Josey was pacing up and down, pulling on her hair.
“Shut up. Just stop being so sad. They are dead! You need to die too!” Josey says and I raise my eyebrow at what she was saying.
She growls and her body stops pacing as she turns to face me.
“Sabrina make it stop. My wolf won’t stop crying and being sad, it is driving me insane.” Josey says and I remain silent.
Josey continues to pull at her hair, scratching herself. Well she was losing it, yep.
“Is this you or your vampire talking?” I ask and she shakes her head no.
“Me. Look I want to be with Cayden, my vampire is not forcing me to do anything.” Josey says pleadingly and I shake my head no.
I look straight in to her eyes as she gives me the puppy dog eyes.
“Feel everything.” I say and she falls to the floor crying. She howls out loud as she folds in to a fetal position.
“Why are you doing this? It hurts so bad.” Josey cries out and I almost felt bad. Almost.
Looking at her was breaking my heart but I needed her to remember her mates. She was once so in love with them, once and that kind of love, their mate bond was one you can’t forget about in just an hour.
I walk away from her cell, leaving her to her feelings. Just when I was about to walk past Cayden’s cell, he calls out for me. I stop walking and turn to face him.
“Please, don’t put her through that. Would it be so bad being with me?” Cayden asks and I send him a death glare.
“Don’t be full of it. Clayton and Chase just died and you already want her in bed with you. She will mourn her mates and if she still wants to be with you after all of that, I will allow it but until then, you will not be with her. I lost my brother’s because of you and for that, you will pay because they did not deserve that kind of death and you know it, she knows it.” I say before walking way, not giving him time to respond to me.
I walk to my office and I make my way in, closing the door behind me. A book on the shelf falls on the floor and just when I was about to put it back, it catches my eye.
It was a book explaining my powers, my gifts. A book that explained in detail what the powers of the moon goddess were and how I was to use them.
The book also reminded me that I was the moon goddess. I can be advised but in the end, I make the decisions. I had the power.
What stood out the most for me was that I had the power to choose between life and death. Yes, in most times, it is safer not to get involved as all my pups had to live their lives and most of their deaths was a result of the lives they chose but when it came to people that did not deserve death, I could intervene.
I could intervene, prevent a tragedy or bring someone back to life.
The problem was, that portal was only open for a short period and that portal would only be open if the person thought they had been robbed of their lives. If indeed they were robbed, there was a portal where I had to decide if they should be dead or they come back to life.
Had I gone to school, I could’ve saved the twins. The elders advised against me interfering with death saying I’d have to pay an even bigger price but the book doesn’t mention that. Obviously, there will be a price to pay for this.
It’s inevitable but there’s also more to this.
I stormed out of the office in pursuit of Hunter. He is sort of the king of this realm and he had to know if this was one of my capabilities.
I find my family sitting in the garden. They all had sour looks on their faces and I mentally groaned. Evan was right, they were definitely arguing about the Jose issue.
“Hunter, may I speak with you? In private.” I say before turning around and making my way back to my office.
Hunter follows me and closes the door once inside of my office.
“I found a book. The book is about my powers and what I can do with them. I came across a power, not exactly a gift but because I’m the moon goddess, the god of werewolves, I get to choose between life and death. Do you know of this?” I ask and Hunter let’s out a loud long sigh.
“Yes. We are not sure it is an ability you have as my mother struggled with it. She could not do it while she was alive and I need you to not get your hopes up.” He says as he makes his way closer to me.
“She’s the one that saved me after Ethia killed me. I was dead and she said she would not allow it.” I say folding my arms for that added effect.
“Oh?” Hunter says, shocked.
“Yeah. I met her and we had a chat. She saved me so clearly she finally figured out how to use it.” I say and Hunter nods in agreement.
“You are thinking of bringing Clayton and Chase back, aren’t Ya?” Hunter asks me and I could not find the words so I nod my head yes.
“Well I won’t stop you there. I don’t know how it works but I know where it is done. Come with me.” Hunter says and walks past me, opening one of the many doors in the office. We walk in to the room, revealing a small pond. I don’t even know if that’s what they call it.
Glowing fish swam in the pond. It was actually very quiet and tranquil in this room.
“This is the room my mother used to talk to the spirits. To spend time with them and gain some insights on their wisdom and time on earth. Like me, she was from this realm so she could not really connect properly with the earthlings or understand anything they went through and this was her way of connecting with the earth so she can better help the ones still alive on earth.” Hunter tells me and I go down on my knees, palms resting on the ground and looking in to the pond.
“Sabrina, you need to know that sometimes you can’t bring people back. Not everyone will be in this pond or needing a save. Sometimes you also have to deny the ones that did terrible things the chance at life again, you can’t save everyone. You are the god here and even family members need to stay dead for life to run it’s course. Understand?” Hunter says to me and I nod my head yes.
“What do they call the fish?” I ask and Hunter chuckles.
“I don’t see fish but that’s because I’m not the goddess. The fish you see are lost souls, souls that have not passed on completely and ones that need your help to move on. There will be some that need you to deliver a message or help with something.” Hunter tells me.
I touch the water and immediately I’m pulled in. I feel like I’m floating, I could not open my eyes as the light was too blinding.
I took a minute to get used to the light and I was surrounded by it. Different light sources surrounded me and I reached out for one.
When I touched it, it turned in to human. An old woman, who looked stressed and worried.