The dusty years of the past was turned up, the kind of wound suddenly torn open blood dripping let Gong Yue can not accept.
It was her sin and her secret, a secret she would confess for the rest of her life.
“Back then slowly, like you, did not know about your cousin’s father’s past with the Austin family, and she was right, only inadvertently, and so were you.”
Gong Yue clenched her fist and gave a self-deprecating laugh, “So what did you bring me here for? You want to tell me that you already know all the things that happened back then, that you know that I always had trouble with Chu Xiao-slow because I shirked my responsibilities and wanted to blame her for my cousin’s death?”
I don’t wait for Bai Yuanting to explain, Gong Yue steeply raised her voice and said indignantly, “It’s not necessary! The whole world protects her, but I don’t. Why should she be able to walk away from the trouble caused by a single word, and still live a heartless life, and still have so many people spoiling her, loving her and accommodating her, and she is the center of the world!”
“…”
“I hate her! I hate the way she looks so innocent, the way she’s so cleanly protected by everyone, the way she can easily get the world without doing anything.”
“…”
Gong Yue almost hoarse accusation of those suppressed heart years of dissatisfaction, aggression in this moment burst out in the most, the empty cemetery wilderness, long echoed her choking sound.
She held the tombstone next to her and slowly squatted down, as if she was off her feet, and could not say another word.
On what basis?
Bai Yuan Ting stared at her, “But you have never told slowly about your cousin.”
The mouth says that he hates Chu Xiaoshu so much that he hates to never see her again, but for so many years, she never mentioned her cousin’s affairs to anyone back then.
Gong Yue bowed her head, her voice breathless, “Is it useful to tell her this?”
“You say you hate her, but you’re protecting her, slowly that character, as soon as you tell her this, that simple, clean, unblemished world of hers that you say she’s protected out by everyone, will all collapse immediately.”
Whether or not it was the fault of the child’s words, Han Qingcheng’s death was indeed indirectly caused by Chu Xiaojiao.
If you really want to pass the buck, Gong Yue could have told all this to Chu Xiao slow.
And Chu Xiao slow will definitely apologize, even after so many years, if she knows the truth that Gong Yue stopped seeing her back then, the late guilt will become more of a shadow that she will carry for the rest of her life.
“I didn’t,” Gong Yue tilted her head to deny it.
When a person speaks with too many small gestures to match their words, more than likely they are convincing themselves that what they are saying is true.
She did not want to admit that she was trying to protect Chu Xiao-slow so she did not say anything, but the guilt of her cousin made her unable to face her friends as before, so she chose the extreme way, so many years everything and Chu Xiao-slow against each other.
It seems that this is the only way to alleviate your guilt.
But in fact it did not, the nineteen-year-old girl, ten years to carry too much responsibility that does not belong to her teenage years should have, bear too much of the gloom not for outsiders.
Bai Yuan Ting said, “Yue Yue, you are very good, very kind, not at all arrogant, all kinds of things are not worse than others, but you should jump out of this contradiction, ten years is long enough, you can not and slowly than a lifetime.”
When I was young, grabbing toys, big grabbing jewelry that does not matter, but feelings are not grabbed, in the end, we all look bad, even if they get that may not be what they want, hurt the enemy a thousand self-loss eight hundred.
“Do I compare?” Gong Yue laughed at herself, “Brother Yu Mo feels that it is a waste of time to even look at me, you, Brother Ting Zheng, Sister An An, Yubing, and even the new cozy all like to play with her, whether it is love or friendship, she always wins, can I compete?”
“Friendship has affinity, but love doesn’t. Love is only unique, and if you’ve never liked Umoh either, you haven’t lost, if you’re willing to put your sights on someone else.”
Gong Yue sobbed, looking up to reveal a tear-stained face, like a kitten abandoned in the wilderness.
The first time someone said something like that to her.
In fact, this whole night Bai Yuanting said these words no one had said to her before, whether it was mentioning her cousin, mentioning the feud with Chu Xiao slow, mentioning those conflicts in her heart, all the words were the first time.
Friendship has affinity, this word she has always experienced, even if she also grew up with their group of childhood friends, but she is always hovering at the very edge, as long as they do not take the initiative, at any time, anywhere from their circle may be forgotten.
And is love unique?
Bai Yuan Ting squatted down, handed her a handkerchief, plucked the messy hair on her cheeks to the side and pinned it behind her ears, his voice was gentle but strong, “Yue Yue, everyone should meet their own unique love, they should not be influenced by other things to judge.”
Gong Yue is only nineteen years old, only one year older than Chu Xiao slow, those arrogant, indifferent, pretentious, fragile and even deliberately superior, but is only a layer of cowardly bones to protect the color.
“Do you want to hear about your uncle’s beef with the Austin family and what it’s all about?”
Gong Yue wiped her tears, her emotions gradually calmed, froze when she heard this, and asked in a small voice, “Do you know?”
“Hmm.”
The story is too long, a time to know where to start, what Bai Yuanting knows is only that the girl’s perspective told him back then, there are subjective guesses that make up for those who have not seen the past with their own eyes.
“A long, long time ago, there was a teenager who had a crush on the school’s senior sister …”
“…”
“Only later did the teenager learn that there had never been his existence in his sister’s life, his sister did not even know who he was, in his sister’s life, he was just a passerby, the teenager was not happy, and finally tried to get his sister to get reacquainted with him, forcing her to stay by his side … ”
“…”
“Later, someone asked the teenager if he regretted it, and he said no, because at least he used it in such a way that his sister could never forget that he ever existed again.”
“How silly …”
“Yes, so silly,” Bai Yuan Ting nodded, “but he did do it.”
When the story is told, it is self-evident who the teenager is, and the senior sister? Gong Yue is a little uncertain, but since it is and the Austin family’s past, that probably can also guess one or two.
Bai Yuanting said, “The story is not important, the important thing is that the teenager did not kill anyone, everyone ended up well, despite the mistake will be wrong, but then all have their own successful life.”
“Really?” Gong Yue was a little stunned, some did not believe this, stumbled over her words, “But … but how do you know?”
“Sister Qing Orange said so.”
“…”
The story is true, but he part.
A girl who has had a hard time for ten years and didn’t really want her friends to bear the pain with her, should have a clean world for her to live in.