PAST LIFE
I become a murderer in other eyes before I could realize what’s happening around me. My parents still trusted me. But there’s no evidence to prove that I’m not guilty. Patrick’s anger towards me increased day by day. The more I tried to prove that Emma did it all. She died after what she has done and left me to bear the pain. Patrick did everything to show proofs that I’m the reason for all his losses. Well, he got what he wanted. I’m in jail now.
” I feel so helpless, Ryder. What kind of brother am I? I couldn’t get you out of this jail.” Shawn blamed himself when he came to see me. I’m glad that his injuries aren’t that bad.
” It’s not in your hands, Shawn. It’s just for two months. So, I can manage it.” I told calmly. I don’t want to show my feelings which will make him worry about him more. There’s one more bad thing left. I can’t able to finish my tenth grade. The same situation applies to Dylan, Jacob and Patrick. Patrick’s family can’t able to afford for his studies for one more year. Their family is getting loans from everywhere.
” How’s Patrick? Is he still angry at me?” I asked my brother.
” Why are you asking about him? He doesn’t deserve your friendship. You don’t need to care about him. He’s the real betrayer. Not you, Ryder.” Shawn said. He’s right. I should be angry at Patrick. But I’m in a grieving state. I don’t have time for hatred.
Day by day, I talked with some other criminals. It’s not me who started the conversation. They came to me to know my story. I saw their sympathy for me after they came to know that I’m not guilty. After a month, I can be able to cope with everything. I also spotted some changes in me. Maybe more changes. I united with the other criminals and grew my hatred towards Patrick. I wanted to have revenge on him and I’m ready to wait for the right time.
Soon, my answers to lawyers or police officers question become different.
Did to set a house on fire on purpose?
Oh yeah, I did. And if you keep on asking this fucking question again, I might set your house on fire once I’m out of this jail.
This answer has a serious effect on my life. I don’t get a chance to get back to my home for two months and then my parents helped me by appointing a lawyer. Actually, I got a little worried about leaving the jail and the friends I got here. But I’m not attached to anyone. I don’t trust anyone. I know they won’t trust me too. My reputation in school has already been spoiled. Everyone everywhere talked wrongly about me. That’s what Shawn told. I told him not to get angry. I don’t give a fuck about anyone. What cares what others think? They don’t know me.
Finally, the day arrived. I got out of that hell and spotted Patrick. I can see the vengeance in his eyes. Isn’t that enough that I already been to jail? He’s such a fool to believe that Emma’s innocent.
I saw Patrick with some guy standing next to him. I can say that he’s another criminal from his looks. I already saw him in news years ago.
” I tried so hard to contact him so he could kill you. You have no guilt for ending Emma’s life. This punishment isn’t enough for you,” Patrick said. I have many choices at this time. a) I can be afraid and try to get out of his sight ( That’s the last thing I will be doing) b) I can get into a fight c) I can have a smooth talk with the criminal.
What I have finally decided to do is…..
D) Shoot the criminal and get back in jail again
Did I forget to say that I had a gun with me? It happened in jail. I stole it from the police with the help of others. I never got a chance to learn how to shoot but I killed the criminal with one shoot. Maybe, that’s my luck. They brought me to jail for the mistake I never made so I did this on purpose. When months passed by, every problem faded. I’m back home. I didn’t get more punishment since I killed a serial killer. The consequences will be worst if he’s out in public. So, What I did is a good thing. That’s what many thought. But after that incident, I looked like a bad guy in everyone’s eyes. I can say some students are afraid of me when I’m back to Edgewood high after a year. Some may gossip about me. I finished tenth grade and graduated. Still, Every single teacher sees me as a problem.
If someone hears my side of the story and believes it, I don’t think they will hate me.
…..
When Ryder finished telling his life two years ago, I cried. I don’t care whether if someone calls me weak because I cried for the story.
” So, you do believe it, right?” Ryder asked even though he knows the answer.
” I do, Ryder. I hate everyone. They are judging you and calling you a murderer without knowing anything.” I said with anger.
” That doesn’t matter. All I think about is you believe me. After two years, I think something good happens in my life.” he said as he got hold of my hands. He’s telling about me. Am I the good thing happened in his life?
” I don’t want to recover more incidents from the past. I only told you what’s really important. By now, you know why Patrick is after you. He can’t able to kill me and he’s trying to harm the ones whom I care about the most.”
” Yeah. I get it now.”
” Well, I can be able to end his life if I decided it but I’m trying to start over without any trouble which is not happening. But I assure you that I Will protect you no matter the cos…”
” Say no more. I know you do,” I interrupted him with a kiss. I guess this is the first time I made a move.