Night.
There was only a small lamp lit in the room. Serena had finished washing, put on her pajamas, and got into bed.
She should have fallen asleep at that moment, but she was not sleepy.
In the night light, a golden button gave off a dim light in her hand.
Mainly because the night light was warm in color, the color of the button gave a feeling of warmth.
He lightly stared at the button inside his hand.
This button fell into her clothes from the mysterious man in the rainy night five years ago.
Thinking about it, Serena felt her fingertips clench tightly and her thoughts began to drift away again.
At that moment, she asked Alice to find the owner of the button, but after a long time, she found Leonardo.
The news frightened her for a while, and also made her feel great guilt toward Cristian.
Although she told him nothing, she was always convinced that it was very likely that the baby was Leonardo’s, so she avoided him as if avoiding a viper.
Until Manuel was born and grew slowly.
He looked more and more like Cristian.
She felt puzzled, unbelievable and shocked.
He was ridiculous.
Even if he was the son of Leonardo, who had the genes of the Ferrari family, it would be impossible for him to look like Cristian.
Therefore, Serena was even thinking that the mystery man that night was actually Cristian himself.
But he kept telling her that she was married and pregnant with a bastard.
After such an idea having had that recognition at that moment, Serena’s first thought was to deny the terrible idea.
“How can this be? How can it be?”
If it was really him, wouldn’t she and Cristian have been tricked together by fate?
She could not accept that.
Along with Cristian’s attitude toward her and the words Alice said to her at that moment, she felt … desperate for life.
If it had not been for having Manuel by her side, she might not have survived.
Thinking about it, Serena pressed the button in her hand harder and her white fingertips turned red.
A click…
The door to the room suddenly opened, and a small figure rushed in. She quickly took off her shoes and climbed onto the bed.
Serena was so frightened that she almost lost her soul. She unconsciously hid the button in the bedspread so that no one could see it.
This was her secret. It had been hidden for many years.
She was embraced hand and foot by the little one who came in and murmured, “Mother, I don’t want to sleep alone. I’m sleeping with you.
Serena’s frightened heart gradually calmed down and she said softly under the light, “Manuel, you have grown up and can no longer sleep with Mama. You are a man and I am a woman we are different, do you understand?
Manuel rubbed his arm over his face with dissatisfaction, “No, I am not an adult and you are my mom, so there is no sex difference between you and me.
-And Mom, you let me sleep alone these days. I miss you. Please let me sleep with you tonight.
Serena, -. Manuel.
-Mom keeps saying I’ve grown up. So, can I go find my daddy?
Serena would have liked to persuade him to go back to his room to sleep, but suddenly he surprised Serena with a sentence and her heart skipped a beat.
Was it the twist of fate?
When I was abroad before, Manuel never asked her to bring his father to him, so he was very nice and obedient.
On the contrary, after he came home, he talked more and more about this topic. Even after ordering Cristian not to investigate, Manuel went into his bed and told him.
Was it a coincidence?
Serena tightened her grip on the gold button and then pressed it into her palm.
-Why are you asking me all of a sudden?” Serena looked at Manuel in her arms, trying to soften her voice, -You didn’t used to-when you were abroad, you never talked about it, did you?
Manuel half-closed his lips, -Mom used to work very hard, so I understand mom, but now that I’ve grown up. I don’t need to ask you to find him, I can find my father by myself.
Serena, -…-
-Can I go find my father, Mom ? – Manuel shook her arm, -I am powerful. I can definitely find my daddy ! –
Hearing this, Serena’s breath choked. She finally realized that Manuel was not joking with her by mentioning him several times. He really wanted to find his father.
Even though she felt it was impossible for Manuel to find Cristian at such a young age, Serena still felt worried and immediately scolded him, “No, you can’t!
Her voice was very stern and Manuel was immediately stunned.
-But, Mom…
-Did you hear?” asked Serena, looking at Manuel.
Manuel blinked and his eyes turned red. -Mom, but I -I want to find Dad.
“I didn’t say you can’t. ” Serena did not expect him to hear her words. After she said no, he stubbornly insisted on finding her father. Suddenly she became more stern and began to scold him without thinking, “Your father is dead, you don’t need to look for him, you can’t find him! –
Manuel, -…-
When she told him, Serena’s eyes also slowly turned red.
Their eyes seemed to confront each other. After a while, Serena closed her eyes and blew her nose, saying, -I’m sorry, Manuel…. Was I a little flustered a moment ago?
It was fine if they kept arguing, but when Serena suddenly spoke to him in a soft voice, Manuel could no longer hold it back immediately and burst into tears.
The voice pierced Serena’s heart like a needle. The pain left her unable to breathe. He had just told her something irreversible. At that moment, she did not know how to explain it to Manuel, so she could only reach out and hug him.
-I’m sorry, Manuel. I’m sorry, it’s mom’s fault-she shouldn’t have scolded you.
As she spoke, Serena’s tears poured out, like a broken string, falling and hitting Manuel’s neck.
Manuel was startled by those tears, he was still crying, but it seemed to him that it was the first time he had seen his mother cry like that in front of him.
The bean-sized tears could not stop completely, and they poured into his eyes.
-I’m sorry… It’s mother’s fault. I’m sorry…” However, Serena kept repeating the same sentence, as if she was out of her mind.
Manuel saw Serena like this, and suddenly felt that he had caused trouble.
He reached out his small hands to hug Serena’s neck and pressed his face warmly against her, “Mom, don’t cry. I-I will never talk about father’s search again.
Serena could no longer stop crying, and the tears poured down. She hugged Manuel in her arms and began to cry again.