Rhezi froze in her place as she stared back at Kraius. She wanted to say words to him but her mind seemed shut that she couldn’t even think straight. She didn’t know what to do or what to say with her heart erratically beating. So in the end, she let herself fall into the deep stares of the man.
It’s been years since they last stood together in that special place. They even wrote those words that became the only decoration of the place. The words that Rhezi almost worshipped everytime she heard it being uttered by the man.
SENI SEVIYORUM
“It’s been a while,” Kraius spoke which snapped Rhezi out of her reverie.
Rhezi blinked and shook her head, nodding as a response to the man. “Yeah,” she answered, trying to keep herself calm, even if she was hurt to see them together in one place. The place they once called their safe haven.
“Sit,” the man commanded.
Rhezi mindlessly obeyed him. She nodded and walked slowly towards the couch in front of her, the man also doing the same.
For Rhezi, the situation made her feel awkward. Kraius was beside her when they just had a heated argument earlier. She didn’t even expect them to be this close to each other again.
“I don’t know where to start. I was dumbfounded from the words you said to me. I didn’t think that I could be the reason for everything,” Kraius whispered.
Rhezi could still hear the words that the man said. She shifted her gaze to the man who currently had his head down and hands clasped together. She could see how his aura changed, he became more composed although it was obvious in his tone that he was having a hard time.
“I was broken when you left. Just like how fast you entered my life, you also disappeared in a blink.” Kraius smiled bitterly. “Surely, I am not the prince charming for you but I could always be your knight. I maybe a fuckboy but I will always be your slave. I love you, Rhezi,” he confessed.
Rhezi felt like her breath was taken away. It was music to her ears when she heard him utter the words that she’s been aching to hear. However, fate really wanted to play with them. Her heart was confused between believing him or ignoring what he said with the fact that it’s all too late. What happened, happened. All she wanted was for them to fix the things that needed to be fixed.
“If you love me, why did you hurt me? Why did you say those words to Shan and not to me? I won’t force you if don’t want to–”
“I wanted to!” Kraius cut her off. “I badly wanted to,” he muttered as he stared at the woman. There was pain, exhaustion, and regret.
Rhezi’s heart throbbed in pain but she forced herself to stay strong. She’s tired of everything, tired of feeling pain and shedding tears. She’s tired of hoping only to be met with nothing. But as much as she tried to convince herself, her heart was stubborn. It was still longing for him. Her heart will always be for him, not because Kraius was her first love, but because he was the only person that owned her heart.
“Shan was here. She invited herself to come here. I tried to shoo her away but my colleague stopped me. You should have stayed a little bit more to hear everything that I said before you left. It was not the same as you thought it was.” Kraius words were full of conviction.
“B-But I heard it!” the woman exclaimed.
“You only heard half of what I said!” the man countered. “You just assumed things, Chubz. You never believed in me.”
“H-How could I trust you when you never even said that you l-love me?” Bitterness filled in Rhezi’s heart. How could she believe that he loved her when she never heard him say it out loud?
“I thought my actions were enough. Well, I guess it wasn’t. You still left me,” Kraius grumbled. “Can you believe it, Rhezi? Even if I was angry at you, I still love you. Even if I badly want to get my revenge, my heart would rather feel the pain that to let you get hurt.”
Rhezi took a deep breath and smiled bitterly. She probably was too young before. She concluded things without asking him. The woman immediately assumed everything and even believed Jericho. And so, it ended with her being broken.
“W-Well I guess, we’re really not meant to be. Maybe it just had to end there,” she whispered as she looked at him. She even embraced herself when she felt the coldness of the place. “Let’s just accept our fate, Kraius. Not all the things were meant for us.” Rhezi smiled. “Goodnight, Mr. Montreal.”
Rhezi stood up from her seat and ready to leave the room, but after she took one step, Kraius reached for her arm to stop her. The woman sighed and turned to face him, but she wobbled and weakened even more after seeing the man standing before her with his soulful eyes staring at her. It was full of plea and sadness.
“Did you really love me, or are you just in love of the thought that you love me?” Kraius asked.
Rhezi’s mouth fell open. She was dumbfounded of Kraius question. The woman didn’t know what she’s supposed to answer to the question She was sure about his feelings for him back then but she didn’t know how to tell him. Or, was it necessary to tell him? If she said it, what would change?
“I am a sinner, Rhezi. I will always be a sinner for you.”
“K-Kraius–”
Rhezi’s eyes widened as her words were cut off by Kraius’ soft lips. Her ears became deaf, only hearing the frantic beating of her heart. It almost suffocated her as she felt the man’s large hand snaking around her waist.
It was very fast that Rhezi couldn’t react, even when Kraius started to move his lips. It was slow, passionate, and full of care as he gradually teased the woman. And Rhezi wasn’t a saint. She could feel herself succumb into the man’s temptation.
Then, she gave in. She let herself drown in Kraius’ kisses. She closed her eyes and snaked her arms around the man’s neck to support her wobbling knees that was. caused my a mixture of emotions and the fiery rhythm of the man’s enchanting lips.
“You will always be mine. You will always belong to me,” Kraius said as he ended the kiss. He looked at Rhezi with adoration in his eyes. He even put some hair strands back on the side of her ear, the he cupped her small face and started kissing her forehead down to her nose line.
As the man did so, the woman closed her eyes shut. She was ecstatic to feel like her body was being worshipped.
If Kraius was a willing sinner for her, then she would be a willing victim too. The woman desperately want to feel the fervor heat of his love. If it was a sin in other people’s eyes then she would let it be. She chose not to care about tomorrow and the coming days.
She gasped as she Kraius lifted her. Rhezi immediately locked her legs onto the man’s waist, burying her face onto his neck as if she was shy. The lady even sniffed his perfume and found herself intoxicated by its scent. It was the same perfume as before, and it still didn’t fail to enchant the woman.
Kraius put Rhezi on couch.
“K-Kraius!” she called.
“I am drowned, Chubz. I don’t know if I could still save myself. You made me a mad man,” Kraius whispered in her earlobe.
His voice was sensual that she couldn’t help herself but to be drowned, too. She let him praise her body the way he wanted. The woman’s eyes remained shut when he started to take off her clothes and kissed her breasts. She bit her lower lip as his hand traced down to her body and unzipped her jeans and even helped the man remove it.
Kraius removed his own clothes, too. As usual, his perfect body greeted her. He has a hairy chest down to his navel, muscles protruding as he moved, while his V-line was always tempting to her sight. Seductive. And she wouldn’t deny that she was fantasizing him devour her being and own her like he never did to other women.
“This is mine,” he whispered.
Rhezi closed her eyes as she felt Kraius lips touched her core. He was teasing her. The woman’s body arched beautifully as she bit her lips to muffle her moans from coming out. She was completely gratified with what he was doing.
Then after a few moments, Kraius positioned himself on top of her as he parted her legs wide. His eyes didn’t leave her face. There was always longing on it but at the same time it was also blazing with desire. Desire to claim and own her restlessly.
“Ohh…” Rhezi moaned as Kraius’ manhood entered her fully. He was huge and big that it pained her, but not for long as he started thrusting slowly while kissing her gently.
“I will be gentle,” he whispered in between their kisses.
Rhezi nodded and put her hands on his back. When the woman loosened up, she synchronized with Kraius’ thrusts. They danced in the rhythm of longing, desire and passion. All the while listening to the music that only the both of them could hear and moaned like they own the whole place without restraint.
It was long overdue. It was very long since their hearts needed to be fixed. If it wasn’t the right time, then when would it be?
No one could ever say.
No one but only their hearts.