a word about it, I felt so stupid and used” she said sadly this time with her head bowed in dejection. I reached for her hands but she pulled back immediately ” don’t touch me” she said in a dangerously low voice and I felt shivers run down my spine. I knew she was dead serious and she could lose it if I didn’t listen and touched her so I sat back in my former position and held my hands tighter to myself this time “I’m sorry” it was all I could say to her after she poured out her heart to me. I felt bad, really bad.
I never thought of it that way but hearing those words from her made me feel like a jerk that didn’t deserve her in the first place. I tried to say something else to get rid of those demeaning thoughts stuck in her head but she started speaking again “was I that bad? I mean I know it was first time having sex because I wanted it and not because I was being raped so maybe it wasn’t as good as you wanted it to be” she told me and I took her hands due to instincts to make her feel better. “I’ll never think of you that way Rachelle, believe me. That was the best sex I ever had and I it was with you, my mate” I stopped and raised her face up to look at me and see the honesty in my eyes.
“You’re one of the best things that’s ever happened to me Rachelle and I always wanted you from the first day I found out you were my mate. I couldn’t help the pull I kept on feeling towards you and it killed me every day to know I couldn’t have you, that I had to wait for you till you were comfortable with me… you have no idea how many cold showers I had because of you” I explained and smiled “I love you Rachelle, and you’re definitely not a whore. No matter what you went through before we met, you’ll always be special to me and hold a special space in my heart… I know I didn’t do the right thing by telling you good morning and just left like a jerk and I didn’t bring it up at night after dinner but I didn’t mean to do that. You have to believe me sweetie… I’m really sorry please” I added and pleaded desperately, hoping she’ll consider my words and forgive me for what I did.
“You love me?” Was what she asked next and I squeezed her dainty hands that I held in mine “of course Rachelle, always” I admitted and I caught a glimpse of a smile that threatened to break out on her face but she quickly hid it and cleared her throat then looked at me “you’ve apologized and given all your reasons but I’m still pissed because you made me feel like shit for days after we slept with each other and it’s not a feeling I can just wash away after listening to a few words you just told me” she said and my heart sank because I think what was going to come next after she said she couldn’t wash the feeling away from herself at once.
“Rachelle please, being without you for a week now almost killed me. I miss you so much and I miss the way we were” I pleaded once more and tried to kiss her. She turned her cheek to me and my lips landed on her cheek instead, she was still mad at me. “You’re still mad at me” I said and she pulled her hands from mine before I sat back in my former position “I’ll do anything you want me to to get you to stop being mad at me” I told her and she dragged in a long breath. “I’m not mad at you anymore Everett, but I still feel bad. I need some space to collect my thoughts and feel a lot better than I do right now” she told me.
I knew there was nothing I could say to make her feel better so I just nodded and left the room, hoping she feels better in her own time… hopefully soon.