Uncle Deacon sat down on one couch and motioned for Max and I to sit down too. We sat on opposite sides of uncle Deacon.
“Max, you pulled away from Sabrina. So you start first. Tell her why you left her and be completely honest.” Uncle Deacon said.
Shuu no beating around the Bush and exchanging pleasantries.
No asking how the little man is. No asking for a little strong something for this conversation.
No. We get straight to the point here.
“Why should I do that? We are over. There’s no going back.” Max says.
“No there isn’t. Not after the stunt you pulled with the new law but that kid still belongs to the both of you and I did not raise you to be a deadbeat father.” Uncle Deacon said.
“And Sabrina, you let Max finish. You will get your turn. Same with you Max when it is Sabrina’s turn, you keep your mouth shut.” Uncle Deacon says and I nod my head yes.
We all look at Max, waiting for him to lay it on me thick.
“I left Sabrina because I did not respect her. She expects things to magically happen. A happy ending without any problems. She finds reasons to complain about her gifts and how they’re such a curse. Life is so tough for Sabrina when she didn’t have to work for any of those gifts. She was born with them. Everyone has problems and hers might seem bigger but that’s because they are hers. Some of us have to work even harder for everything that we have. You run away from problems instead of facing them head on and I understand being young plays a part in that kind of decision making but that can’t be your way of life for every failed relationship. I get it, I took on another woman but you had every right to make her kneel to you but you didn’t.” Max said to me.
He let out a sigh.
“You need to remember I was raised the Lycan way. My father slept with different women every other day. That was my point of reference but I tried to stay true to you. Until your family hurt my pack. You don’t want to take responsibility for any of that. While you were away to who knows where, my warriors were falling one by one. When you had the power to end all of those men, you could’ve done that from the start. None of my pack members needed to die because your uncle had a vendetta against your family.” He says and I have to blink a few times to fight back the tears.
“You’re a spoilt girl. You’ve been given everything in your life. You turn a certain age and surprise, white wolf with magical powers and crazy strength. Your mother can come back to the living if she wants. Some of us don’t have that luxury. It is war after war because of you! You’re the bringer of death more than anything and I helped you to make more of you. There’s a mini you that’s even stronger because he’s a Lycan, who will bring even more death. Why would I want to be part of that? I’ve played along long enough. I will not let you or that baby anywhere near my pack. Whether I father another child or not. My help ends here, with that baby.” Max says and this time, the tears fall freely on my face.
Honesty hurts. It is painful.
The truth is really not nice to hear. It is heartbreaking. So heartbreaking.
“Well that was a mouthful but thank you for sharing Max. Sabrina?” Uncle Deacon said and I could feel their stares. I looked up and looked at Max.
“I’m sorry I was such a burden to you. I’m so sorry I made you feel like you had to treat me like glass. Like I could never take care of myself. I didn’t want you to feel that way. I had no idea but had you voiced your feelings, I would’ve known. As partners, we tell each other everything. I don’t know what hurts the most, the fact that you feel that way about me or the fact that you couldn’t tell me about how you feel.” I say.
You could hear the hurt in my voice clearly.
“What I’m not sorry about, is my gifts. They come with a burden, you could never carry. I say that because if you couldn’t handle me, then you could never wield such power. You are incapable of controlling it. When you spent the whole day planning the war, I went to the moon and spent 10 years in training. I was tested emotionally and physically. If you think I’d come back perfect, then you’re not for me. Your problems are smaller than mine because they are not mine! You don’t prioritize them like I do mine so don’t blame me for that.” I said. I stand up and walk around the apartment.
“I dimmed my light so you could be the man. Yes, you didn’t ask me to do that but you’ve never been with a woman like me. I have some crazy strength. It is either intimidating or empowering and I never know how people truly feel until it’s too late. I’m disappointed you’re one of them because you’ve known me all my life. I felt safe with you. I let you in and you spit in my face. ” I say and I chuckle as I think of where Max and I started.
“I was a good woman to you and I don’t care what you say to that. I let you be the man even when we both know who carried the muscle here. Was it not you that stopped me from giving myself away to the people coming to fight our pack?! You told me the pack had my back! And when I found out that my family was behind the attacks, what did I do?” I ask looking at Max.
The weather took a turn and the clouds turned gray. It looked like a storm was coming and I knew that was my doing but they didn’t need to know that.
“I took all of my energy and killed every last one of their warriors. I took that chance knowing very well that my crazy uncle could come for me and not one person would have the strength to stop him. I put your pack first over my life and my son’s because they couldn’t die over something I could prevent. Yes we had fallen warriors, but do you know what I lost? I lost you. You were my fallen warrior and I had to get used to being pregnant alone without you and mourn our relationship. I was grieving my mother, grieving you and trying to come to terms with being a single parent. I also had to worry about where I’d get my next meal!! I was pregnant you idiot, I couldn’t shift and you left me alone to die of hunger. ” I say.
I was full out crying now.
“I went hungry and had to try find the energy to deal with you fucking that dead wolf every night! Where the fuck would I find the energy to fight her?! I was carrying your child and using all of my energy to save your child and keep him alive. I was willing to use all of my energy to at least keep him alive long enough till birth. Oh and let’s not forget how you got the doctor to not treat me or check if my pregnancy was going well. You think I’m a spoilt little brat? Well you’re a good for nothing, ungrateful, ass wipe of an alpha.” I say with so much venom.
This prick.