He was overpowering, just like she remembered.
Domineering and harsh, she could not turn him down nor could she break free from him.
She simply didn’t have the strength.
She did not want to go back to the past. She was in despair, every single day.
Stella pressed her lips together tightly, guarding it from his tongue.
The more she resisted, the more he wanted to conquer her.
Jasper kissed even more passionately. His big palms slid under her skirt.
Stella could feel nothing but immense fear.
She could not make a sound. Her lips was pressed shut.
There was no way she could break free from him.
Why did he insist on making her fall in love with him again?
He lost his memory and completely forgot her.
She loved him deeply, but she could only see him falling deeply in love with other women.
She had become the target of public criticism, but he just let her go so easily, by forgetting about her.
If Frederick Addington had taught her sadness and anger,
Jasper Milton had taught her despair.
It was so bad that she was still seriously ill now.
It’s true what they say, a doctor cannot treat himself.
During the day, she could still pretend to be carefree and talk cheerfully.
When the dusk fell, under the dark sky and silence, all her thoughts and emotions would bring her back to the day when she cut her wrist three years ago.
If she was rescued and kept alive, she would be all alone, and no one could warm her cold heart.
If she died from that, she would still be alone, lying in a dark world.
She was like a ghost for the past three years, observing other people’s lives.
To her, her life had ended, three years ago, when she cut her wrist.
All she could do was be the perfect person everyone thought she should be.
Her heart had already broken long ago.
Jasper brutally wrenched his hands up her skirt.
Stella could only feel embarrassment and anger. She stopped moving, staring at him coldly. Staring at his handsome but cold face.
Jasper felt her stop struggling. Her eyes were cold as a frozen lake.
“Do you want to take me by force? Well, given your high position, you can have any women you want. I wouldn’t even be able to sue you. Am I right?” Stella said coldly.
“Do you think I am forcing you into this?” Jasper asked.
“Do I look like I’m enjoying it now?” Stella asked sarcastically.
“You should be.”
He didn’t know why he was so crazy about her.
In fact, when he first saw her on the train three years ago, he took the initiative to invite her to his place. He did not know why he was acting like this.
He had a special feeling for her.
He couldn’t figure it out nor could he describe it.
Every time he dreamed of her, she would say “Jasper, come back” in that sad voice.
His heart ached. It was so painful that he couldn’t even fall asleep. He wanted to reach in and wrench his heart out.
He wanted to find the answer.
His parents and friends all stopped him from looking for the answer. Even she stood in his way.
But he still pressed forward,
even if it meant that it would destroy him.
Jasper kissed her.
Stella pursed her lips.
He sucked her lips hard and forcefully, until they were red and swollen.
He took her without mercy.
He scrutinized every expression on her face, wanting to see her affection for him.
But he didn’t.
She was staring at him too, but her expression was filled with stubbornness and pride.
She was a woman with a temper.
He held her chin. “Didn’t you say that you can’t do anything even if I forced myself on you? Do you want me to do it by force or not?”
“No,” Stella said without hesitation.
“Cooperate then,” Jasper said.
Stella felt herself tear apart.
For more than three years, she had never had another man, so…
She only felt pain.
Not only from her body, but her heart too.
She didn’t want to cry, but there was mist fogging up her eyes and they gathered into tears, flowing from the corners of her eyes.
There was no emotion or confusion in his eyes, only cold determination.
What did Jasper go through in the past three years? Why did he become so cruel and merciless?
Stella began to sob and then finally burst into tears.
If Jasper had not lost his memory, he would never do this to her.
However, what happened had happened.
Jasper looked at Stella gently.
He leaned forward and kissed her tears.
They were salty.
He kissed her from the corners of her eyes to her cheeks, and then her lips.
Even his thrusts grew a little softer, and he freed her ankle.
He let her sit on his body. They came face to face.
He stared at her with his pitch-black eyes, but they were no longer sharp .
Stella felt embarrassed for crying.
She was not a little girl anymore, nor was this her first time.
She turned her head away.
She did not regret the fact that he had forced himself on her, but that she could not find the old Jasper anymore.
She couldn’t find him when she was alive, and she couldn’t find him when she was trying to end her life.
She just teared up quietly.
“Is it safe?” Jasper asked in a low voice.
Even if it was, she would only say no. “Don’t finish in there.”
“Okay,” Jasper agreed.
Stella did not know when it ended.
It was indescribable.
It was far beyond her expectation that this would happen between them on her first day back in A country..
She could not let things go on this way.
Jasper was brutal throughout the process. He might have felt guilty after that, given that he was gently wiping away her tears.
Stella was annoyed by his arrogance. She didn’t want such gentle gestures from him. She pushed him away and wiped herself.
“Did you feel better towards the end?” Jasper asked.
Stella rolled her eyes at him.
He still had some self-consciousness, he was aware that she wouldn’t feel good at the beginning.
She did not want to answer his question. “You may leave now, Chief. I would like to take a shower.”
“Why must I leave for you to take a shower?” Jasper frowned.
Stella grabbed a pillow and tossed it at him.
Jasper caught it easily. “Hey, you have a bad temper.”
He put the pillow behind her, and stared at her with his deep eyes.
Finally, he felt that she was the one he had been looking for. He felt more at ease now.
He was sure that he had been deeply in love with her before he lost his memory.
What about her?
Did she not love him like she said she used to?
Thinking about that, his chest tightened. He couldn’t breath properly.
“What are you going to do next?” Jasper asked.