A LITTLE ADVICE
The next hour of my life was going on with happy tears. I never felt so happy before. Nothing could be equal to this moment. I know my dad will leave Florida again. But atleast I got to be with him for a week. That seems pretty long to me. I should probably put leave for some days. I want to embrace every second with my father.
” You never wanted to skip school, Emily. Not even for a day. You are doing something new.” My dad said. He can’t imagine his daughter not being a nerd. I’m always a nerd. Twenty-four hours. Maybe something changed now.
” Yeah. But I will do it for you, dad. I’m already pretty good in all subjects. I don’t think I need more classes.”
” Well, that’s a good thing. So, what else did I missed in these days? There must be something interesting. Do you like this new home?” he asked both of us. I know all he wants for me to be happy wherever I live. At first, my dad thought I might not like Florida. I would rather stay in Paris. But some things changed. Many things changed. I don’t even want to leave this place. You know the reason, don’t you?
” Yeah, we both like staying here. Plus Emily is socializing a lot. It’s rare to see her in the home nowadays.” My mom said. She’s happy that I’m not stuck in a room every day.
” You used the word ‘rare’, mom. That’s not true. I’m going out and staying in the home equally…”
” Whatever, it is true that you are going out. I didn’t expect this.” My dad interrupted me with a smile. He took off his spectacles after hearing what my mom said. There’s nothing to be astonished. Socializing isn’t a difficult job, is it? Maybe it is for me.
“She also has some romance in school with… ” Mom said in a whisper slowly. I don’t want this to happen. Whose name is she gonna say? I mentioned her about both Jason and Ryder.
” Wow. This is getting more and more interesting. Who is that guy? Maybe I want to see him.” Dad asked. His voice doesn’t sound eager. But he’s like ‘I want to see that guy and tell him to back off from my daughter.’
I shifted my look towards my mom. ” You know what, mom? Pearl said…” I’m trying to divert the topic but dad mistook it.
” Do you like Pearl? I didn’t expect this from you, Emily. Pearl is your best friend.”
” No, no, dad. Pearl is still my best friend. Nothing is going between us. I’m not a lesbian. Mom is talking about a guy.” Actually, it’s two guys. I can’t say it louder.
” Okay. You really freaked me out.” He let out a sigh of relief. Then we three left our house to have dinner in a restaurant. It’s been a long time since we had family time together. In the last family dinner, I was single. Still, I’m single. But I wasn’t the girl who didn’t look at any guy and only fallen in love with fictional characters. In the present, Jason and Ryder are the guys who crawled out of an amazing book and I’m in a terrible state to make a decision.
When dinner’s over, we are back home. Dad went to sleep after long hours of travelling. I already messaged my friends that I won’t come to school for three days. Then, I felt something inside me. Some urge to talk with my mom for some advice. I can’t keep it with me forever. I want to know what I do. Who should I choose I know it’s not really necessary in high school. But a person can meet their soulmate at this age or even after forty. I feel like one of them is my soulmate. I shouldn’t delay my decision. One day, I have to let go of one of them. It’s unfair to make them wait and disappoint him. I’m not that cruel. When I could think ‘love triangles’, I’m remembering about ‘True Blood’ series. I thought Sookie might end up with any one of them but neither of them is her soulmate. That’s heartbreaking. I wish my life doesn’t end up like that. No one’s life should end up like that.
” Why are you wandering here, darling?” My mom’s voice brought me back to reality. I realized that I’m standing in front of the fridge. I’m not hungry. What am I searching in the fridge?
” I thought you ate well. You should have told me, right? We could order something extra for you.” Mom said when I’m already clueless about my presence in front of a fridge. It’s funny that my hands are looking for food in the fridge while my heart is looking for true love.
” No, mom. I ate well. I was… I was looking for… nothing. I absent-mindedly walked here. I have to talk to you about something. Do you have some time?”
” Yeah, of course, I do, darling. Go on,” she said and we both settled on the dining table and filled her with whatever’s bothering me. But I didn’t mention anything about Patrick and Crystal. That’s are all the thing that I would take it to my grave. I’m sure I will.
” Why didn’t you told me earlier, Emily? You don’t need to hide it from me.”
” I didn’t hide it, mom. I was confused and didn’t want to stress it. That’s why I didn’t say anything about it. Are you mad?”
” No, I’m not. You did the right thing by sharing it with me. But I just wish you could say it the next day after your birthday. You told Pearl but she’s the same age as yours. She can’t help you with it even if she wants to.”
” Right, mom. So, what should I do now? I don’t know how this sounds. But I feel like I love both of them. It breaks my heart when they are really caring for me a lot but all I do is choose one of them.” I frowned as I remembered all the best moments. It feels painful as much as it feels good.
” I understand you, Emily. It’s something new to you. I never had a situation like this in my past. I had some ex. But nothing happened to me like this.”
“I know you can’t decide who do you love the most? Even if you do, you are afraid that you have to disappoint one of them, right?” she asked. I could say nothing but nod my head.
” You can’t find a solution to avoid hurting one of them. Try to accept it and you should know that if he loved you truly, he will be ready to let you go for your happiness.”
” Yeah, I know they do. I blindly believe it. That’s why it hurts me so badly. But let me ask me one thing. How will I know who’s the one for me?” I waited for my mom’s response. What she answered was looking like it’s out of the question.
” What are the languages you known till now?”
” What, mom? Is it necessary?”
” You said you want to know whos’ the right one for you. So, answer this question. Can you?” She seriously said.
” Well, I know French, English, Spanish, Portuguese. That’s all. Since we moved from country to country, I could be able to learn all of this. How is it connected to the thing we are talking about?”
” Did you noticed yourself? We changed country to country. But you know where you born? Right?”
” Yeah, I born in Paris. How could I not know it?”
” Yeah, that’s where you born. That’s where you belong. That’s your native language. That’s the language which comes out of your mouth when I asked this question. So, back to the point. Earlier, I told your father that you are having a romance. But I didn’t mention which guy it is. You cannot think of both of them at the same time. It should be one. The one for you. If you notice it, you would know that either Ryder or Jason comes to your mind. I know you love them both like you said. But deep down, you know who do you love the most? Who comes to your mind first, Emily?”