I stared at the knife, and my mind was having many negative ideas. My tears stopped flowing through my eyes and all I saw was the knife lying on the table. I slowly stood up from the ground and with my shaky legs I walked towards the table. I licked my lips and wiped my tears.
I grabbed the knife, my hands were shaking so badly. Tears of pain and anger started to flow through my eyes. I threw the knife away with full force.
“.. I can’t do it,” I cried out as I fell down on the ground.
My body hit the ground while making a thud sound. I laid there like that, I cried and cried and cried myself to sleep.
*****
I woke up to the sound of someone knocking on the door; I rubbed my eyes to adjust them to the sunlight pecking from the windows. I sat up and was shocked to see myself on the bed with a soft mattress laying on me.
I glanced at the ground where I slept last night. “How did I end up on the bed?” The question popped up in my mind.
**Knock**
I rubbed my forehead with my fingertips while getting up from the bed, I slowly walked to the door and opened it. Penelope was standing in front of me with a cute smile on her face. When her eyes moved to my face, to my dress, her smile instantly dropped. She looked at me with worry, “Why are you still dressed in yesterday’s clothes?” She asked.
I glanced down to my dress and bit my tongue, fuck! I cursed myself as my mind started to think of any cover-up story.
“I.. I was tired… so, I just slept without.. changing the clothes,” I said, I tried to make it sound more like a cover-up, not like the truth.
Shit!
She looked at me from the top to bottom, with a confused expression, “O… okay,” She said.
I gave a big fake smile to her as I closed the door on her face. I exhaled and placed my hand over my chest trying to control myself. I walked to the washroom and did my morning duties. I walked outside with a fluffy towel wrapped around my body. I walked to the wardrobe which was placed at the corner of the room.
I opened the doors and stared at the clothes hanging there. Folding my hands, I was thinking about which dress I should wear. My eyes moved to the normal yellow top handing at the corner. I raised my hand to take it and suddenly my towel fell down on the ground.
“Fuck!” I cursed and was bending down slowly, in this while my room door was knocked, and before I could say wait, the door was opened and Nikolai stepped in. He stood still with his eyes wide, I quickly grabbed the towel and wrapped it around my body.
I glanced at him nervously while pushing the Strand over my ear.
“Y… you should’ve w… waited,” I said, avoiding eye contact.
“I… I’m sorry,” he said and turned around from me while extending his hand to me. I glanced at his hand to see a paper bag.
“I came to give you this,” He said, still turning around.
I took the bag and looked into it to see some clothes.
“Thank you,” I said, taking it.
“Get dressed and come down,” with that he walked out of my room without glancing at me.
I walked to the door and closed it. My heart was beating rapidly like it would burst out any movement. I took a few deep breaths and tried to control myself.
“Calm down Venessa, He didn’t see anything. Remember you covered yourself!” I said to myself to ease the anxiety.
I walked back to the bed and took the paper bag in my hand, I turned it upside down. Black fabric with undergarments fell from the bag. I took the neatly folded fabric into my hands and opened it.
Looking at it, a smile made its way up to my lips. It was a simple but beautiful black dress. The cloth was so soft, and it was off my shoulders. When my eyes moved to the undergarments, A sly smile appeared on my lips.
“He brought me undergarments!” I thought to myself.
I shook my head and wore the undergarments; I put the dress and wore it. I stood in front of the mirror and gazed at the reflection. The dress fits my curves perfectly, It reaches till my thighs. I put on some makeup and did my hair.
I turned around and put my heels on and walked out of the room; I reached the stairs and walked down the hall. There I saw Penelope helping the maid in serving the breakfast. I walked to the dining table and pulled the chair out as I sat down on the chair. I felt his intense gaze on my body. I gulped and tried my best not to show my nervousness on my face.
I made myself comfortable in the place I’m sitting, “You look beautiful Ness,” Penelope said, taking a seat next to Nikolai. I smiled at her, “Thank you,” I said. I glanced at Nikolai who was watching me like a hawk. Looking at him watching me like that made me intimidated. I quickly withdrew my eyes from him and moved to my empty plate.
The maid served my breakfast and I without delay dug into my breakfast. As I was having my breakfast without looking at anyone other than my plate, I heard Alan say,
“You’re quite hungry, Aren’t you?” I peeked at him and said, “Yea… I didn’t have my dinner last night” He smiled at me and turned to the maid, “Serve her more,” He said, she nodded and walked towards me. She took the bowl to serve me, I immediately put my hand and stopped her.
“No, No I’m full,” I said, she glanced at Alan, who was looking at me.
“You said you didn’t eat last night, you must be very hungry. Take my advice and eat Ness,” He said very seriously.
“No, No I ate so much. Trust me, I’m full,” I said, still he argued with me and in the end of our argument Penelope interfered and asked me to eat some of it and leave the rest if my stomach doesn’t take any.
While I was having my breakfast with great difficulty, Nikolai had his breakfast and stood up from the chair. My eyes immediately moved to him, He walked to the living room leaving us to have our breakfast.
I, Alan and Penelope had our breakfast peacefully. After placing the dishes in the sink, me and Penelope walked to the living room. Nikolai was staring at the person who was sitting in front of him. He was wearing a black suit, and his back was facing me. The closer I was towards them, The more the person’s back looked familiar to me.