“Mom, for the last time… I’M GOING TO BE FINE! There’s absolutely nothing to worry about.” I rubbed the back of her hand and plastered my best smile on my lips, yet the worry didn’t seem to leave her.
“You don’t know what you’re getting yourself into. He’s not someone to-”
“Mom!” I cut her off, dropping her hand and pinching the bridge of my nose in irritation. I really should’ve left before she woke up like Kasan had insisted, but I was so determined to defy him that I refused to do so. Now, I regret that move.
“Do you still not get that I’m a full grown woman now? I can take care of myself,” I moved to stand, but for the third time since she woke up, her hand reached out and grabbed unto my wrist, obstructing me from leaving.
I looked down at her arm then back up to her face. “For fuck’s s-”
I pressed my lips together when the door was suddenly pushed open and Kasan trailed inside, his joker grin on his lips and his rifle still in hand. Maybe he’s a bit paranoid, seeing as he obviously has no intention of ever letting it out of his grasp.
“Jessie, it’s really nice to see you so…” His eyes studied mom’s face, “… emotional, but I’m afraid it’s time to leave. I’ve got quite ALOT of things to do at home… with her… in my bed. If you know what I mean…” He wiggled his eyebrows.
I clenched my jaw. He seriously needs someone to stuff his freaking mouth. Everytime he sprouts something, he just makes me want to kill him more and more.
“I want to talk to my mom… privately. And I mean, with you actually gone and not eavesdropping outside the door,” I gave him the stink eye as I spoke.
“Nope,” he shook his head, “I’ve been waiting for far too long. We’re leaving… now.”
Knowing that I shouldn’t test his patience despite his laidback demeanour, I tried to wriggle my wrist out of her hold but she didn’t release me nor did she spare me a glance, she kept her glaring eyes trained on Kasan without so much as blinking.
Moments later, my other wrist was enveloped with warmth. I turned my head to look at Kasan who didn’t seem so playful anymore. His lips were pressed into a thin line and his eyes held absolutely no emotion… nothing.
Who shoved a stick up his ass?
“You know… I could allow you to willingly let her go or I could just blow your head off… I personally prefer the latter but I’ll play nice and give you the option to choose. What’s it gonna be?” He rose his brow, leaning his gun on his shoulder with the muzzle pointing towards the ceiling.
Would I be crazy if I say he looks sexy?… now particularly.
Though not directed at me, the intimidating look he had on his face was supposed to scare me but it didn’t. It wasn’t that I took him lightly, it’s just that his look was kind of mind-blowing.
He might be a bit off in the head but he’s not just any lunatic… he’s a sexy lunatic, a very se—
No Clara! NO! If my hands weren’t occupied, I would’ve seriously slapped myself. I must be sick… in the head. What the hell am I thinking? This ain’t the right time to be acting like a slut. He just threatened to blow my mom’s head off!
Get to your senses, Clara!
Mom’s fingers stiffened at the threat and her grip loosened around my wrist. Before she could say or do anything that would most likely get her in trouble, I took that opportunity to rip my hand out of her grasp. She looked up at me, her eyes glossy as tears threatened to leave them. Her hand reached out for me once again, but stiffened in mid air when she happened to glance at Kasan once more.
“Mom, I promise I’ll be fine.” I tried to reassure her but that only seemed to make it worse because her tears finally left her eyes in a never-ending stream.
“Let’s go.” Kasan tugged my arm and I quickly waved at her with a beaming smile before following behind him. As soon as my face was turned away from her, a sad look took over my features.
I was planning on holding my sadness back until I left because I didn’t want them to feel at fault, but it seems like I failed to do something as simple as that. And what’s worse, I didn’t even get to see Dad. For some reason Kasan called over a doctor friend of his to look after him a few minutes after our little deal. I didn’t ask him to and I’m not sure why he even thought of doing so when he’s the one who inflicted his injuries in the first place.
But maybe it’s just a lunatic thing… I probably won’t be able to understand even if I try.
Anyway, Dad didn’t wake up after the doctor patched him up, so I had no chance to talk to him at all…. sadly. I at least wanted to tell him sorry for all that shit I said to him, and for being so stupidly reckless.
I didn’t think I’d ever feel sad whenever I finally left from under their wings… but I guess I was wrong…
It all feels pretty heartbreaking.
***
By the time we were seated in the car, Kasan was back to his playful self, grinning at me as his fingers creeped up my thigh to the waistband of my… well his sweatpants.
He seriously had some sort of personality disorder for sure. One minute he’s completely serious then another minute he’s goofy.
I gripped his hand, stopping his fingers from breaching any further. I wasn’t exactly in the best mood for his ‘I love to fuck’ attitude. It all just dawned on me that I practically just sold myself to a thug. What I need right now is a little consolation.
… Or a bomb.
“Can you not do that with him in the car?” I asked, ignoring the hard glare I was receiving from Kenley who was driving, aka the-dipshit-who-brought-me-into-this-mess.
“You didn’t look like you cared about the attention that time at the club when I finge-”
“Just… stop talking,” I muttered in annoyance, my small fists balling in my lap. If getting on my nerves was his intention, then he definitely succeeded.
Grinning, he scooted closer to me and slinged his arm over my shoulder. “As you wish, princess.”
He said that, but for the rest of the ride his talking never ceased… And what exactly do you think he was talking about?
You might’ve already guess it.
Of course it was his specialty… sex, sex and sex. If I could’ve bashed his head in and get away with it, I would’ve probably done it in that particular moment!
He better not make the mistake of thinking that he can do whatever he wants with my body after today. I’ll fucking kill him if he touches me in the wrong places! !